Hello melbywells@...,
In reference to your comment:
¨¨ Maybe the? older we are the easier it is to *practice*
¨¨ forgiveness.
I just think that the older we are the more practice we had at trying to make this a better world, we try so hard to carve out our little "niche" and still feel empty and realize that it is not working and then we ask for help.?
I was introduced to the Course in 1988.? I was in my mid 30's having gone through another failed relationship ... due to my attraction to men who were addicts.
And it answered a lot of questions for me .. it made sense .. but I still had to go through stuff ... I still had to try to make this world a better place for me ...? I wanted equality for Black people, try to find that good black man? ... I had causes ... but no matter what I did nothing seemed to work.? When my son got sick I knew I needed help and I found Joe Jessup and Course Talk.? Even then I knew I had another classroom to go through and when my son passed away ... I just shut down ... however, it was my core belief in the Course .. that this world is not real, that escape through suicide or whatever was not the answer.? There is no place to escape in a dream ... all? I could do was wake up .. and I was and still am too fearful to do that.
I am now 48 now and after reading Gary's Book and recently attending the workshops conducted by Ken ... it is almost like I am seeing the Course with new eyes.
This world DOES NOT WORK.
I understand that now.
Now I am ready to intensify my study and attention in sticking with the Right Teacher and stop thinking that I have the answers.
And I believe that for most folks, that comes with age and time.
Peace
