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I, who am still a newbie, "of Beginners Mind" that's to say, wide open,
think, IMHO, that Abes message, what I've seen of it thru the folks here,
gets down to this amazing simplicity....
"Be who you are!!.....and stop mucking about creating what you don't
really want!"
How to do that is why I follow this list.
Because who I am is a Metaphysical Wordsmith,and love sharing my
viewpoint of the simplicity of Spirit, to uplift myself and those who may
read, that is why I write to this list
I appreciate that Abes message is direct and the simplicity of What-Is.
I appreciate the appreciation and acknowledgement I recieve from others
here, as such has been largly missing in my life.
When I was counselling, we sometimes used this phrase, when all else
didn't seem to work.
"Be who you are!" Would you believe many times we heard, "That's the
last thing I would ever want to be!"
How twisted can one get?
Abe's message, for me, personally is, "Here's something that can be
done about it; something that will work!" " Thanks!"

"ME, JANE": And thanks to you too for more understanding of the focus wheel
and how I can apply it.
I see another way would be to write what 'living alone' means as you
have. and...

JULS LAUGHING PAWS, A condition of my rental is that I must not have a dog
as there are many cats in this retirement village.
Must tell this one. I had a Scottie dog. I swear she had a sense of
humour, just like mine. Maybe she caught it off me. She would sit on my lap
while I was driving. One day I turned too sharp and she fell off my lap and
thru the loose car door!
Before she hit the road, I caught her back paw and, as I learnt in Aikido,
used her motion to circle her up and back into my lap. Reckon abt 1 second
total time out!
I will never forget her look of surprise and delight. But I ramble!
Nor can I walk abt naked. Auckland is having heavy frosts although we do
get sunny days.
I gave up X movies and 'adult' videos, ages ago as they only fan the
fires of my resistance to living alone!
Correct, it does make one appreciate other people. I am even glad when my
son comes to borrow money, or my daughter to see if I am keeping the place
tidy.
12 roommates? Hmmmm A community started near here and at first built
long houses, where one had some 20 room-mates. I told my friend that was my
idea of Heaven and he replied that it was his idea of Hell! Different
strokes for different folks. Many times, I have thought, I should have been
born as a member of a tribe. (but I've been there and done that!)
I retired into a complex with abt 40 neighbours who I thought would visit
and play but they are old generation New Zealanders and it wouldn't be
proper to speak to a new neighbour in his first year!
Maybe not NYC but definitely LA, or London or somewhere in India with its
teeming millions.
Yes, it is also abt relationships. I run workshops on Unconditional Love
and I would like to do a course on loving relationships but until I can
manifest one, that wouldn't be very honest!
BTW I have attach. and a long article on Unconditional Love, anyone just
ask!
Juls, I will dwell on you final sentences but I never get bored and I am
almost free of other emotional stuff, thanks to Avatar and lately learning
to pivot.
Living alone means lots of time to investigate stuff like the Abe list,
write EMs, do absent Spiritual Healing, meditate, walk the Path, I could
never fall off and even learn Astral Projection, in preparation for the
transition to come, where I, most definitly, won't be living alone.
Such helpful loving listers!
Eric/Huggie

In a message dated 99-07-10 14:31:08 EDT, connee@... writes:

<< Who are you saying you are? >>

Dear Ones,

I have been "away" for 3 months, but I have carried each of you in my heart.
I ventured into the unknown, discovering the joy of living in the mystery. .
.

I am a healer, a visionary, a mystic, a dreamer. I live passionately within
my own heart and reside in my own truth. I am an adventurer on a journey
with no end. I am a seeker and discover much. I am an explorer open to the
possibilities. I am an innocent child who trusts. I am a wise soul who
knows. I am a woman of means - which means I am independent and whole within
my own self. I am an open heart of love expressing joy in all ways. I am a
lover of touch - spiritual, physical, emotional, and sexual. I am an
unconditional lover and expand this pathway each moment of my being. I am a
mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend. I am a woman and enjoy being this
mystery greatly. I am the joy of loving intensely, faithfully, passionately
because doing so is my truth. I smile and say "All Is Well" as I honor the
truth of who I am.

Thank you, dear ones, for being seeds in my life and joys in my heart.

lovelight,
Alyce

In a message dated 7/11/1999 2:34:35 AM Pacific Daylight Time,
Abraham-Hicks@... writes:

<< Ah, NetPaul, you picked up on my homespun, eclectic spirituality. :-)

You're right, I'm not strictly Abe. I take what resonates with me from Abe
and from other traditions, too, but there isn't one tradition I completely
embrace, it's much more personalized than that.

