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Hi Kelli,

I think, whatever these swirling shadow of air are, particles, or energy or
vibrations, they are uplifting, real, fun, peaceful or joyful!, and they come
more all the time. Which leads me to believe I am more connected all the
time, since that is my desire!
I keep remembering Esther explaining auras when you slightly stare, which is
the way my eyes become when I'm thinking. :)

Anyway, snice, ilike
luv
p

In a message dated 7/29/99 8:29:33 PM Eastern Daylight Time,
BOOBOO123@... writes:
<< .I mean ..I
simiply went for the throat if anyone crossed me --or
for that matter anyone who "I" felt couldn't defend themselves
...even now I look back and see a different person in me now. >>

What I meant by this ...is that I felt the need to jump
to the rescue and draw my sparkling sword.

In a message dated 7/29/99 2:06:02 AM Eastern Daylight Time, green1@...
writes:

<< I make no secret of the fact that ideas held by the JDC community run
counter to ideas I've held all my life, and that I suspended judgment in
order to be here and experience this consciousness. >>


Green...hi guy ;-) it's just "me"...boooo

When I heard of your perdiciment when you first
came on the list... I knew you were
not familiar with Abe materials...cause it was flooded
with victimization...getting caught up in someone else's
design...not yours...something that I have tried to do
away with in my life since I started Abe materials...many
years ago.

I see you getting stronger and stronger everyday
as you walk through some real contrast with different
eyes...I too, in order to allow the flow -had to suspend
all judgement. Many ...(well, may be not) would be
surprised to see me as a real cut throat...I mean ..I
simiply went for the throat if anyone crossed me --or
for that matter anyone who "I" felt couldn't defend themselves
...even now I look back and see a different person in me now.

A few years ago, I was involved with someone who
claimed he was just like me...all those around me said,
no way! He was cut throat and had a cold spot that
was immovable. I know that I can be that way...but few could
believe it when I mentioned that we were not all that different...

I know...
I am capable of nailing anyone who crosses me...I can feel
the powerful vibration of the old me as I talk...it has been a journey...
an amazing journey...where I was in advertising in Houston-and didnt let
anyone get in my way... and now...where I can relax into knowing
that we are ALL incrediblely enlightened and on our way...I can
finally TRUST OTHERS. I dont need to be right! or wrong for
that matter...<g> its great....

And yes ...it can be crystal clear...through love ~"boo"

Juls a few days ago you posted something about the above :) As you were
responding to some Abraham passage in a book.

Could you explain? Or is this in the Abe literature? and where?


Thanks and purrrrrssss
Love Ro

Dear Abe-ers,
Late last night, after reading Silver Laughter's message encouraging me
to share my ET experience, I typed an email explaining what had
happened. Just as I was sending it, my computer balled up and I had to
reboot, losing it. So I tediously typed it up again, sent it, and went
to bed. This morning I woke up and checked my email. I don't see it in
InBox, Sent, or Trash! I'm taking this as a blatant message that they
don't want to be that famous. If any of you are curious, just write me
privately. I suppose it could be delayed due to server problems, but why
wouldn't it be stored on my computer? Very strange! (BTW, when first
trying to decide if I should share this I was asking my IB if it was
okay but couldn't get a clear "yes" or "no." Guess I needed the old
baseball bat on the head.)
Love,
Carla

Dear Friends,

I have not been on this list very long, and I haven't posted much, because my
life has been getting continually busier as I've applied the wonderful
Abraham ideas!

But I wanted to share with all of you how gloriously the ideas work. In the
past few months I have been working to get clearer and clearer about what is
is I truly want in my life. Ted helped me focus my desires with some well
aimed questions and writing assignments.

I realized what I REALLY want is: 1) a slender, healthy body that I feel
good about and that I can use to be active and have fun; 2) to live in a
larger city, preferably near the ocean; 3) to have a positive, significant
relationship with a person who can make a commitment and be honest and open
as well as caring and fun; and 4) to have a job doing meaningful work that
uses my skills and experience and where I can work with enjoyable co-workers
in a pleasant setting.

