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Re: forwarded question on creating relationship
Lola Waychus
Dear Trixi,
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Thanks for the post. It is always great to get these reminders and they always come at the right time. Of course, you knew that. My love Lola Trixi Summers wrote: From: Trixi Summers <Landex@...> |
I expect!!!
Dianne Devereux
Hi all, I thought that this was a powerful story of positive expectation at
work. At the bottom is a list of my expectations. Great Expectations Pete Rose, the famous baseball player, and I have never met, but he taught me something so valuable that it changed my life. Pete was being interviewed in spring training the year he was about to break Ty Cobb's all time hits record. One reporter blurted out, "Pete, you only need 78 hits to break the record. How many at-bats do you think you'll need to get the 78 hits?" Without hesitation, Pete just stared at the reporter and very matter-of-factly said, "78." The reporter yelled back, "Ah, come on Pete, you don't expect to get 78 hits in 78 at-bats do you?" Mr. Rose calmly shared his philosophy with the throngs of reporters who were anxiously awaiting his reply to this seemingly boastful claim. "Every time I step up to the plate, I expect to get a hit! If I don't expect to get a hit, I have no right to step in the batter's box in the first place!" "If I go up hoping to get a hit," he continued, "then I probably don't have a prayer to get a hit. It is a positive expectation that has gotten me all of the hits in the first place." When I thought about Pete Rose's philosophy and how it applied to everyday life, I felt a little embarrassed. As a business person, I was hoping to make my sales quotas. As a father, I was hoping to be a good dad. As a married man, I was hoping to be a good husband. The truth was that I was an adequate salesperson, I was a not so bad father, and I was an okay husband. I immediately decided that being okay was not enough! I wanted to be a great salesperson, a great father and a great husband. I changed my attitude to one of positive expectation, and the results were amazing. I was fortunate enough to win a few sales trips, I won Coach of the Year in my son's baseball league and I share a loving relationship with my wife, Karen, to whom I expect to be married for the rest of my life! Thanks, Mr. Rose! By Barry Spilchuk from A Cup of Chicken Soup for the Soul Copyright 1996 by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen & Barry Spilchuk I expect to live happily ever after. I expect to be a great mother. I expect to have an ever deepening relationship with my husband. I expect to live in a beautiful home surrounded by nature yet close to all the conveniences that I desire. I expect to drive a green fully loaded Durango. I expect to pay cash for everything that I purchase. I expect to see my children live joyously and passionately fulfilling their intentions for being. I expect everything to always click into place with brilliance and ease. I expect surprises and delights from the universe. I expect wonderful rendezvous and serendipities. I expect abundance of every kind. I expect to come up with brilliant ideas. I expect to rendezvous with like-minded people. I expect to fully know who I am and my power. I expect always to be guided to thoughts that are in harmony with my core desires. I expect to continually deepen my understanding of Law of Attraction in comfortable, humorous and delicious ways. I expect that the universe is always bringing me that which is for my highest good. I expect to be inspired to the thoughts, words and actions that bring me the greatest joy. I expect to see evidence of Well-being every where I go. What are some of your expectation? Love, Dianne |
In a nutshell...
Vilik Rapheles
Dianne and Trixi...
Your truths. The truth. THE TRUTH! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ It never crossed my mind that it would be any different. The key here was that I never doubted myself. The trick here is I have all these wonderful things because I believed in myself. It's your vibration, your dream, what you expect for yourself! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~^^V^^~ |
ATI and IB
Vilik Rapheles
An Abe take on a few good quotes"
When a disciple came from a faraway country, the Master asked, "What arejoy in every moment) Why do you search outside?" essence... Our real Self (IB) is not different from the ultimate Reality(ATI)
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Re: Manifestation & an example
Vilik Rapheles
on the 28th March, i found this person via the classifieds on theIreena, Thank you for sharing...I like the lover part. Where are the classifieds? I would like to give that a try. Maybe just the right thing at the right time. Are you still on that abundance list? How is that? Much love to you. ~^^V^^~ |
Re: forwarded question on creating relationship
Dianne Devereux
Hi, Trixi, I thought that your post was brilliant. I experienced the same
thing around wanting to be married and have kids and it all happened right on schedule. It's just how I wanted it to be and it never crossed my mind that it would be any different. I always just played around with it in my mind because it felt good. Thanks for sharing. Love, Dianne From: Trixi Summers <Landex@...> Dear Sweet Alana! Do you expect a wonderful relationship? Do you think that you deserve a great guy? I will tell you a story. When I was a little girl I would dream and make up stories about this wonderful guy that I was going to marry. I stayed up late at night and would think about all the wonderful things we do and how we are, on and on. Whenever I wanted to feel good I would go to my dream world and add on to my dream. Now those were days that I did not know of ABE. All I knew is that it felt good. I also knew that I wanted to get married between 22 and 24, have my first baby by 26, start my own business, have three kids and live on a farm. Now what life do you think I am living? The key here was that I never doubted myself. I met my husband of of 15 years, right on target, and do you know that I love him more today than when I first met him! I had my first baby at 26, have three wonderful - beautiful children, own my own business and live on a farm! The trick here is I have all these wonderful things because I believed in myself. I never listened to others who said - oh you can't marry him (my parents) - I told them that I loved him with all my heart and this was the one. They changed their views because I was dead set on my way! Today they love this man so very much. They honor him and speak very highly of him. AND THEY USED TO HATE HIM! He was not good enough for their daughter! HA! Then they all told me starting a business was hard and you had to have lots of money behind you to do that. BULL SHIT! It's your vibration, your dream, what you expect for yourself! |
Angel Update....