If I had to put an Abe spin on this, I'd just say that "All is well" really
rings true, including the sticky, mucky stuff. :-) Going through the
sticky, mucky stuff has gotten me here, and I don't regret a minute of it.
When you can relax even during tough times within the certain knowledge that
it's all right and there for a reason, it makes it so much easier. :-)

Kimmer >>

NetPaul and Kimmer -

What gets me through the sticky mucky stuff (as someone who has lived along -
more or less- for 10 years) is to love myself unconditionally and to know
that whatever I do at any moment is ok. It's been a long journey getting to
the point (well - not saying I'm fully there either :-)) where I can accept
myself exactly as I am and love me, and the Abe teachings (and others) have
helped tremendously, but it's getting easier and easier. All is indeed well.

Love and peace,
Patrice<3

I got a REALLY neat insight today as I was going about my morning rounds and
thinking about Connee's question of WHo am I and Who do I want to be and How
do I want to present myself to the universe and everyone else?

I was thinking that I should call Al to see if he wants to go to the meeting
with me tomorrow and then I thought about Dr. Jackson and wondered when we
could meet and talk Vet stuff and then I passed the Emergency Vet Hospital
that dropped my first dog Pasha off the table and his whole paralysis thing
which is relavent to this question because his accident and his entry into
my life caused me to trash my photojournalism career and get into dogs and
for a LONG time I started off my client meetings telling them about him and
our trials and tribulations and that I had worked with aggressive dogs, sort
of as a backwards way to reassure them that I would take Great care of their
dogs since I had fucked up with mine. And then it HIT ME, Pasha died when
he was 2 1/2 years old, the DAY after all of this Abe stuff clicked in for
me, I was in the car, listening to a tape and it all became clear to me,
everything that they were saying just made sense for the first time. I was
SO excited I rushed home and he was on his leash in the front yard and I
threw my arms around him and told him, that I GOT IT, I REALLY Understood it
now and He was Free to heal himself now. I felt On Top of the World and
Totally invincible and I thought he was staying paralyzed to help me learn
this stuff so it all made sense in a psychotic sort of way. Well, the next
morning he died in my arms out of no where.

SO, this morning as I was driving and my mind was wandering it Hit Me, part
of my resistence to the Farm is that I'm afraid when it gets going Cordy
will die on me as well. He's 2 and 4 months and as neurotic as it sounds
once it occurred to me, it actually made sense. SO, when I got home I took
him for a 2 hour romp to prove to myself that he's Healthy and Vibrant and
Full of Life and Loving Life. But I've still got a ways to go to really let
go of this. I guess my fear is that I will relax and trust that
everything's ok and then something awful will happen, Cordy or my Mom or
Gram will die, or my Dad, something will happen to ruin the perfect moment
or to make me regret going for my dreams. I have evidence of that happening
in my life in the past and it really Sucks when it happens.

So, now that I know what's in my vibe, what can I do to transform it? Any
hints?

LOVE YA- Juls

What is Abraham's core message, to you?

All, all, ALL is well! EVERYTHING really is perfect and wonderful, and even
what I judge to be the worst of life is worth celebrating. And the more I am
able to see and feel that, the more of my dreams come true and the more
beautiful and joyful life becomes!

John

Hi, Kim and Paul,

What powerful stuff! Thanks for sharing about your experience with living
alone and having all the murky stuff come up, Kimmer! I agree with you, Paul,
about awareness being a transformative goal.

My most powerful transformation came out of a time when I was living alone,
right after my husband, Cliff, made his transition. I was 43. I had lost it
after he died, and gotten badly injured, and so I was in a wheelchair for about
three months. Couldn't drive at all, couldn't walk without incredible pain.

So I sat on my sofa. Mostly alone. With myself.

I got to hear the self pity of my thoughts REALLY loudly. (Thanks for bringing
this out in your bereavement article, Eric!) What other people were calling
grieving and congratulating me for doing my work in, I could now hear was
mostly just whining. "I used to be loved, but now I'm not." "Oh, woe is me,
what will become of me?" "Why me?"


The funny part was that I had had at least two major opportunities prior to
that to listen to and shift my thinking that I had ignored. And so the
circumstances, as Abe says, had gotten bigger. First, I sprained my ankle
badly and needed crutches for awhile. Then I broke my foot in three places and
was on crutches for a couple of months. But did I let it slow me down to
reflect on things that maybe were out of alignment in my life and find ways to
bring greater harmony? No, in fact, the day after I broke my foot, against
doctor's orders, I went into work and taught an Internet class with my foot
propped up above my heart with ice packs. After all, there were people flying
in from Seattle and Houston, and their trip would be for naught if I didn't
teach my class! During that time, I crawled (literally) onto commuter
airplanes with no gates, because the stairs were too narrow for my crutches. I
cried the day I got to Lincoln, NE, and discovered there were 27 steps up from
the street to my room in the B&B. (All the hotels with handicapped access
were booked full because of a roller skating convention!) Then when I finally
got up there, there was neither a phone or a TV, and I was going to be there,
teaching classes every day for a week. I couldn't even call my huband to
whine! <grin> But did I sit and think about my life a bit? No, I read, again
literally, 14 murder mysteries that week to keep my mind off my troubles!

