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Hi, Paul,

I'd like to add a little info that I haven't mentioned lately, before you go
off too far on the path of my having had a perfectly loving human mother, so
all that was needed was for me to recognize it through the dark veil of my
cultural conditioning. I grew up in an alcoholic/dysfunctional home, and
learned about victimization from my Mom who battered me as a child, as she had
been battered as a child. And then, when she started breaking blood vessels in
her hands from hitting me so hard, (I was about two) and she realized that she
might literally kill me before I would conform to her expectations, she turned
to what I later learned to call psychological abuse to control me. She
transcended her upbringing in a very powerful way that day. She always did the
very best she could, given her current vibration, to be loving to me. She
honestly believed that teaching me the rules of society was the most loving
gift she could give me. It was the highest thought she knew at the time.

What I got so powerfully today is that the unconditional love has always been
there, shining clearly inside what I have judged from later time to be abuse.
And I know now can learn to focus so clearly on the love that it is all I need
to remember in my relationship with her.

In my role as a teacher, I suspect that if people only hear what you seem to
have heard here, that my mom was always outstandingly loving, then it is easy
to dismiss my growth, because it seems it would be easy to feel the love if
you have a purely loving mother. She was quite human in her mistakes, but she
was *always* as loving as she could possibly be, given her upbringing. I
totally missed that part for many years, because I was so focused on
remembering the experiences of being hurt, with the assistance of a string of
very well meaning therapists. From now on, I can do the opposite. Totally
miss the hurt, because I am so focused on remembering the love.

I'm not saying that my Mom wasn't perfect from a spiritual perspective. She
absolutely was and is. She is an extraordinary woman. She raised another
child, my cousin's who died, for his first two years when she was in her 70s,
and she was and is perfectly loving to him. She transcended her upbringing
again in that one. I admire her tremendously. I am grateful that I am finally
learning to love her unconditionally myself.

My life is about learning to grow in love in my awareness of love and God in
all Its guises. I am grateful for your response, so I could make myself more
clear.

Love and hugs,

Connee

beautiful dharma Connee...thanks again. :o)

NetPaul

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From: Connee Chandler <connee@...>
To: abe <Abraham-Hicks@...>
Subject: Re: [Abraham-Hicks] Connee changes her mind
Date: Friday, July 09, 1999 1:24 PM

From: Connee Chandler <connee@...>

Hi, Paul,

I'd like to add a little info that I haven't mentioned lately, before you

go

off too far on the path of my having had a perfectly loving human mother,

so

all that was needed was for me to recognize it through the dark veil of

my

cultural conditioning. I grew up in an alcoholic/dysfunctional home,

and

learned about victimization from my Mom who battered me as a child, as

she had

been battered as a child. And then, when she started breaking blood

vessels in

her hands from hitting me so hard, (I was about two) and she realized

that she

might literally kill me before I would conform to her expectations, she

turned

to what I later learned to call psychological abuse to control me. She
transcended her upbringing in a very powerful way that day. She always

did the

very best she could, given her current vibration, to be loving to me.

She

honestly believed that teaching me the rules of society was the most

loving

gift she could give me. It was the highest thought she knew at the time.

What I got so powerfully today is that the unconditional love has always

been

there, shining clearly inside what I have judged from later time to be

abuse.

And I know now can learn to focus so clearly on the love that it is all I

need

to remember in my relationship with her.

In my role as a teacher, I suspect that if people only hear what you seem

to

have heard here, that my mom was always outstandingly loving, then it is

easy

to dismiss my growth, because it seems it would be easy to feel the love

if

you have a purely loving mother. She was quite human in her mistakes,

but she

was *always* as loving as she could possibly be, given her upbringing. I
totally missed that part for many years, because I was so focused on
remembering the experiences of being hurt, with the assistance of a

string of

very well meaning therapists. From now on, I can do the opposite.

Totally

miss the hurt, because I am so focused on remembering the love.

I'm not saying that my Mom wasn't perfect from a spiritual perspective.

She

absolutely was and is. She is an extraordinary woman. She raised

another

child, my cousin's who died, for his first two years when she was in her

70s,

and she was and is perfectly loving to him. She transcended her

upbringing

again in that one. I admire her tremendously. I am grateful that I am

finally

learning to love her unconditionally myself.