SOOOO, the Universe has done good! I had a personal ad on AOL and, about a
month ago, I changed it a bit to indicate that I was more than willing to
relocate, as I realized that many potential responders might not be
interested in coming to Missouri to live! I no more than changed the ad and
a wonderful man in Portland, Oregon began a diligent search of the personals.
He spotted mine and noted that I was willing to relocate. I "happened" to
be online when he found it and so he Instant Messaged me. We had a pleasant
first chat and found out that we both love trees and often talk to them and
listen to them. Since that first chat, we have chatted for several hours and
exchanged emails DAILY, plus we have had lengthy phone conversations and he's
mailed me several packages and sent me flowers. We have found incredible
similarities in our goals and dreams and what we want out of a relationship.
We also feel we have a deep soul connection to each other that transcends
this lifetime.

Everything in my life has fallen together since that first chat. My daughter
has decided to move out and live with her significant other. That freed me
to put our house up for sale and think about what I wanted to do. Stephen
invited me to move into his home, so we can explore our very deep soul
connection in person and see where it leads. He is flying here in two weeks
to drive the moving van with my belongings. At his suggestion, we are
stopping for two days at my parent's in Nebraska, because he thought they
might want "to meet the man who's moving me to Oregon." I am currently in a
job with pleasant co-workers but one that does not use my education or
challenge me. Suddenly there are some transitions happening there, making it
a pefect time to exit if I'm not going to be there for the whole process.
And I'm finding many job openings in my field in Portland. The medical
consultant for my workplace and his wife are wanting to downsize their home
and yard and are interested in mine. At age 25, it feels right for my
daughter to live, not only in a separate home from me, but also a separate
town, so that she can truly learn how to live and manage on her own. I had a
doctor's appointment this week and my blood sugar, which had been somewhat
elevated, is down, my blood pressure is perfect, and my weight is down 5 lbs.
from last month. My body is also responding to my vibration of joy and love
and health!

I am incredibly happy and can't wait for this new adventure in Portland. I'd
lived in Seattle and missed the northwest, but had moved back to the midwest
due to my daughter's health and her missing her hometown. Now we are both
free to follow our own dreams.

Every day, when I have a few minutes, I close my eyes and "feel" what it is
like to live in Portland, to enjoy Stephen's company in person, to work with
great co-workers in a good job, and to have tons of fun being active in my
slimmer body. I especially see and feel myself working on the Portland State
University campus, in a freshman mentor position I am applying for, which
feels like a perfect match to my desires.

I just wanted to share my happiness with people who will understand it. And,
I wanted to say that if any Abers are in Portland, I'd love to get together
with you once I'm settled. Stephen is also interested in learning about
Abraham ideas, so we might be interested in a study or discussion group, if
there is one. I hope to hear from Orgeon Abers.

Have a great day!!

Laurel

From: "Juls" <laughingpaws@...>

Ok, so I was going to horde this to myself for a bit longer but I'm about

to

burst so I decided to share it.

=====

Juls! Wonderful!

Congratulations on the Appearance of Grey Hawk! Oh, this is just TOO
Delicious! :-))

It is SO Organic, how he materializes from INSIDE your life, not someone
"out there" that you have to find, but someone you've already known for much
of your life! With so much shared experience, so much compatibility, so
much common interest!

You've "known" it all along, and are just now "waking up" to the fact of it.
Isn't there just something so familiar about this, like REMEMBERING?

What a clear, unmistakable dream, I mean, with a NEON SIGN, even!

"Oh yeah, that. Well sometimes you're a bit tough to get thru to."

And a Grey Hawk practically sitting on his shoulder!

And how you actually LET yourself realize WHO he IS, this "old friend that
you knew as Grey Hawk!

And the clear, relaxed feeling you have about not knowing where he is now or
how this is all going to fall into place, but KNOWING that it IS!

Juls, I get a feeling from this VERY similar to the feeling I got from
reading Ilana-Ora's wonderful success story, I mean it's like this is
HAPPENING.

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And

all of the songs that have held special meaning for me that I haven't been
able to attach to anyone make perfect sense if I put Pete in the picture.

So, there you go, I don't how it will all play out but for the first time in

my life I'm not stressed about it or eager for it to happen or anything, it
will happen when it happens and it will be Wonderful.

Just wanted to share that with everyone.