So, later on, with the help of severe frostbite, I had the opportunity to sit
with myself for three months. The pain killers kept me from watching TV or
reading, because I couldn't concentrate on the stories, so there were no
distractions. I had no pets at that time.

It was awesome, what came of it. I really started to noticed my thoughts, and
began to make other choices that were more appealing. I was exposed to two
women who had lost mates (through divorce) who were reliving the loss daily, 11
and 17 years after the event. It was not attractive! They were my most
powerful teachers. Self pity is ugly and self destructive. No one wanted to
be with either of these women. I began to play "what do I like about this"
even though I had not been exposed to Abe yet.

The result? I learned to appreciate. That was the period when, on the worst
day, the only thing I could find to appreciate was the way purple and turquoise
complimented each other on my bedspread. But it was enough to raise my
vibration just a little, and move me to a new place where Law of attraction
could bring more things to appreciate into my life.

Ultimately, through that experience, I learned to set my tone at a high enough
level that the thoughts in my head were more loving, grateful, joyful and
comforting! In, fact, they were so wonderful that I began to see being alone
as a great gift. And so now, even though I have the loving companionship of
David and Dusty ^..^ and Rosie ^..^ all the time, I seek out time by myself, to
bask in the beauty of my visions and thoughts.

Living alone and being trapped in the house for awhile was a great gift to me.
It changed my life.

Love and cyberhugs,

Connee

From: AM1961@...
To: netpaul@...
Subject: Re: [Abraham-Hicks] Blue Sun
Date: Sunday, July 11, 1999 10:23 AM

Dear Paul,

Did you write this?

It is exquisite. Thank you for sharing your soul so openly. I am

touched.

If I wish to share this with friends, should I just credit your email

address?

lovelight,
Alyce

Dear Alyce (and others)

Thanks for the appreciation (grin). Yes I wrote it, yesterday am after
seeing green's magnificent photo of the blue sun, and letting it blend with
thoughts expressed by one or two jdc friends on the existential angst of
loneliness...one of our profoundest dragons which we are called to slay as
we walk the pathless path of the hero(ine) with a thousand faces.

Please feel free to share it as you wish. I should probably start adding
copyright notices.

So here it is, to append to the bottom.

(c) Paul Roberts 1999


Huggles round the tub,

NetPaul

Joyous greetings of light, love, and laughter to all this morning.

How quickly this list has become one of the highest points of my day -- thank you all for your posts -- I learn or am reminded of something I know from each one. It's marvelous.

The "Who Am I" exercise (lesson 13 on Connee's pages) has proven to be exceedingly difficult for me -- and as a process, has been most enlightening. It's combined in my head with the "What Do I Like About Living Alone" exercise -- I was not previously aware of how much of my identity I derive from my external situations, nor was I cognizant of the dichotomy (EXTREME!!!) between who I appear to be and who I am on the inside. In my case, "those with whom I live and for whom I provide care" have taken over my identity to a large degree -- I realized from attempting these two exercises that this was happening, and also how uncomfortable it is for me.

I am reminded of a poem I saved for many years -- it started out something like this:

I have a name, I know I must, but if I heard it, I would bust.
I'm Robert's wife, and Timmy's mother, and you know Bob? Well, he's my brother.
On cupcake day I am the baker, on baseball day, I am the taker.

And it went on and on describing how the mom was defined by her roles and her relationships rather than by who she really was. That poem would describe me very well right now if I could remember it. <smile>

As I read the examples of what people liked about living alone, I found myself longing for the ability to be alone -- for someone else to come in and take over caring for these people (OK -- I really thought "pains in the butt", but that's not very loving and I don't want to be thought of as non-loving, you see. <grin> How funny - I didn't know THAT was important to me, either. Ah, more self discovery! ) . . . so that I could experience some of those delightful, delicious, delectable experiences. So I have had to do the opposite -- try to find something I like about not living alone to raise my vibration in that area.

You see, I evidently have been attracting "not living alone" because over the next 2 weeks, I have 3 more people coming to my house to stay. My daughter is coming home and bringing her cousin who really wants to live here and go to school, and my husband's friend got a job with Bob and is coming today to stay with us for a few weeks until he can get a place of his own. See how well the law of attraction works even when you aren't doing it deliberately???

When I started trying to write out who I am, my history of successes and failures kept coming up. I did this, I had that, I lost this, I earned that, I won this, I hurt when. . . and so forth and so on. Who am I??? Ouch - major learning curve here. Mega-contrast. What do I like about not knowing who I am??? <G>

Three things came to mind that I wanted to share.

