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[Kresy-Siberia (Yahoo)] Weve just "met" on Face book and we mailed in 2013.....
开云体育David this is thrilling, to read another members progress and happiness.?? It gives us all hope and yes you can email me privately and tell me your story. ???I will be a pleasure. ??Or…………………..if you feel up to it, write your account and visit and finding family on Yahoo, so all can read and be encouraged. ??It really does help others this way.?? So happy for you. ? Warmest regards Lenarda. Sydney, Australia ? From: Kresy-Siberia@... [mailto:Kresy-Siberia@...]
Sent: Wednesday, 9 March 2016 11:28 AM To: Kresy-Siberia@... Subject: [Kresy-Siberia (Yahoo)] Weve just "met" on Face book and we mailed in 2013..... ? ? Oh! Lenarda!!!!!!!!!......God I suddenly thought I remember your name....I havent touched this ?since 2013 when I was trying to find a family connection.....and the I did!!!!! ? I thought It was you!!!!.Ive just found this from 2013!!!!.....Did you know we`d already talked?.....Im saying the same things I said then now.....but I ?HAVE ?moved on I found and met a sister since then Her name is Josephine....I flew back from France last August 2015 and we met in Wales ?It was (is) really wonderful ? ?I dont use this at all now but Id really like ?to mail you again if thats OK ?and tell you how it worked out....If youd rather not ?and just do the Facebook site I quite understand...To be honest Im not sure how all this has evolved....I dont even know if youll get this mail....any way here goes ? ? David Golledge....Balinski |
开云体育David, ?I am so happy for you, because you have found yourself and accepted yourself, this is the first step to a better future, to a complete you. ??Be proud, very proud to be the son of Czeslaw Balinski, a great warrior and Kresy survivor. ? Your past is full of horrors, which no one should need to live through, but unfortunately, with damaged people after the war, they suffered and their children suffered.?? We need to acknowledge and accept this and move on. ? I found out that I cannot change the World or people, cannot remove their pain or my pain, learning to live with it and now, I can assist and understand others from my own personal experience. ? Being personal carer for my mother over 10+ years, was love and duty and facing my own demons, from childhood rejection and the past. ? The one thing I am most grateful for, is learning my mother’s history, putting together my father’s history, being able to teach my own children about their past and heritage, which made them stronger and was able to give my mother a quality of life at home, surrounded by people she loved in the last years of her life, except when she was too ill and spent 8 weeks in Hospital and Nursing home, before her death 16.1.16. ??Strangely enough, almost the same day as her brother, my uncle on 16.6.13. ??Mother and her brother both went into hospital with stroke, she came home, but he did not and on their death, 3 years apart, they were both 91 years old. ?I do not question this.?? TAK JEST. ? David, you have come a long way and the journey has just begun.?? ? Life can only get better and more interesting from now on. ? Blessings Lenarda, Australia ? ? From: Kresy-Siberia@... [mailto:Kresy-Siberia@...]
Sent: Thursday, 10 March 2016 12:29 PM To: Kresy-Siberia@... Subject: RE: [Kresy-Siberia (Yahoo)] Weve just "met" on Face book and we mailed in 2013..... ? ? Hello Lenarda...although I get by the old ?"interweb" still anmazes me...I do ? understand about sharing the story etc...Ive exchanged with Stefan on that after he invited me in...whats amazing me in this instant is I remember receiving a mail from you which was very STRONG ..telling me that my story had similar echoes(not your words)...It was a good lesson and helped me move on. Someone in KS found a branch of the family who lived in Leicester I found a cousin (born in 51!) whose favourite uncle was Czeslaw! I visited them and he knew my father really well ?and was able to tell tell me about my sisters in Canada ? I can say things to you quickly and I know you`d understand. Similarly in a sentence you talk about ?"ten years ?of care" and I think I know who you are....and what youve done ? Anyway the reason Im not in a position at the moment to " fully" help others is that I havent met my other sister Christine and its consuming me....Shes in Canada living with her mum and Czeslaws wife...Ive talked to Czeslaws wife Marion (just one call) and shes lovely and now that I met Josephine and and shes gone back and told them all about me Im really comfortable with it....apart from the fact Ive got to go there so its just the nuts and boults/practicalities were talking about..... I dont feel whole or truly at peace yet though ? ?All this and I cant talk to my mother about it because she said when I asked who I was when I was 23 she just gave me my fathers name and said His name is Czeslaw Balinski if you ever find him I dont want to know ?All the other stuff ( violence etc was still going on in her life.....my mum raised two more kids one is a doctor and the other was ?a nurse) that didnt stop their father from eventually clubbing my mother with a golf stick.....She` out of it all now and happy.....I see "mam" two or three times a week when Im in England....I live half and half in France ? All my formative life there was just nothing....and I just played dumb or fantasised ? ? My mother met Czeslaw when she was training as a fever nurse for a short period in London ?and then returned to the North of England ...When I met Josephine we talked and all that dovetailed with stories he had told her location etc ? I said "...so he would never have known I existed""" and quick as a flash she said...."He knows..."