LOVE YA- Juls

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SO! I'm sure glad THAT'S settled! I'm happy for you dear Juls! :-)))

With Love for You and Grey Hawk <3 <3


Green

Dearly Beloved,

Ilana-Ora's wonderful story of Joyous Deliberate Creation reads like an
instruction manual for how to "hold your mouth" in just the right way to
make your dreams come true. I'm not being facetious. Although unneeded to
persuade me of the validity of Abe teachings, that having already been amply
done by the abundant unconditional love found in the JDC community,
Ilana-Ora's story does impress me as extremely credible evidence of the
utility of JDC. The part which packed the most credibility for me was this:

Also, I have never felt so clearly inspired to actions that FELT
like the next logical step regardless of appearance as being
rather risky. Examples of that are that I felt no hesitation
about my involvement in a relationship that could very well
signify the end of my marriage despite the fact that I loved my
husband and wanted our partnership to continue. Also, I felt no
hesitation around my decision to tell him everything despite my
belief that he was likely to be inspired to leave me It simply
was the obvious thing to do. I love having access to such
reliable guidance which is always based on the full picture
regardless of the extent of my conscious awareness of it.

Abe says that they want those of us who are wanting to be crystal
clear examples so that we can say this is what I wanted, this
is want I thought, and this is what I got. I had a desire for
some time to come up with such an example of dramatic
proportions. I think that this one qualifies

I love this universe, I love Abe, I love Ezra and I love you all,

Ilana-Ora

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Wow!

Thank you Ilana-Ora for this work of love!

I make no secret of the fact that ideas held by the JDC community run
counter to ideas I've held all my life, and that I suspended judgment in
order to be here and experience this consciousness. Once begun, I did this
with utmost ease, and my eyes have been opening wider and wider during the
several months of my participation. This is obviously something I was ready
to experience. I am grateful to you all for being yourselves and sharing
that here. It is a great gift to me. I love you All.

With special thanks for the one who brought me here <3 <3


Green

========

From: Ilana Goldman <ilanagoldman@...>

Dear friends,

I am writing to let you know that after years of working to line
up my vibrations I finally got it and the universe was able to
deliver to me the love life of my dreams. My husband urged me to
tell you this story because he felt that it may inspire those who
read it to feel greater confidence in their own ability to create
whatever they want for themselves as well.

snip<<

Hi Carla,

I love that title :)

You had an experience. In the scheme of things you created it. So I see the
relevancy. Some of us see direct visions and others see manifestations such as
ufos, angels or enlightened beings.

There is a being whom I enjoy that says things pretty similar to abe. His name
is Bashar. He is the future self of the person who channels him. He is also an
alien or et. Both of them say the same thing my IB has been saying to me about
creating and joy. Abe says to follow your bliss and Bashar says to follow your
greatest joy. Some people will relate to Bashar and others to Abe and some to
both and so on.

I would love to hear of your experience. Wonderful is always good to share :)

Love,
SilverLaughter

Carla DeMarco wrote:

I understood them to say "Yes".

And, yes to any other thing we could possibly ask!

Love, Constance
At 01:44 PM 7/28/99 EDT, TheStarNav@... wrote:

From: TheStarNav@...


I have always believed that there were ETs. Yet, as I listened to this

week's

Abe tape this morning, they were saying that there were not such, if I
understood correctly. But, I'm not sure I understood at all correctly. I
have seen "flying saucers" and while I've not had one, I do believe in

"close

encounters".

Any thoughts about reconciling Abe and the ET matter?

Star

Hi Guys,

Every so often I go thru and release some of my clients for a variety of
reasons but usually because I just don't want to work with them anymore.
And today was the day that one clients money ran out and we've been arguing
back and forth and so I just called it quits. They wanted to keep me on
hand for the next 10 days or so, but they were taking vacations and other
things and so the 10 days would lengthen out to most of August and I'm just
done with them so I said No Thanks and terminated the contract. IN my
contract I have it stated that the clients have to give me 30 days notice to
terminate the contract but that I can do it at any time. Her Fianc is a
lawyer, a patent attorney, and now they're being weird, it's been a power
play thing from the beginning, and just icky so now they want to sue me for
breach of contract and since they didn't have the presence of mind to make a
copy of the contract themselves, now they want me to send them a copy of the
contract and a copy of the diary that I leave everyday, which I took when I
left since it's mine and a bunch of other stuff.

Ever since their pup first attacked another dog I have been pushing against
them, actually just about from the start I have been pushing against them
and so I Know that I have created this. They just aren't like my other
clients, 99.9% of my clients are WONDERFUL, they're sensitive and
understanding when on those rare occasions I can't make it, but these guys
have treated me from the start like their personal slave, with all that that
implies. And their pup is just the rare dog that I've never liked or
connected with and I never should have taken the job in the first place.