1) I saved a card for a long, long time (in fact, it might still be tucked away in a treasure box somewhere) that said something like this (I'm paraphrasing from memory): Why am I afraid to tell you who I am? And on the inside it said: Because I am afraid that you will think I am not enough.

2) I have a friend (Karen) who, in caring for her disabled husband and his grandmother over many years (17 or 18 I think), went from being relatively slender and able to get out and do things with a smile on her face to weighing over 300 lbs, and unable to do much of anything other than worry and cry. And I realized that something I have said repeatedly over the past 4 years as I've had to care for my husband when he was injured, my mother-in-law over 4 hospitalizations, and my disabled son for the past 3 years has illustrated the power of attraction. When I have felt dissatisfied with my looks, my weight, my health, my finances or my duties -- I have summed it up with one phrase that to me said it all: "oh, my god, I'm turning into Karen and I hate it!" Again, the Universe has responded to my vibration by sending me more ways to be like Karen.

3) It's easy to get caught up in becoming a "Human Doing" instead of a Human Being.

I don't know how long it is going to take me to be able to put together some coherent words to tell you who I am. I can safely say this:

I am an awakening entity -- a spiritual being having an in-body experience. I am approaching spiritual sentience, I suspect. As I look back upon my life experiences, I realize I am a MAGNIFICENT unconscious creator -- I am awed as I see with clarity how my words, thoughts, and subsequent actions delivered exactly what I was vibrating in unison with. However, just as a child will toy with his or her excrement out of ignorance, I realize I have on a spiritual level done just that -- but now I recognize that some of my creations have been excrement, and I am thankful for the loving guidance of my teachers and benefactors who gently, kindly, and with great compassion have taught me not to play with my poop. <VBG>

I'll let y'all know who I am when I figure it out. . . or make it up. <G>

Much Love and laughter,

Janelle

Ted Black wrote:

Thanks so much for your insight. You have contributed so much to my growth
with your brief comments.

A warm and sincere thanks!

Ted

From: MMHaffner <Equinox9@...>

it's impossible for cause..........-ANY- cause to happen in the "past".

there is one place and -ONLY- one place where cause happens.
in the rite [[[[[[ now ]]]]]]

now the thing to do is to think about the *FULL IMPLICATIONS* of the
above statement!

and then.......what happens to the thousands and thousands of problems
that "pop up".
are they still around if the above is rightly contemplated?

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your welcome!

i find myself pushing with "everyday" problems, then i get these
insights and i Have to post them, i can't help it, haha....

but of course this is the reason for our little problems, aging
included.

martin.

What Would Happen to ME

=============================

What would happen to ME
If I simply let go of it all
If, simply as simply could be,
Stopped banging my head on the wall,
And let it all drop fancy free
A fat rolling head on the floor.

What would happen to me?

And what would all those people roar?

Mammas and papas, uncles and aunties,
Grammas and grandpas and teachers and preachers,
All the right honorable authorities
Insisting they're right, and not me

How much disapproval would I feel,
How much disapproval could I take.
Feeling them collectively all shake
Their sage grey heads all muttering
Beneath their hairy breath

Thinking I am bad for even thinking of such death.

And even if I pushed them all away,
And then became a rebel with a cause,
Or maybe none
Would I ever pause,
And ask myself against whom I rebel?
And what about rebellion makes me strong?
And where it is that I must not belong?

Does being on the outside make me right?
Does being on the inside make me wrong?
Or is it just the other way around?

What is in the fabric of it all
That makes me think I need a precious piece
Of hallowed ground, a place where I can drive
A stake into the ground,
Of this hard beating heart that I have bound
Up with the head of something I must make

Identity.

What would happen to me?

What would happen if I gave a yell,
Long and loud enough to pull quite down
The fabric of my own reality,
My very nearly perfect half a hell,
Or half a heaven as the case may be?

What if I would pull THAT curtain down?

Who'd be left to run the big machine,
Billow smoke and holler "I am OZ,
OZ the Great and Terrible,
Heed Thou ME!"
And do be sure to write the whole thing down!"

What would happen if there WAS no me
Sitting in the middle of it all
All the hoot and holler, all the smoke,
Sitting in the middle of the joke?

What would happen to me?

What would happen if I finally climbed
The very highest mountain I could find,
And viewed the widest vista I could see,
And walked up to the very final ledge,
And contemplated life upon the edge
Of this particularity,
This reality
This peculiar hedge

And jumped because I heard a single voice
Sing soft and low of wild divinity
And looking at a gathering of crows
Decided I could fly, insanely free,
Into the boundless ocean blue of mind.

What would happen to me?

Would I forget the way back home?
The way to kiss the kids goodnight?
Forget the difference between red and green
Coming to a traffic light?

