Dear Alana,
I want rain. My garden soil is parched and huge fissures are
forming. I have a big garden wich takes a lot of time and work
to water. I have created rain in the past. I know I can do it!
And yet - here I stand...
Your letter has sparked a wonderful discussion that really moved
my own understanding forward. As long as I think of rain in order
to create rain I am blocking it from coming. As long as I think
of rain as a solution to some problem I am blocking it from
coming. The only way I can think of it which does not block it is
for the pleasure of it.
So I seperated it in my mind from issue of the garden.
I decided to think of the garden as if a rain was not an option,
and make peace with it. As soon as I did that I was inspired to
go outside and water, and I can tell you that there are some
plants out there which are very grateful... :)
With the issue of the garden out of the way, I no longer feel any
urgency around the subject of rain. Which means that now, if I
wish, I can play with the subject of rain for the fun of it. I
can appreciate rain, I can remember what it feels like when it
rains, I take it as far as I feel like and then drop it and let
LOA take care of the rest.
The key is always, always, always to find a way to be happy in
the now, regardless. Leting go of the desire altogether is far
more effective than thinking of it from a place of needing it in
any way.
Can you be happy in your life even if the lover you want will
never come? As long as the answer to that is no you are still in
a needy place. Never mind expectations and beliefs - they will do
you no good until you get yourself to the place of being happy
now!
I am not saying to tell yourself it will never happen - but to
tell yourself you are in no hurry for it to happen because your
life, right now, is already perfect. Let it happen when it will,
think about it if it gives you pure pleasure, focus on other
things otherwise.
--- Alana Sugar <alana.sugar@...> wrote:
Dear Ilana-Ora
I want to thank you so much for responding to my question. You
are
right: I can not tell myself it will never happen. I get a
horrible
sinking feeling. So, I must relax and learn to allow. And I
have
discovered since hearing from all of you that it is simply that
my level
of expectation and belief is not there. My desire and passion
is
there. The feeling place is there. Now, I want the knowing.
That is
what I want.
Thank you so much for your love.
Alana
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