My life is about learning to grow in love in my awareness of love and God

in

all Its guises. I am grateful for your response, so I could make myself

more

clear.

Love and hugs,

Connee


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As I jumped in the car to pick up my kid, I found myself musing on Connee's
dharma re her mom...and was reminded of something I heard many years ago
from Ken Keyes that is so much in the same vein.

Ken said, if I recall, that everyone is always doing the best he or she can
at any given moment to feel loved and empowered.

And that would include not just the best of us, but the rest of us...even
the Adolph Hitlers, the Ted Bundys, the Charlie Mansons in our midst.

I have to say that it is only when I deliberately and firmly ground myself
in ATI omega point consciousness space that I can know this experientially
rather than intellectually. And what a powerful knowing this is for those
of us who have experienced extended periods of crazymaking behavior on the
part of our primary caretakers.

And what a powerful deal it is to be able to look at exactly what IS
without having to flinch and turn away, and yet look with such magickal
buddha eyes that we can see even such a thing as ethnic cleansing or Susan
Smith driving her babies into the lake, and recognize that behind the act
which is evil and heinous, there is this primal desire to experience love
and power.

Big dharma. Big. Powerful. Alchemically transmutes lead into gold.

What a pivot. :o)

NetPaul

...singing soft and low to an angel

In a message dated 7/9/99 6:06:27 AM Eastern Daylight Time, AngelHeal7 writes:

<< the sky sings a song of
.."and do it is"

Basking in the Light of gratitude....

Nori >>
HAHAHA<<< and SO it is....
:) I just noticed this....
:) Nori

Paul Roberts wrote:

I noted when I hit the reply button to connee's email a minute ago, that
the reply was being sent to HER rather than the list. This is an option on
onelist you can control. You might actually want it set the other way, so
that all replies go to the list by default.

Dear Paul and all,

Ummm... I think not!

Yes, reply to sender is how this list is *done*. And it has been that way all along.

The reason for that is clear:

There are well over 200 on this list. Simple replies, unless they have a definite
group interest, are best served to go to directly to the sender.

I work a regular job, and have *not* 3 or 4 hours per day to devote to the list.
MANY are in this same situation, they stay silent, and poke and prod for a hit-home post,
which, when this list is sailing, (and it does that often), is a full and completely
wonderful place to be.

With reply to list, there tends to be lots of one-line clutter, and that means the high speed
mechanical-delete action is the mode of the day. My highest intention for the list
is to be at that sailing place of flowing joyous experience, all forms of Abraham's love
fully moving. So nice! Ah! Reply to list hampers that a bit. It means also a full intent
must be given to post to the list, and not simply pushing the reply button.

Last, but far from least...is the fact that sometimes private email is accidentally sent to the
list,
and that can be quite embarrassing sometimes. This set-up, reply to sender, has saved the day
many times, and in many ways. ---It is staying set that way---

Also, a point of clarification. I believe that now that we are a onelist
list, there are two additional benefits.

First, there is no longer a limit on post size. I once posted a goddam
thesis to the seth list, all about "Who Created Littleton", and it took it
just fine.

The list limit of 300 lines on the old list was to prevent large files and .exe files
from being posted to all on the list. That was the easiest way to do it. The old
list did not have a "no attachments" mode. Onelist does. Onelist has a limit for
text posting, and that is 500K. I would bring that down to 50K if I could.
My suggestion is to send super-long mega posts PEM, and leave list posts readable to
those who only have set themselves a small portion of time each day for this list.
That way, everybody wins.

Second, I think that there are no limits to how many posts onelist will
accept daily. Once again, I have had experience with high volume on
sethnet. For those who get the digest form, it looks to me like onelist
automatically creates a new digest every 25 posts. Some days when the
action there was hot n heavy, I'd get 3 digests.

So, postaholic that I can be, I'm thrilled that we're on onelist now.
Thanks David!

