Sandra wrote
****"And in case people read this and sigh and don't go there, I will bring my real #1 suggestion which is Don't Listen to Sad Music, if you're down."
I find it so true, need to be away from sad movies and sad musics.
Do you have a list of happy movies somewhere? I could make good use to it in the comming months.
my favorite interpreter is Maria Bet?nia, Brazilian. She sings a song that says "sadness is a form of selfishness", it's called "I'll give you joy". is my morning anthem. Here is the link with the lyrics in english:
?The first time I was depressed I was 5 years old, since then I have gone through a few (4 o r 5?)? more or less severe depressive episodes. I learned to identify when I need support and medication, I learned not to be ashamed.?
what I feel now is different, it's an urgency to do something, a lack of purpose... i'm reading the? sugested links anyways, lot's of food ideas there.
This phase is complex to understand? because with the two children full-time, my purpose used to be, to give them and give me joy . Now i find myself without patience to listen to them, to play or do things toguether... sometimes i wonder if it is due to "Covid times", maybe menopause, or is the lack of? breath due to emphisema i need to get used to it? It can also be that i need to learn how to live without someone dying or just dead by my side? We have been trouhth a series of losses due to cancer.
?when I was writing this answer I started to observe and pay attention to the space where I am. I hear the wood crackling in the stove. Beside me, on the sofa, a cardamom and orange infusion. I havd a xmas mug that ky daugther offered me this November.? She loves to make this small gifts all the time.
?I'm wrapped in a yellow fleece blanket, one of my favorite colors. The sofa and chaise longue are just what I wanted, green sofa, huge brown velvet footrest. Everything purchased second-hand or recycled. There are several pillows around me, one is in linen, green and has a label with the brand, it's called "lean against me..."
The 2 dogs are here with me.?
The kids are chatting and laugthing in the kitchen while preparing food to have with my orange/ cardammon tea. My husband is sleeping, he? wakes up at 7am.
In the living room floor we have a small xmas tree in the process of being decorated.
Our rental as the wood floors i like the most "fishbone wood floor". The kids love to run arouund with whool socks and do what they call " to drift".
In the winter, i like to cover the living room floor with a big whool rug. My gaugther dances and play games on it and always as something going on there. Now there is a dog and a fox eating fruits.? She joins them from time to time to eat to, pretending she is different animals.? Her shoes are at the "entrance of the house" to use when she is in "human mode".
It is a perfect rug to play noughts and crosses
My "office space is in this living room. I almost never use it to work, is more of a place to put everything we are using at the moment.?
There is a solar kit in my working space, i'm thinking now that it would be a good idea to? try it tomorrow.?
One of the things i'm finding more and more difficult is to start new projects with the kids, i procrastinate to show what i bring home and to engage with what they are up to. It seams there is always something more important to do, or i'm tyred, or not in the mood. Will try this kit tomorrow! Need to brake this cycle!?
We have a lot of CD's and a really good stereo that was from my mother. One of the things we are enjoying now is to listen to her collection of classical music, while doing something else. Some musics are great and others umbarrable. It's funny how they come up with things they think about due to the music that is playing, many times the convrsartion goes like "i don't know why but this part of the music made me think of..."
I always remember Sandra's texts?
Your house as a museum -
and
building an unschooling nest -
I took so much inspiration from the 2 links in the last decade. It really helps me to see, apreciate, take care of me, my people, our nest and i love to strew all kind of interesting things. We are the type of family that enjoys being at home, we are confortable with each other, just being here, doing "nothing special". This is the total oposite of what i felt about being home, until i started deschooling.?
Don't know how many persons reading here now can? remember the time, in 2010 or 2012, when several moms shared their houses in this group?? It was so nice to see all those spaces, real living spaces where children live, learn, grow, not staged instagram houses. That was really helpfull. Maybe we can repeat one day? (I think i asked this before).
Well, i lost myself in the writing. Sending some photos of us in our living room while i was composing this text on my phone.
Thank you for your tips and for taking your time to read me.?
Catia Maciel