Anyway, I'm having a hard time coming up with positive aspects on this one,
and of them, etc. So can someone maybe give me some help? This has already
gotten big enough for my tastes so I'd like to soothe and release it now
before it gets any bigger.

THANKS!!!! Juls

Just a little post script to this one.

First THANK YOU all of you who shared your joy with me in this latest
discovery, it's VERY cool and fun and just plain neat to find this out.

Anyway, tonight I decided to share this story with my Mom when we went to
dinner, which was a strange thing because I've always pretty much kept my
personal life personal, there are just some things Mom's don't want to know,
in my opinion and hers. So I told her about my dream and she just floored
me with, "Wow I always liked him and thought you guys would make a Great
Couple." We ordered and then she came back with, "You know, the more I think
about it, the more it seems like I've always known that in some strange way,
hmmmmm, imagine that." LOLOLOLOL Then, "Remember when we all went out to
dinner that time and I asked you why you two weren't together and you just
rolled your eyes at me? He's a very nice boy, I liked his family too.
You've made a Very good choice."

Now I have NO memory of this happening at ALL, I've been dredging the bottom
of my memory banks and am still coming up empty but she is adamant that this
happened, so who am I to argue with her maybe she's been having dreams of my
possible new in-laws as well, wouldn't THAT be wild. And pretty stinking
cool as well. And we have just about Everything in common as well, or a lot
of things.

So, there you go, and no this isn't a script in case you were wondering,
this one is actually real. :D!!!!

LOVE YA- Juls- oh yeah I remembered as I was telling Connee this yesterday
that Pete was the first one to call me Juls as well and that's how he
spelled it so that's what I stuck with. Just another cool tidbit.

Hi, Friends,

I'm forwarding this from Debbie, "Paul Gaydos"
<gaydos@...>. Please CC: her if you respond to the
list, because she is not on the list right now.

Love and hugs,

Connee

Paul Gaydos wrote:

Hi Juls!

I've been appreciating your posts to the lists so much, now also to
Soulmate, thanks for sharing. Girl, you are NEVER at a loss for words! ;-)

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From: "Juls" <laughingpaws@...>

Hi Green,

I somehow missed your Raven post but I'd love to read it.

We have ravens or crows- don't really know how to tell the difference-

=====

Crows are somewhat smaller, their voices are higher-pitched. The raven's
voice is more gutteral. Also it seems to me that the crow's vocalizations
begin with a more explosive dynamic and fall in pitch somewhat along its
duration, while the raven's typical call ("caw") is more "flat." Crows and
ravens are otherwise very, very similar. I'm thinking that there in DC you
probably have only crows, but I'm not sure. I used to live in DC for a time
as a child, and I do remember crows there.

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that

play with Cordy ALL day EVERY day. If he's not outside when he normally

is,

then they come and find him, looking in the windows of the house or just

sit

downstairs on the back porch step and peck at the door until he comes to
play.

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Yes, you spoke of this on-list, and I loved it. Sounds like crows alright.
They are *very* savvy and quickly learn where danger does and does not lie
in any situation. In urban and suburban life they become quite blase re:
humans, but out on the farms and in the mountains it's a different story and
they know about guns, etc..

=====
One morning, when we were sleeping in and my window was opened, we

were rudely awoken by one of them CAWING in my ear, I think I lost 5 years
that morning

=====

Oh I can just see and hear it! :-)

=====
and then the game was afoot between them and the mutt. This

morning we went out to play a quick game of Frisbee only to discover that 4
of them were up in the trees.

=====

You can bet it wasn't the SQUIRRELS who did it. Crows LOVE a practical
joke! They are KNOWN for it!

=====
I'm sure all of you heard what Cordy had to

say about THAT little game,

=====

And I imagine the crows were quite happy to hear it! ;-))

=====
a storm is coming thru so hopefully they'll come

back down,

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If not, and you can't easily climb to dislodge them, tie a rock securely to
a long cord and throw the rock up over the branch where a frisbee is
stashed, and let the rock's weight pull the cord over the branch until the
rock is back on the ground with you -- the rock has to be heavy enough and
the cord light enough for this to happen. Then by holding both ends of the
coord together, and yanking, you can shake the branch -- the frisbee will
come down! Then with the rock end of the cord on the ground, pull the cord
hand-over-hand until the free end works back up over the branch and falls
free back to you! Then do the whole process again, and again, until you've
retrieved all that are stuck up there! :-)

(Just a word to the wise from a little boy who figured out how to get his
kites, model airplanes, rockets, kites and parachutes back from the grip of
those high tree branches! ;-))

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but it was either the squirrels or the birds that pulled off that

little stunt, and it was hysterical to see.

