This came to me a couple of nights ago in a half dream state, after I had
gotten stuck trying to write down stuff around an area where I have had
some serious resistance.
In my almost 30 years of metaphysical work / play (including early on
psychotherapy), I have never had much luck or even interest in dreams. But
a dear friend of mine had recently been speaking to me of same...and maybe
that nudged the door open a bit. When the student is ready, yadda yadda.
In the dream state, I created it first as a series of rosary bead thingies
(you'll see where I'm going here in a minute). I woke up, and played with
it in my head, and it kind of recast itself as a mandala...a 6 pointed
jewish star kind of thing. Either way, it's a focusing tool for feeling my
pure desire, and it works really well for me right now.
So here are the 6 points of my star (I have the first letter of each word
inside each little star point): H W W F S V
That stands for Health, Wealth, Wisdom, Friends, Soulmate, Vocation
Oh yeah...and in the middle hexagram, I drew this face...not a happy
face...but a buddha face...full of serenity and joy.
As I clasp my thumb and forefinger around each point/letter, I just riff
and feel my way through what I want. So I start with (H)ealth...and feel
my wanting perfect pulsing pure health from the very cellular level on up,
my blood flowing easily in my veins, my body finding it's perfect weight
effortlessly, my every organ singing in this biological choir exactly on
pitch.
And I move on from there.
I don't much worry about what I am SAYING to myself, but I feel the pure
organic desire as FEELING...I can FEEL my vibe rising and amping up...it's
metaphysical sexual arousal is what it is.
Going around the wheel takes a LOT longer than 17 seconds (chuckle)...last
night I did it while driving home after having dinner with a friend. What
a lovely trip THAT was.
Just my bit of abe kaballah for a saturday morning. Feel free to use it if
you'd like. I'll send you a bill. :o)
Huggles,
NetPaul