Your welcome Paul. My pleasure. I am knowing that all this talk about lists will
subside as the newness becomes old hat. (A week or so, or less). That way,
this list will return to the ABE list, and not the LIST - List! <g>

There is only one digest per day, that is it. The 50 post per day list limit was
an big advantage that we had on the old list, that does not happen here,
and that is really the only thing I would love to see here. Again, most folks don't
want to go away for a weekend and see 300+ emails to download.
Many may be just like me, and have but an hour (maybe two), to give it per day, and when a
list is at 100+ posts, an hour a day is not enough to give it quaility time. Everybody loses.

Thanks again to all for every feeling expressed, for the joyous growth experience,
and for the Love and Joy that we all share in Abraham's messages to us.

in such Love,
david.

Paul Roberts wrote:

From: "Paul Roberts" <netpaul@...>

As I jumped in the car to pick up my kid, I found myself musing on Connee's
dharma re her mom...and was reminded of something I heard many years ago
from Ken Keyes that is so much in the same vein.

Ken said, if I recall, that everyone is always doing the best he or she can
at any given moment to feel loved and empowered.

I know I've shared with the list a bit of my experience in this arena,
so I won't go over it here. But.... today at work I got a compliment
from a woman whom I'd previously not gotten along with very well.

The last few weeks at work have been way too busy (and the next few look
to be about the same... have to get my creative juices working on
something better!). At any rate, she told a woman who'd been out on
vacation for a few weeks that of the people in my department she admired
me the most, for the way I've handled all of it. Staying focused and not
freaking out (much!).

When she told me this, I was pleasantly surprised! My response was: I
guess there was some benefit to growing up in a dysfunctional family!
Learn to ignore the chaos.

Just had to throw that in there.... thanks much for your sharing Connee.
Your message was quite uplifting.

Cia

WOW;, Thanks Paul!

Dear Freedom & Joy,

Sorry that it took me so long to respond to your request. I was
in Italy again for the week... :)

The sense of a manifestation being too good to last is a
question I have finally figured out this morning in my own life

The question is not if the manifestation is going to last, but if
my vibration is going to continue to be a match to it and that
is totally up to me. It is possible that I may temporarily lose
my vibrational place and therefore attract evidence that the
desired manifestation is slipping away as well. But when that is
the case all I have to do is get back into the mindset that
brought it to me in the first place.

I will respond to the rest of your post ASAP.

Love,

Ilana-Ora

Thank all of you, my JDC family
for the LOVE and PPE you have sent to Angel (we go to the vet Monday)

Sometimes anxiety or worry tries to slip in and in a split second I feel the
wave of Love and PPE from my Light Family and I am soothed. I am so very
grateful for the reminder that all is truly well.

Loving you ALL
Nori
Angel
and ^ . . ^ ^..^
Codie

Eric said re his resistance to "living alone"

<< Well the point of this mail is that I do not know which process to apply
to this resistance. >>

The process that comes to mind right away is the focus wheel. Have you done
that "lesson" yet? The intention is to lesson your resistance, even if it's
only a little bit. You don't have to get all the way to loving what you are
resisting in one focus wheel. Simply lessening your resistance a little bit
is enough.

As you make your honestly-believed positive statements about living alone,
you vibrate in a more positive place, and if you stay there for 17 seconds,
or 68 seconds, you raise your vibration on the issue. The next time you go
back to the issue, your vibration will be where you just left it (a little
higher than it was before you did the focus wheel). If you don't fall into
the old pattern again and focus on what you don't like about it, your
vibration will remain up there. Then you can do another focus wheel another
day, to bring you up a little higher.

Start with something general and believable to you ... this isn't about
"faking it" and naming positive things about living alone just for the
purpose of sounding more "positive" about it. It's about finding something
you can really BELIEVE, it's about changing your vibration.

If I were doing it I would look something like -

Living alone means I can use the bathroom whenever I want, as long as I want!
:-)

Living alone means whenever the phone rings, it's for me!!

Living alone means I can play the tv or radio or music as loud as I want!

Living alone means I can have peace and quiet when I want it!!

Living alone means I can invite whoever I want over any time I want

Living alone means I can eat what I want, whenever I want, wherever I want

Living alone means I can let the dishes pile up until I feel like washing
them

Living alone means I can have the pets I want

Well, you get the idea. To sum it all up, in the center of the focus wheel I
might write -- Living alone gives me more control over my living condtions.