Anyway, just throwing in my two cents on the subject. What happened with
the ravens in Your life?

LOVE YA- Juls

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Well, Juls, to start with I was precocious in reading and, bored wiith my
own first grade reader, checked the other first grade class's reader out of
the school library and polished it off in about a week. The title of that
reader was -- are you ready for this -- SMOKEY THE CROW -- and it beat all
hell out of my own class's book where "Alice and Jerry went Up and Down the
Slide"!

Because SMOKEY THE CROW detailed the wonderful experience of a family with
children who adopted and raised a wild fledgling crow as part of their
family. And you knew -- KNEW -- that the writer of the story had lived the
experience! It was wonderful and fueled for me a lifelong love of reading.
I used to sit by the hour on my make-believe "horse" (one of the
formed-concrete side-pieces of the house front entrance stairway), listening
to and imitating the mourning doves, bobwhites and crows of my rural
neighborhood.

Juls and everyone, here is the final (I think) installment of my raven
posts. Juls I'll PEM you the first two.

+++++

Another quick snapshot, this one from early summer of 16 years ago. On a
grassy mountainside meadow surrounded by mixed conifer wilderness forest.
Me with braids down to my tits, living the life of my dreams in community in
nature, under close scrutiny by several of the neighborhood's fledgling
ravens. New to their wings, just pleased as all-git-out with their ability
to fly, they had responded to my "conversation" and were circling me tight
and low, "yelling" their innocence and glee, too new to the scene to have
learned prudence from their parents. Precious, I'll never forget it! For a
minute or more I stood in open-handed wonder in the knee-deep grass,
"talking" with these beautiful wild children, before they finally heeded the
warnings of their parents, out of sight (but not out of hearing) back in the
woods.

With Love,

Green

In a message dated 07/28/1999 10:02:26 PM Central Daylight Time,
laughingpaws@... writes:

<< Anyway, I'm having a hard time coming up with positive aspects on this one,
and of them, etc. So can someone maybe give me some help? This has already
gotten big enough for my tastes so I'd like to soothe and release it now
before it gets any bigger. >>


These kinds of clients (and I've had them too) are the kinds who teach you
what you DON'T want so that you can learn to recognize the signs of
resistance early on, loud and clear, and say "no" right away the next time
around when you've an "opportunity" to work with a similar client and red
flags are going off big time; you're gut is telling you "no", but well, you
don't know them very well, they seem nice, and maybe you'll just try it for a
little ... then BAM, you're right back in a horrid, sticky situation, and
"gosh, why didn't I pay attention when my gut was telling me 'no'?" That
kind of thing. I had some doozies, BTW. The first few times I didn't "get"
it and ignored the red flags, and stayed with them until it was just
unbearable and I was enslaved and underpaid and I finally had to leave or go
nuts. BUT they were also really valuable teachers, and taught me lessons I
couldn't have truly, finally, wholly absorbed any other way. Now I work with
clients who respect me and who understand professionalism and boundaries. I
can usually tell right from the onset whether or not they will, and in the
occasional event I miss that and find myself working for another "glommy" (as
in glommed on, think they own me) client, I extricate myself right away and
get out, and don't wait to see if it will "get better". It doesn't. :-)

Kimmer

i would be delighted to make a copy for anyone on this jdc list who would
like a copy of vilik's beautiful stacey the angel story that i recorded as
an audio musical storybook. Pem your mailing address and i will drop a
copy in the mail. ($3.00 will be sufficient to cover costs of tapes
and postage)

luv
lo is

Hi guys,

In case you wonder, the title of the previous post was meant to
read "when something that I want..." :)

Love,

Ilana-Ora
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Ok, so I was going to horde this to myself for a bit longer but I'm about to
burst so I decided to share it.

Yesterday morning, after I did my morning pet sitting rounds, I went back to
sleep and every time I go to sleep I set my intentions to meet my soul mate,
release any limiting beliefs, to see the layout of the dog park, work thru
and release any issues, all in joy and to remember the important bits when I
wake.

