I am not really nervous but I do dread all the crap I will need to go through again.

The last time it was a nightmare and even the day of surgery it was a nightmare. They put me through the MRI machine I think its called, a very small closed in machine and it takes an hour to scan over me. I was strapped to the table ( head arms waist feet ) and this thing scanned over me which took an hour. They took me to the biopsy room and with ultra sound found the cancer and then put metal markers all around the lump. They also put the radio active stuff into my boob and it had to be massaged in for 30 minutes and then into that damn machine again. I found out I was claustaphobic.during all of this. Just give me 2 adavan and I can do it.....lol. It was all such a nightmare and I can recall it all but not in proper order.

I remember waking up from surgery and she asked if? had pain ( which I did not have ) but? said oh yes lots of pain so she gave me a shot. It seemed like a minute and she asked me again and again I said yes lots of pain ( i had none ) and again a 3 rd time. I was higher than a kite. I heard them hollering at me to breathe again and again, my alarms going off but I was to high to even breathe. ?They got me up to pee and of course? couldn't even do that. I'm not used to having an audience when I pee.......lol. She then told me to get dressed to go home and I couldn't even dress myself but home I went. Once in the door I started puking but daughter grabbed a basin for me. The girls went home because I was so loopy but hubby plunked me in a chair, gave me a coffee and he went down to watch TV. I spilled the coffee all over me and the chair and i then managed to get myself upstairs to bed. It was a nightmare from start to finish....lol

This time I am asking to stay in overnight where someone will tend to me....I do not recover well after being knocked out.

So no I am not nervous just dreading all the BS? that comes with it all.

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