Abe's process is to draw a circle the size of your fist in the center of a
piece of paper. Write the statements around the outside of circle. At 12
o'clock write the first statement, and move around the wheel with the
statements to 3 and 6 and 9 and back to 12. Then in the center of the circle
write a good-feeling summary of how your statments.

As you think of statements, give yourself a quick emotional, vibrational
"reading" on them before you write them down. If they don't feel good, or
bring to mind a negative association simply discard them, don't use them and
don't "stay with them" for any length of time.

For example, I started to write "all the mail is for me" and immediately a
sarcastic voice inside me said "yes, and all the bills are for me, too". I
discarded that one, didn't write it down, and searched for something that
felt better!!

Good luck!

Love,
Jane (ME)

Testing.

If this is posted to the list, then it means that DIgest receivers can just
hit the reply button and post to the list. I don't know whether David wants
to do anything about that, or whether he can. I don't care one way or the
other. Just thought I'd share.

When I went to reply to Eric's letter, I noticed that I could simply hit
the reply button. I had to paste in Eric's address to send him a personal
copy.


Jane (ME)

Today I got a mailing from onelist; this is a test to see if I can get
one in.
Have been working thru Connie's lessons. I found pivoting very effective
for getting at the basis of any unwanted emotion.
Today I worked with 'inclusion-exclusion' and I found I have a strong
resistance on 'living alone' even although I have had 13 years practise!
If anything it seems somewhat worse than 'being alone' which is from the
same stable!
In being alone, one can fantaise, meditate, get onto the billion
surprises waiting for me on the Net or just shower and go sleep.
But living alone is something continueous, the background music of
wasting life; where one goes to the shop and buys something unwanted, just
to speak to a human being.
Cooking and cleaning etc., seem so pointless and not worth bothering
with, when one is deep into resisting 'living alone'
To counter writing this, I just brought to mind one of the happiest
moments of my life, when I was in Hong Kong, being swept along by a crowd
of over a million people.
Well the point of this mail is that I do not know which process to apply
to this resistance.
I don't think I could appreciate it but I could try loving it, as some
have loved their extra tissue or their spiders.
There is a process called, 'Book of positive aspects', I haven't seen
that but I already know one positive aspect, "This also passes."
Eric.

Dearly Beloved,

I want to share this with you!

I'm looking at the STELLA-NATURA
(Inspiration & Practical Advice for Home Gardeners
& Professional Growers in Working with Ccosmic Rhythms)
1999 Kimberton Hills Biodynamic Agricultural Calendar,

and I must say I am impressed.

On page 10, in a densely-packed two-page article entitled THE STAR WE LIVE
BY, Robert McCracken, MD begins as follows:

"As a medical doctor, student of spiritual and natural science, and
truth-seeking human being, I have long held a fascination for the way the
world is explained in so many seemingly irreconcilable ways. Trying to
reconcile these differences is an ongoing challenge. Equally important for
me are the moral consequences of how humans view creation and their place in
it. For it impacts to such a large extent on the health and illness of the
individual as well as communal life. Consequently, the way the world is
conceived is of no small importance. Rather than choosing one view over
another, it seems more satisfying to find where each is actually justified
and complements the other. By merging the natural and spiritual scientific
world views, the resulting world picture is more complete and much richer
than either would be standing alone."

Being schooled in natural science myself, and currently opening to spirit,
this got my attention. I'll follow this only a bit further:

"Pre-Grecian humanity, almost without exception, placed the sun at the
center of their world view. To them it was the spiritual source of life,
and made all things what they were. They ordered their cultural and
agricultural calendars according to its rhythms -- a practice which modern
man has wisely continued. The central position of the sun is completely
understandable, considering what our planet would become without its
ceaseless outpouring of what ancient humanity called spirit life, and we
today call energy."

These last fifteen words of the paragraph above are the heart of the article
for me, and I wonder if they might well be true, that spirit and energy are
one and the same, having both a physical and a spiritual component, and this
fact -- if it IS a fact -- having been lost by modern mainstream humanity.

The article contrasts Rudolf Steiner's update and expansion of the ancient
conceptions with the modern scientific worldview, seeking to reconcile the
two, which it may have done at the end of its second paragraph.