......laugh cry laugh ? When you wrote about thinking you would marry and change the world that really hit home to me....We had wonderful children...and like you they are huge in my life now.....Im so happy for you Lenarda ?Amazinglyin my marriage about all my background there was an indifference...and a coldness which I now know is an absence of love ...I have found someone, Karen ,who found my fathers wedding certificate and was with me when I met Josephine and her husband Bill in Wales ? I hope in years to come I can help others...Ill be especially interested im in the 50s and the illegitmate.... ?Thats largely the story Lenarda ? Ive sent you a picture on Facebook ...thats me a couple of years back with my grandaughter Mia who I dont see enough of Hopefully Ill be able to tell her the story in years to come ? Ive written this "en masse" Lenarda because I think its the only way ...I hope you dont mind.... I neednt say anythig else now.....which is good!....I feel as though you know WHO I AM...haha!.... ? Not BELL not GOLD not GOLLEDGE but son of Czeslaw BALINSKI.........X David ? ? |
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Wonderful Lenarda....That is exactly how I feel....(the ability to pass on the story I mean)...I read about your care with your mother Throughout my life Ive just about coped with the mental side and Im doing OK with the physical side up to now ? I know I couldnt do what you did ? Ha! you wrote about International Womens` Day....I know women are so strong and you`ve shown that... and now with your giving through the site...its fantastic
Im not religious but I do feel"stuff" for want of any kind of word . Reading about your mother and your brother`s passing ?3 years apart practically to the day at 91 years of age reminded me about the week I found out about Czeslaw ?I`d received Czeslaws ?letter from The Hoover Institute...I`d moved about 350 miles away after years of staying close to them to see them "up on their feet".....I wasnt expecting my boys ?but they turned up out of the blue independently...as if it had all been arranged and theyd just checked in to get the information.... I have become a different person since finding everything out...how lucky...how many stories lost?? Much love Lenarda X David ? ? ? ? ? ? ? |
开云体育David, again so happy for you.?? There is a song “The Truth Sets You Free” and this is exactly what happened to you.? Now you know who you are and where you belong, at times you will still fee lost and alone, this is because of past memories and habits in your old life, but it will not be as severe as before, when you were lost and rejected. ??You are now much loved and part of a greater family, the Kresy-Siberia Family. ? My mother ?died 16th January, 2016 and her brother, my uncle, died 3 years earlier, age 91 on 16th? June, 2013, but my real brother died last year on 28th July, 2015. ??I am the last survivor of my family in Australia, apart from my two (2) daughters. ? Life goes on and if we can leave something positive, something good behind us, when we finally leave this Earth, then it has been all worthwhile.?? This is all that really matters. ? Warmest regards Lenarda, Australia ? ? ? From: Kresy-Siberia@... [mailto:Kresy-Siberia@...]
Sent: Thursday, 10 March 2016 8:53 PM To: Kresy-Siberia@... Subject: RE: [Kresy-Siberia (Yahoo)] Weve just "met" on Face book and we mailed in 2013..... ? ? Wonderful Lenarda....That is exactly how I feel....(the ability to pass on the story I mean)...I read about your care with your mother Throughout my life Ive just about coped with the mental side and Im doing OK with the physical side up to now ? I know I couldnt do what you did ? Ha! you wrote about International Womens` Day....I know women are so strong and you`ve shown that... and now with your giving through the site...its fantastic ? Im not religious but I do feel"stuff" for want of any kind of word . Reading about your mother and your brother`s passing ?3 years apart practically to the day at 91 years of age reminded me about the week I found out about Czeslaw ?I`d received Czeslaws ?letter from The Hoover Institute...I`d moved about 350 miles away after years of staying close to them to see them "up on their feet".....I wasnt expecting my boys ?but they turned up out of the blue independently...as if it had all been arranged and theyd just checked in to get the information.... ? I have become a different person since finding everything out...how lucky...how many stories lost?? ? Much love Lenarda X David ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? |
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On Mar 9, 2016, at 5:29 PM, golledge_david@... [Kresy-Siberia] <Kresy-Siberia@...> wrote:
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On Mar 9, 2016, at 6:46 PM, 'Lenarda Szymczak' szymczak01@... [Kresy-Siberia] <Kresy-Siberia@...> wrote:
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