What would happen to me?

And what would happen,
What would happen,
What would happen if I then forgot
That everything is hard and I am slow
So slow to learn and quicker to forget?

Would I forget the places I must go
Would I forgot the people I must see.
Forget that IT is high and I am low?

What would I regret?
And what would happen to me?

And what would such forgetting
Get me in the end?
Could I, would I, make myself pretend
Pretend I know, pretend I do not know
The answer to the question "Who are you?"
Pretend it's not a mirror, nor a show
Shimmering above, beneath and through
The endless rolling waves of bluest sea?

What would happen to me?

And what would happen then to me at last
If I read a book and let it speak
Its peace to me, then simply put it down.
And let its starseed simmer in my brain
Not watched, nor thought about, again
Until the hidden seed took root and glared
In rocket rainbow arcs across that blue
and heaving ocean glass
Spurting leaves and branches as it grew
Itself all through the infinite blue pane.

To exactly whom
At that point could I possibly complain
My heart out to?

And to which channel would I then attune,
And who else's message would I seek,
Whose answers would I gather and whose prayers would I croon,
If all those rainbow arcs began to speak
All at once, of everything they knew
Or anything at all they wanted to?

Would I turn that pane into a wall?
Or would I let it fall and shatter, finally
Into unending multi-colored shards
Of nothing much at all?

So what WOULD happen to me
If I closed my eyes and jumped
Off that final ledge,
That final hump
That rudely juts into infinity,
That hump I call my very own

Identity?

Would I fall and smash into the ground,
Scream into air that silently slides round
This face about to shatter on a rock,
This flesh about to tear upon a tree?

What would happen to ME?


(c) Paul Roberts 1999

Hubby and I were word-playing the other day around the idea of our concession wagon and the various forms it could take. We were discussing the BJ's Diner concept, and he reminded me that when we tested the idea a couple of years back, people kept asking what a "dinner" was, evidently not knowing what a "diner" was -- so jokingly I told him we ought to just put up one big sign that says "EAT" so nobody would get confused. We laughed about that, and promptly forgot it.

Just a few minutes ago hubby comes in and hands me a page out of one of the Sunday sale papers, saying, "I found the dishes for your diner." There on the page are clear glass dishes (clear glass is a favorite of mine) with EAT written in white around the edges. The dessert dishes say, "YUM." LOL I've really got to get CONSCIOUS and DELIBERATE about my creation, yes????

Giggles around the Kibbles,

Janelle

Wow David,
You don't toy around do you? Abraham's core message...
For me it is...
Knowing All is Well because they have given us - in clear and simple terms -
the tools and rules (ie Laws of Attraction, Allowing and Delib Creation) of
how to set our own tone and connect with the Source of Pure Positive
Energy - in all situations - as we go about living as joyous deliberate
creators. Also learning that FEELING GOOD is our compass needle in a life
geared for Joy, Freedom and Growth.

Hmm - I appreciate my understanding and how I have learned to live this
message daily and how this list re-inforces my connection whenever I so
desire it! Thanks a million Abraham and I welcome continued support from
you and the Universe in keeping connected in a vortex of light and love,
expanding every moment I breathe and spilling over into a joyous writing,
teaching and sharing life!
Love and namaste,
Caryl

I want to Thank you for all that you have blessed me with today.

I feel the flow of our love, your wisdom, and your connection to me now.
I rejoice in the knowing that you have spoken the truth to me in ways that
go as far as my conciousness goes; and that is to the depth and breadth of

my

appreciation for you.

I nearly explode with delight in the knowing that with your lessons,
your gifts of processes, and your way of knowing the "way it is" in this

Universe.

You have given to me and to my world - to all here, the JOY that is Core

Energy.

It is PPE expressing as all that I know it to be.

This leads me to question the group and myself:

What is Abraham's message?

For me it is to see the Joy, experience Pure Love, and KNOW it.

Just that. Period.

For me that is Abraham's message - for all I know it to be.

What is Abraham's core message, to you?

in Life force, Love and Joy,
david.





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Hi Connee and Friends,
Delightful reminder to chew on...

David and I were just sitting here talking, and I got an AHA!
about self-referencing in meeting new people.

My biggy is to not refer to my husband and his work when I meet people -
sure he's brilliant and connected more than me with movers, shakers and
movies and television programmes - but what I am interested in and absorbed
by and the lives my writing and teaching/workshops uplift and inspire is
great and enough to justify who I am!
Also, except when I am chewing on releasing a skew projection - as I am
focused on currently - I no longer choose to refer to my dysfunctional
background with alcoholism as an issue or "teacher"currently operating in my
life. I truly truly am now desirous of releasing in the next few
weeks/months any last vestiges of that learning which was briefly reflected
recently in an incident around my husband.

