Sorry to hear of your loss. I can't decide if it's better or worse to be there when it happens. I lost my dad during the lockdown and couldn't even go to his funeral. I took care of my mom in law up to the end and helped prepare her for her funeral. We were really close and so it's like I've lost two parents already. I miss them still but am getting to the point where it's mostly happy tears with the good memories. The loss of my husband is still like an open wound. I'm finding that Buffy quote about living being the hardest thing in this world is pretty accurate. Hope you get to the happy memories being more than the pain soon.