Getting now to the the STAR of this show, and what it is I most want to
share, at the end of the article's first page McCracken continues:

"Much of the current picture of the sun that modern astronomy has arrived at
comes from a satellite called SOHO (Solar and Heliospheric Observatory)
which orbits the earth and the sun in a unique position called an inner
Lagrangian point. There, SOHO is balanced between the pull of the earth's
and the sun's gravity, and thus exists in a state of non-graviity. Its 12
instruments examine the sun in unprecedented detail. They downlink several
thousand images a day through NASA's Deep Space Network antennae to SOHO's
experimanters' Operations Facility. Many of the unique images then move
instantaneously to the internet, where anyone can see them by accessing the
SOHO home page ().

Exploring there for a look at these images, I found something that just
dropped my jaw in AWE and WONDER, and it is THIS I want to share with you.
Whatever else is there -- and I don't know what else is there because I
didn't get any farther than this -- I have never -- NEVER -- seen anything
like THIS before.


9_1300.gif

Check it out, my lovelies, I guarantee you won't be disappointed.

If this isn't holy, I don't know what holy is.


Deep in velvet black space
Backdropped by myriad other distant Suns
Bathed in its own living corona
Up close and ALIVE with energy
Our Father Who Art in Heaven
Hallowed BeThy Name


Go ahead and use the slide and scroll controls on the side and bottom margin
to view the entire image, getting all around it, I MEAN, this will put you
RIGHT THERE.

If you remember the feeling of sacredness I tried to convey in my post POWER
PLACE on May 29, this is IT in SPADES.

It occurs to me also to share some words to a song sung by a beautiful
brother who visited the mountain wilderness community I lived in at that
time, in 1981. I'd love to credit him now with his composition, but after
nearly 20 years I can't recall his name!


Falling in Love with the Earth
Falling in Love with the Lovely Earth
Falling around the Sun
Falling and Turning into the One


With Love for ALL,


Green

Hello Again! ;-))

The last 10 characters of the URL were inactive in my previous post on this
subject, apparently because the URL is just too long for the e-mail
program's line length, and it won't activate more than one line. That means
when you click on the URL in my post, you DON'T get the image, you get "FILE
NOT FOUND.". To view this wonderful image, you may:

1) add the missing 10 characters >> 9_1300.gif << to the end
of the URL shown on the FILE NOT FOUND page, and enter the URL again, or

2) go to the SOHO home page ,
click on "Latest Images" in the left-hand margin,
click on July 9, 1999,
and click on the first image in the list, SOHO EIT, 171A, Full Disc (@1300)

I believe it will be worth your trouble.


Green

HI Eric,

Get a dog, you will NEVER be alone again. :D Ok so I have 6 in the house
right now so I may be having a TAD bit of resistence to that subject myself.
:D

Living alone means you can decorate how you want to.

Living alone means you can walk around naked whenever you want, dress how
you choose, eat when you want, sleep when you want, watch whatever you want
to watch on TV, being IN Control Of the Remote- BLISS :D

Living alone means you get the Whole Bed minus the 3/4 that Cordy takes up.

Living alone means you can watch X-rated movies and no one knows. :D

Living alone means you can throw a party whenever you want to

Living alone means you can have as many dogs as you want

Living means that you can leave the the dust where it falls, the garbage to
build up until you have a full can, the towels on the floor, your clothes
all over the room, the windows open no matter what the weather, lights on
when you leave a room, the shades up or down whatever you feel like you.

Living alone means that you appreciate being around people more- just ask
Connee and my other friends about how MUCH I talk when we get together.

Living alone means you can excercise when you want and how you want and then
lie about it all later. :D

Living alone means that you can think deep thoughts, allow ideas to grow and
define themselves, and develop into mind boggling plans.

Living alone means that you can have Barbra Streisand, Yanni, Green Day,
REM, and Classical CDs and no one else knows unless you share that with
them.

Living alone means that everytime you turn on the radio it's on the same
station you left it on.

SO, if you don't WANT to live alone, and you don't want to get an animal to
play with and live with you, then what can you do? What would it be like to
be living WITH someone? Compromises, sharing, taking turns, another
schedule to plan around, neither good nor bad things just other things to
think about.