Well, this being the high point of summer and my busiest season yet I was
just too tired to do all of that so I just crashed, out like a light in less
than a second and I had the Wildest dream. Every single guy that I've ever
had even the smallest crush on- I'm a girl by the way- was in my dream and I
saw how they turned out, everyone from Han Solo to cute guys from Elementary
school, and those that I've had relationships with as well as my father and
brother. Some were paunchy and bald, others were carrying on numerous
affairs, others were jerks, others were just as I remembered them but there
was no spark of any kind, etc etc. And then there was a conflict between me
and someone else and I got all pissy and stomped off and was heading out of
there, running far and running fast. Just as I was about to get in to my car
someone came up from behind me and wrapped his arms around me and I felt
total peace and relief and at home.

I was lucid enough to ask myself Who Is He? He looked familiar but I
couldn't place him and even in my dream state it was bugging me. We laughed
and talked and then he stood before me and just like I've ALWAYS wanted the
universe provided a neon sign over his head that flashed in rainbow colours,
one flash per colour- "I'm The One", then "Yes REALLY", then "TRUST ME, it's
TRUE.", then "I SWEAR" and then they repeated and I my mouth dropped open
and I just pointed to above his head and he said, "Oh yeah, that. Well
sometimes you're a bit tough to get thru to." And then we both laughed and
then a Grey Hawk appeared on a big rock over his shoulder and I pointed
again, my mouth open again and he said, "Oh, that, well that was just me in
a previous lifetime." ( the significance of that is that a very good psychic
that I talk to once a year told me that the name of my One True Love in this
lifetime would be an old friend that I knew as Grey Hawk and she was
surprised because she never gets names) And then the phone rang and as I was
starting to wake up I heard the hawk cry out and then I remembered who he
was, an old college buddy named Peter.

And then as I'm lying there fighting against consciousness, because I wanted
to go back to my dream, all of the pieces fell in place and Pete is actually
a Perfect match to every intention I've ever had about who I wanted to share
my life with but I'd never thought of him in the romantic way before. I
mean he's gorgeous and sweet and kind and intelligent and All of those
really great things but a mutual friend of ours who was also in our class
had a Major crush on him, is the most innocent person I have EVER known and
for the rest of us that just made Pete off limits. But the more I thought I
about him, the more I realized that he was always there in the important
moments of my life, when I was in Australia at college. We always worked
together when we had a photo gig because we just worked in synch with one
another, and a million different other things.

So I was soon bouncing on my bed and giggling because it just makes Perfect
sense to me that we would be a perfect match. I was a
photojournalism.combat photographer major and he was a
fashion/photojournalism major and was in his early 20's having a blast
chasing the young models around town and I was with Lofts and nothing ever
happened between us, but it just wasn't the time then.

I've never felt so sure about ANYTHING in my life than I am about this,
totally at peace and with no impatience at all. I've run a million
different scenarios thru my mind about how we'll meet and when we'll meet
but it just doesn't matter, it will happen when it's time and I feel no
stress about it at all. And I know that it may be someone that is
represented to me as Pete in my dreams but that's ok too.

I mean EVERY scenario I put him in feels right, staying at the house, being
at the opening of the farm, playing with him the morning of the opening,
getting married with him, having kids with him, him and Cordy playing
together, just EVERYTHING seems right with him in the picture. And I don't
have a clue where he is or what he's doing but for the first time in my life
that's ok, we'll meet when we meet and it will be wonderful and perfect. I
have no stress about my body shape anymore or how I'd play out my future or
anything.

Like the night that Lofts just showed up in my apartment and did that whole
morphing thing, Pete was there before using my darkroom and then there the
next morning, he was there when the ACIM book fell in to my hands, he was
there when ever anything important happened in my life, I just wasn't
looking in his direction. His Grandfather is a vet, as is one of his
parents, he comes from a good sized family, is polite and well mannered and
intelligent and had just finished reading Zen and the Art of Motorcycle
Maintenance when I left and I gave him Illusions the night before I left, he
stayed up until he finished reading it and was bouncing to talk about it at
the airport but I had my goodbye to say to Lofts and didn't have time, those
were the first two books I read that got me in to this stuff as well. And
all of the songs that have held special meaning for me that I haven't been
able to attach to anyone make perfect sense if I put Pete in the picture.

So, there you go, I don't how it will all play out but for the first time in
my life I'm not stressed about it or eager for it to happen or anything, it
will happen when it happens and it will be Wonderful.

