Re: Port Vega: Seeing an old friend (Brandon and Brooklyn)
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?Long ago she was his desire, he and Ireland were good and he accepted her as his sister. Brooklyn was..she was amazing and those blue eyes left him careening in his fantasies and desires of her. Coffee, they got along, he sent flowers, but he didn¡¯t ask for a date. His¡other job?was a bit demanding and he was again, not willing to let her in. The only good thing he seemed to do or think was not try to have a relationship with her without telling her the truth. He wouldn¡¯t do that¡get feelings all involved only to have a villain kidnap her and she does not know why. She deserved better. But still, he never stopped caring for her, sending her cards and flowers. She never left his mind. ? ?So why did he not come to tell her first¡selfish! He was still coping and didn¡¯t¡he felt like her! He just didn¡¯t know it. When he came to see Brooklyn¡that was it! Telling Brooklyn was akin to stepping into the confessional and telling it all every last piece of it¡every dirty detail of your life and seeking absolution¡but this time¡it would never come! He could never ask for forgiveness again. He would never feel Harrison¡¯s smack on the back of his head or back. Never feel the comforting grip of his father¡¯s shoulder. The man could never tell him he wasn¡¯t a loser and Brandon believe it but he showed him every day, in how he tried to make him into a better man than him.? Brandon learned responsibility, caring, protection¡he failed in emotional strength, courage, openness.? Brandon took to saving people like a fish to water. He never got the lesson of opening up and trusting¡he didn¡¯t trust any of them not to leave him¡he barely trusted Ireland not to leave him. He pushed them away now he finally learned the lesson, but it was too late to let them know he could care for another. He wasn¡¯t a complete selfish ass! He wished it would have been sooner! ? ?The door opened and he was looking at his dream once more, even in her present state she was so beautiful. He had a lone tear in his eye that ran down his cheek as he kissed her forehead. ¡°I am so sorry!¡± He did his Brandon thing and apologized. He had so much to be sorry for, this was sincerely he really was sorry for all that he had done and not done. He realized this was the end and the beginning for both of them, but if she let him he would never leave her again. No matter how things turned out, he would always be there this time. But now he held her, tight but not crushing he felt her in his arms and it was not his time to break it was his time to be there for her. He closed the door and scooped her up into his arms and carried her over to the couch and just held her, he kissed her head and just held her. ¡°I will be here as long as you need¡I am not Ireland¡I will never be but, I will never leave or push you away¡I promise for the rest of my days.¡± He would try to keep his word, there were certain things he could tell her¡but he would do his best to let her in¡let her into him. She might have thought she needed him¡he needed her far more. She would be his anchor when he was going too far into that shell again. He wasn¡¯t perfect and he would probably shut people out, but here and now, he was giving her the keep and he would try. He hurt so much, so he could only imagine losing your chosen twin. ¡°No matter what!¡± He held her and didn¡¯t feel the need nor desire to be anywhere else right now.?
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