Who am I truly? A powerful Goddess/Woman of depth, class and spiritual light
and love. A marvellous lightworker, writer, teacher and joyous deliberate
creator who has sped into a new and delicious vibration - which is getting
better and better as I allow all good things to flow into my life
abundantly. A soul of love for self and others. A mother who is fast
becoming a friend demonstrating by my life true Mastery as a wayshower by my
successful actions and be-ing who I am to the world, and to my two beautiful
creations, my son and daughter now young adults.
A woman of passion, inner peace and joy who attracts a variety of matching
friends, women and men into her life to share and dance the truth of this
vibration.
OKAY, LET'S SUM IT UP... IMAGINE I'M AT MARGIE'S AUGUST RETREAT-PARTY...
(1999 OR 2000 - I'm really desiring to be there...) Here is how I'm going to
introduce myself to you - new and old friends...

Hi, I'm Caryl from South Africa. I love Abe teachings and I teach them and
the Artist's Way and Creative Journal writing to others. I'm also a writer
specialising in health of mind, body and spirit articles - and working on
books in the same vein. I'm in the flow of wealth and health and love and
I'm just a joyoys fun-loving woman who is happy to meet you!
There that sounds great doesn't it?
Love and blessings,
Caryl

Hi, friends,

David and I are taking quite seriously our new goal: to expand
our capacity to live in joy! <grin>

So today, since we started Evensong and we can go to church on
Sunday evening, we decided to laze in on Sunday morning and then
go to our favorite four star resort, Landsdowne, which is about
10 miles from our house, for brunch.

The Landsdowne brunch was sumptuous! Cold lobster and potato
salad, mountains of berries and beautifully cut melons and green
salads, at least 10 different kinds of cheeses, hot salmon,
carved sirloin and roast lamb, cold crab claws, king crab legs,
chilled peel and eat shrimp, made to order pastas and omelets,
lasagna, not to mention the desserts! Creme caramel, home made
vanilla bean ice cream, almond cheese cake, rum balls, and 10
different kinds of beautiful little pastries. Mimosas,
champagne, juice and strawberry banana smoothies, and great
coffee all included.

And facing this incredible array of tables, each with entirely
different choices, all included for one price, we began to muse
about Abe's cookie counter analogy. What if we really could
believe that life is just an expanded Landsdowne brunch, and The
Universe is buying?

What would I choose from the health station? Hmmm, vitality,
energy, glowing good health, great strength, endurance and
flexibility. The feeling of being light, fit, young and
gorgeous!

What would I choose from from the home station? A string of
Evensongs, all incredibly beautiful and different. One on a
gorgeous sea shore, and one on a mountain top. One by a river
and one in the desert! Each inhabited by beloved friends who can
think of no better way to spend their lives than to create Heaven
on Earth in this particular corner of Heaven! And in each of
these places, there is a suite reserved for us, anytime we care
to show up, for as long as we want to stay! And when we do,
people celebrate our coming! They are just thrilled that we
decided to come visit their precious Evensong for that time.
When we get there, there are not only these incredible people who
run the place, but other new friends we haven't met yet, gathered
to play, laugh and love together. Oh, I love this freedom to
live in lots of lovely places with joyous playmates.

What would I choose from the travel station? I would choose a
cruise of the Greek Islands in a glorious Evensong yacht, run by
loving friends who's idea of heaven on earth is to sail the
Mediterranean, finding all the most romantic secluded beaches,
and knowing how to land and do short trips to archeological sites
off the beaten path to places that sing with the melodies of
history and love. I can see us lounging on the deck of a
multimasted schooner, laughing at the stories of new found
friends of the Abe persuasion, joining in group meditations and
celebrations of Evensong at sunset on beaches so pristine and
beautiful it defies description. I see us eating gorgeous food,
simple and robust at some meals, elegant and delicate at others,
always perfectly prepared and attractively presented.

What would I choose from the self image station? I would choose
to see myself as a divine being of light romping through an
exuberant physically focused experience!

What would I choose from the wealth station, the friend station,
the family station? What other stations can there be?
Relationship, Creative Projects?

We could even think bigger? What would I choose from the world
station? What kind of world do I want? A world where more and
more people know that they are creators! Where more and more
people choose health, abundance, joy and laughter!

What do you choose?

I'm having such a good time!