Just wanted to share that with everyone.

LOVE YA- Juls

Dear friends,

Contrast is sure to surface in every relationship, no matter how
delightful. And even now that Ezra is inspired by a powerful
desire for my happiness, I am very clear that it is MY job to
line up MY vibrations with my desires, and that a sense of
dependency on his choices is a recipe for resistance. On the
other hand the idea of allowing the universe to deliver to me
through any path of least resistance fails to give me a sense of
relief as at this point I have a much heightened desire that my
love related desires be fulfilled through Ezra. So, how can I
find confidence that I can have what I want when my belief says
that what I want depends on some elements outside of my control?
And if I can't find such confidence, what is an effective way to
think of my desire?

The answer became clear to me last weekend at the LA workshop. My
work is not to get the things that I want but to be happy in my
wanting. To be happy in my wanting I need to allow myself to want
and I need to think happy thoughts, but those happy thoughts need
not be related to what I want and it is not necessary that I have
confidence that what I want is coming to me.

Choosing to be happy in my wanting is fully within my direct
control. It ensures a happy life regardless of circumstances, and
it ensures that I do not paralyze or side track myself with
unhappy thinking and the resulting unhappy behaviors. These are
great benefits which fully justify making such a choice.

My awareness that we live in a responsive universe gives me even
more. It gives me the confidence that comes from knowing that
when I am happy in my wanting I keep my door wide open and the
universe can deliver to me what I want in a way that is a match
to the full spectrum of my desires. It also gives me the
reassurance that the odds are overwhelmingly in favor of the
universe delivering through the specific individual, but that
even if it delivers through another path it would be a happy
delivery all around.

So, if all I need to do is be happy in my wanting, why bother to
bridge the gaps between my beliefs and my desires?

When a gap exists thinking of the desire is uncomfortable, which
may eventually inspire me to give up, and giving up means that I
stop summoning and I shut myself down. Also, when I give up I am
no longer happy in my wanting since I no longer allow myself to
want. Removing my attention is a workable alternative to giving
up because it only hurts when I think of the desire. But contrast
is going to keep bringing the desire to my attention, and it is
certainly nicer to be able to think about it without discomfort.

Also, I can be happy in my wanting by appreciating what is, which
feels good - or I can become fully alive as I find excitement and
passion in my unfulfilled desires. Getting out of the way by
taking my attention off a desire is the same as programming a
destination into an auto-pilot. I am going to get where I am
going, but I miss on the pleasure of actually driving that car or
flying that airplane.

Also, when I am actively involved in the navigation process I
have the opportunity to fine tune my destination along the way so
when I arrive it is that much more satisfying.

So my conclusion is my work is to choose thoughts that feel
good and actions that feel good, and in this context, and only to
the extent that I enjoy it, work on bridging my desires and
beliefs and play with my visions. And as long as I focus on my
work, everything that I want will come to me easily and happily
and comfortably.

With love,

Ilana-Ora




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Dear Connee,
Thank you for your acknowledgment. My appreciation of you, David, this list
is enormous. There is something about the word "lurker" which seems to me to
be negative. How about "Silent Absorber"? I AM both or either and am
delighted, uplifted, encouraged, enlarged, supported, filled with laughter
and smiles whenever I have time to click on.
I feel so very close to all of you. All of you. You have no idea how many
times I have talk/written answers back to you or Juls or David or Pbabe or
Silver Laughter or Green or StarNav in my head before going to sleep or
driving to work and feel connected, transported and often close to tears with
even this kind of expression. Often expanding my understanding to clarity!

The other night my daughter called from California. I'm in Texas right now.
She, too, is an Aber. I felt so clear, bubbly, transparent, floaty that when
I finally got in bed I felt again, or saw again particles of air swirling.
I've been busy prioritizing, checking off lists, trying to rest, doing going,
instead of the quiet, contemplative, meditative things I love to do. About a
year ago I began to see what I can only describe as the movement of air or
particles swirling. It's a wonderful, calm, exciting feeling watching the
movements funneling sometimes one way and sometimes another. It seems to me
that the higher I get (maybe the more I am connected to ALL), the faster the
swirls or movements. It does it at any time, but clearer in soft light or
shadow.
Hey, this is Bliss, started to say Happy. Both.
Your thoughts? Any input? Anyone?
I love you,
Patricia