Do you want a Love to live with? Do you want a room mate? Do you want 12 r
oom mates? Do you want just people to come over and stay with you sometimes
and sometimes you're by yourself? Do you want to live in a bigger house? A
different kind of complex where the neighbors all know one another and play
together? Do you want to live on a big ranch in the Northwest with cattle
and horses and lots of dogs? All of whom, of course, die of old age and not
for any other reason. Do you want to live in NYC or where? Is it really
about living alone or not being in a relationship? Personally I LOVE my
alone time, of course that's because I never get any, there's always a mutt
around somewhere, or a neighbor out working on their lawn or kids playing
down the street or I'm on here with 400 e-mails to read and maybe respond
to. Are you just Bored? When I get in that antsy place where nothing is
working and I'm bored out of my mind, I paint, walls, rooms, the garage,
whatever I can find that needs painting or I go and play with Boo dog. What
can you do TODAY to make yourself feel better? What can you do Today to move
towards what you want to have in your life? Usually action stuff works best
to lift you out of your mood, at least it does for me, just imagine it first
and then go and do something about it. ANd if you live around DC, I have
any number of mutts that you can take home with you for a while, truly. :D

LOVE YA- Juls

And OH, btw, his name is BIRD, I remembered! (who wrote and sang those
lovely words!)


Falling in Love with the Earth
Falling in Love with the Lovely Earth
Falling around the Sun
Falling and Turning into the One


With Love,


Green

The sun was blue today.

Bluer than the fire inside the ice
Bluer than the ice inside the fire
Bluer than the flame that flies across the night
And lights the deepest ocean of desire.

Blue it came and settled in my veins
Calling me to something I had known
Once long ago, that I'd forgotten twice
Remembering the fire and the ice
Remembering the fear I was alone.

I touched it as it rose into the sky
Sparking hot and white inside the blue
The white hot core that never seemed to die
and never seemed to cool
no matter how I cried
or what I seemed to do.

I touched it as it soared away from me
And left me standing naked on the ground
Another clod of earth, another tree,
Another mouth, another lonely sound.

I whispered to the sun in all its blue
To take me now, beyond the reach of air
To take me once again
To take me there
Or leave me here to die.
I did not care.

And all at once a rod of gold was launched
Out of it's very center in the sky.
It flew like wild fire through the center of my eye
Into the wild fire in my brain
And woke me upand once again I knew
That I could never be alone again.

This came to me a couple of nights ago in a half dream state, after I had
gotten stuck trying to write down stuff around an area where I have had
some serious resistance.

In my almost 30 years of metaphysical work / play (including early on
psychotherapy), I have never had much luck or even interest in dreams. But
a dear friend of mine had recently been speaking to me of same...and maybe
that nudged the door open a bit. When the student is ready, yadda yadda.

In the dream state, I created it first as a series of rosary bead thingies
(you'll see where I'm going here in a minute). I woke up, and played with
it in my head, and it kind of recast itself as a mandala...a 6 pointed
jewish star kind of thing. Either way, it's a focusing tool for feeling my
pure desire, and it works really well for me right now.

So here are the 6 points of my star (I have the first letter of each word
inside each little star point): H W W F S V

That stands for Health, Wealth, Wisdom, Friends, Soulmate, Vocation

Oh yeah...and in the middle hexagram, I drew this face...not a happy
face...but a buddha face...full of serenity and joy.

As I clasp my thumb and forefinger around each point/letter, I just riff
and feel my way through what I want. So I start with (H)ealth...and feel
my wanting perfect pulsing pure health from the very cellular level on up,
my blood flowing easily in my veins, my body finding it's perfect weight
effortlessly, my every organ singing in this biological choir exactly on
pitch.

And I move on from there.

I don't much worry about what I am SAYING to myself, but I feel the pure
organic desire as FEELING...I can FEEL my vibe rising and amping up...it's
metaphysical sexual arousal is what it is.

Going around the wheel takes a LOT longer than 17 seconds (chuckle)...last
night I did it while driving home after having dinner with a friend. What
a lovely trip THAT was.

Just my bit of abe kaballah for a saturday morning. Feel free to use it if
you'd like. I'll send you a bill. :o)

Huggles,

NetPaul

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