Love and hugs,

Connee

Hey Carol!
<grin> I think the problem with
the definition is it was most likely
not written by a bodhisattva!
Just for fun, and as an example,
I looked up "love":
"Ardent affection. A strong liking. To
take pleasure in. To caress:fondle..."
Just doesn't touch it.
I do have a problem also with the
idea that anyone needs to save anyone.
Save is a loaded word. Means the
other person is helpless...would be
lost without help.
To me, a bodhisattva's attitude would
be one of compassionate nurturing
and understanding. The goal would be to
support the growth of an awakening
being that comes to h/er... as
opposed to compulsively and neurotically
chasing sleepwalkers. :)

Love,
Sandy

Hi Paul,

According to the dictionary, a bodhisattva is

an enlightened being who has chosen to forego
nirvana in order to save others? Is that who you
see
yourself as? This definition doesn't
sound very enlightened to me, because
it's hard for me to imagine that an>
"enlightened" being would feel the need
to "save" or "rescue" others.
What is your definition of a bodhisattva?

Seeking to understand,

>Carol>

>> >At 12:14 AM 7/11/99 -0400, you wrote:> >>From:
"Paul Roberts" <netpaul@...>> >>

I'm a bodhisattva here to wake up myself and the
world...and have as much
fun as I possibly can doing it. :o)

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At 12:14 AM 7/11/99 -0400, you wrote:

From: "Paul Roberts" <netpaul@...>
I'm a bodhisattva here to wake up myself and the world...and have as

much

fun as I possibly can doing it. :o)

NetPaul

----------

From: Carol James

Hi Paul,

According to the dictionary, a bodhisattva is an enlightened being who

has

chosen to forego nirvana in order to save others? Is that who you see
yourself as? This definition doesn't sound very enlightened to me,

because

it's hard for me to imagine that an "enlightened" being would feel the

need

to "save" or "rescue" others. What is your definition of a bodhisattva?

Seeking to understand,

Carol

Hiya Carol,

I'm a big one for pulling the alice in wonderland trick of using words to
mean exactly what I want to, regardless of how others have used em before.
I try (not always successfully) to slather enough contextual clues around
my word so people can "get" what I'm saying.

Of course the entire race does that with language all the time...and
William Safire writes a wonderful column weekly in the NY Times sunday
magazine exploring just such morphing of language over time. :o)

Anyway, to your question: I'm not a buddhist, and do not have a set of
belief bubbles around the idea of re-incarnation. It may be so...then
again it may not. (Seth / Jane Roberts, for example, has an alternate
paradigm without karma or time as a linear phenomenon). So right away I
don't fit into that part of the Buddha's belief structure...or Seth's
either. Franky, make me no matter either way. :o)

Here's what DOES matter: I am awake. Not perfect...not done with life and
it's unfolding and it's lessons...but definitely awake. And once, in THIS
life, I was definitely NOT.

From the time I heard others speak about becoming awake...about
enlightenment if you want to use a classical mystic term, I desired same
with all my heart...and knew that it was the freedom from the prison I
experienced myself as living in...this sense of having been once eaten from
the tree of life, and lived in the garden...but since having eaten from the
tree of knowledge of good and evil, and having been ejected from same (to
use a western rather than an eastern metaphor).

Carol: This definition doesn't sound very enlightened to me, because
it's hard for me to imagine that an "enlightened" being would feel the
need to "save" or "rescue" others.

I'm sure you know that as human beings we can do ANY activity from a place
of bondage or a place of freedom: working, eating, fucking, raising
children...the whole deal. It's not what we do, it's who we are when we do
it (or DON'T do it). Any activity done from a place of freedom, joy,
aesthetic preference is WONDERFUL. The very same activity done from a
place of bondage, duty, need SUCKS.

So I have had to work / play through the human bondage part of this
particular game, the compulsive rescuer, if you will, in order to
deconstruct a clusterfuck or two around the need to rescue. But happily,
there was (and is) a pure creative impulse at the center of that thing that
has remained once the slag of human neurosis had burned off. So the
ability remains (increases actually) and the JOY sings itself as a song in
my veins, as the Tao of my life unfolds itself and presents me with IT'S
opportunities to do what Hermes did: go down into the underworld and bring
people back. When I do it in the flow of Tao, it is effortless effort, and
a helluva lot of fun to boot...and profoundly satisfying as I watch, and
yes, even midwife another sentient being into the place of re-connecting
with non-dual awareness and absolute freedom, sometimes for the very first
time.

And not being an outcome junkie about it (as I surely was during earlier
days) I can simply relax throughout the whole deal, knowing that it's
really not ME doing anything...it's the Tao, or spirit, or whatever you
like to call it.

A good pointer to this kind of model would be the kind of "each one reach
one" thing done by the 12 steppers. Someone who's moved from drunkenness
through the dry drunk stage and finally to truly joyful sobriety makes a
wonderful "sponsor" to use AA terms. Yet (having watched this
process) the sponser (if s/he is mature in this game) doesn't make the
mistake of taking the weight of salvation for the other on his shoulders.

To use Richard Bach's terms, he's a messiah, not THE messiah.

Carol: What is your definition of a bodhisattva? Seeking to understand.

Of course not everyone who "wakes up" to the nondual awareness pointed to
by all the mystic traditions (thus making me quite certain than this is a
human universal in play here) is going to have the same abe-ish wanting to
wake up others too. Some folks have OTHER wantings...and don't we need
more awakening beings who get their greatest sense of value fulfillment and
vocation running our government and corporations too...and doing a zillion
other things as well.

But for me, the definition of bodhisattva, and the reason I so define
myself, is that this desire, to participate fully in my own awakening and
that of the world as well, is my deepest and most profoundest wanting (to
use abe-ish terms)...which of course (laughing) is exactly why it has come
to manifest itself so in my life...false starts, missteps and all. And abe
is so right on saying that the FEELING I get when doing this work / play is
my very best clue to whether or not I am simply flowing, or straining to
make something happen.

What an exquisite dance that is!

Did that help?

Love,

Paul

Hello Juls,

One thought that may or may not be comforting is that in Unity (similar to
Science of Mind) they often speak of perfect healing and remind one another
that only the person being healed and The Universe know whether that means
on this plane or transformed to another plane. My understanding from Abe is
that mostly animals prefer to be healthy and, if they stay around when
they're not able to enjoy life to the hilt, it's probably to protect us.
Once you "got" what you needed to "get" Pasha may have felt free to heal
himself in the best possible way for him. On the way home tonight I was
listening to the unedited Abe from Cleveland and they make the point that
animals make very quick transitions except that our needing them, praying
over them, etc. causes them to be uncertain about what they want -- or, in
Pasha's case, perhaps causes them to stay to protect you until you could
make it without that particular protection.

I don't know if this is comforting or not, because we prefer that
people/animals live and die in the best possible way for us, but I think you
set him free to do what was best for him, because you were now on the path
that would free you. It sounds like his circumstances were quite different
than Cordy's great sense of physical well-being. That would make a big
difference, I'd think.

Also, I don't know if you connect with him now (or after his transition) ,
but I had a strong experience of connecting with the dog I most nursed
through a long illness a few days after he died. I didn't identify it as
him at the time, but I knew I was connecting with an uncommon amount of
peace and comfort.

This next paragraphs ramble a bit. Oh, well....

Re: the creating and then having something bad happen, I have a considerable
thread on it from a week or so ago. If you have the past e-mails, the
thread was called "Comfort with improved manifestation" and most people
replied with that title. Some called it "counter-creation" and "improved
manifestation." Admittedly mine had to do with creating it and then having
difficulty and you may think you have yet to create it to begin with.
However the principles seem the same to me.

Possibly if you wanted to, you could address some of the issues before you
do the creation to save some of the undoing after the creation. I don't
know----as I type this, it seems a little "off" for the stage you're
currently focusing on. However the piece that does seem useful is the
thought, "I am a person who....." and finish with something that seems
truthful AND that indicates the steps you are taking are a natural for you
and "fit" with who you are. I find I comfortably allow small steps more
readily than huge ones, though you and I both have an affinity for the giant
ones. Perhaps, to focus on the little ones AND the big ones and see how
that works?

Freedom And Joy

From: Chamberlynn, Pamela <sonreya@...>
To: netpaul@...
Cc: sonreya@...
Subject: living it :-)
Date: Sunday, July 11, 1999 2:45 PM

your poem makes my heart sing :-)

laughing...another awakening being getting a brain tickle, eh?

i am living it! i am/was/is oz and dorothy and the witch and all
those little monkie dudes to be sure. and i am well under way in
releasing all the identities and allowing whatever i really am (god,
that is) to emerge. i am standing on the shores of my own new world,
shaking off my amniotic fluids, and being truly amazed.. and somehow
not surprised...

another satisfied customer. My subversive idea is that we can make this a
group bodhisattva boogie all together now.

i have no clue. no fucking clue.

Grinning...this too shall pass...but ain't it great not to be worried about
it!

whew! what a relief!

You said it, girlfriend. What a monkey on the back identity addiction is!

a baby something or the other, born just several eons ago, takes its
first breath!

The infinite expanse of all that is....your world and welcome to it.

sonreya :-)

Loving you, who ever you are...or are not

NetPaul

From: Carol James

Hi Paul,

According to the dictionary, a bodhisattva is an enlightened being who

has

chosen to forego nirvana in order to save others? Is that who you see
yourself as? This definition doesn't sound very enlightened to me,

because

it's hard for me to imagine that an "enlightened" being would feel the

need

to "save" or "rescue" others. What is your definition of a bodhisattva?

~~~~~~~~~~
It depends on your definition of "self". If I am separate from you, then my
"salvation" is my business. On the other hand, if I and you and we are one,
then there are no "others"...only other versions of the self.

I think "rescue" can come from different places in the self, and different
realizations of self. What, after all, is "self"? (I've been thinking a lot
about that one recently...)

~^^V^^~