Thank you all for your upliftment, prayers and PPE!
Angel and I went to see Dr B. today... The "Mrs" Dr B, who Angel loves the best was there, not her husband. Waiting for feline leukemia and feline aids test results was the longest 10 minutes of my life. Earlier when we were waiting for them to come draw her blood, Angel lay on stomach and chest with both paws on one of my shoulders...actually she was more center so we were solar plexus to solar plexus. I visualized Ang singing the meow mix song and dancing. The thought of it created a vortex that I could feel. At that moment I knew all would be well... Angel and I sat in the waiting room and read an article on Nicole Kidman..she discussed just enough Science of Mind to give me that Synchronicity feeling which added to our peace. We felt your PPE... The vet tech said..."I have good news"...and truly it was, it is. So Angel got a shot of antibiotics, we will never use Advantage flea medicine again and instead of sleeping in my closet, Angel is downstairs watching TV with my mother and father...amazing :) I worked last night 11pm to 730am, I was so grateful that the unit called and asked me to work...giving to others...being there when the 20 week old fetus transcended, and seeing the sparkle in the eyes of an 88 year old Alzheimer's patient who told me she was 47 was exactly where I needed to be. Thank you U, Thank you Light family. Oh...when I told the "47" year old it was 1999...she laughed and said "Oh well that is not what it is where we are"...I believe her :) Love and gratitude to each one of you! Nori |
Re: Manifestation
In a message dated 7/30/99 7:29:12 PM, connee@... writes:
<< I'm very curious if anyone has manifested or manifests within a short time situations, changesI just love the opportunity to share all the wonderful things that have happened to me since Abe. I really manifested so much before Abe, but knowing how creation works is so much more fun than the hit or miss I experienced before. Not understanding made it much more difficult to identify the resistances and to soften them with new beliefs. My latest manifestations are truly exquisite!!! A little over a year ago I began in earnest to pump up my desire for a mate. Like others, I'd had some difficult relationships, so I wanted to get more clear-headed about what I wanted. When I KNEW exactly all that was important, I began to take action. I put an ad on the internet. I got more responses than I ever believed possible! I met some interesting men, and, in the process, realized some things about myself. Like how I was always trying to fit in with their wanting (a knee-jerk response). Well, I took charge of my power, and felt like I was in charge of my destiny by remembering that this relationship was for ME. A few months later, the man I wanted turned out to be my second ex-husband, which completely surprised, thrilled and delighted me. All that I'd wanted Ben to be, he became, or, I realized he'd been all along. A few months into our relationship, we began dreaming about moving to an area where we could work at what we love to do more easily. Ben's a musician, I'm an artist and writer. Ben's got an income we could live on, but we didn't have the extra money needed to move. I just KNEW it would come and we set the date to move. Six months later, in time for our set date, through some miraculous events, we had more than enough money to make the move easy and effortless. Originally, I had $5,000 on my mind as adequate. I was amazed when my sister wrote me a check for that exact amount after my great-aunt died. I wasn't expecting anything from her. When the $5,000 didn't seem to be enough for the move, more came through selling artwork. We had $18,000 when we were ready to go. Now, being here, my desire's been to focus on selling my book. I've been editing it in preparation. I found out about some writing workshops and submitted some of my book to one of them. I was accepted, but it turned out not to be everything I wanted. Once I became clear about what I wanted in a workshop -- to be able to network with agents and editors, as well as learning more about my craft -- lo and behold!!! I noticed an ad for a workshop here that fit everything I wanted perfectly. Not only that, but they extended the early bird sign-up date, so that I was able to go at the cheaper rate!! I'm going in a little over two weeks, and, right now, I'm creating meeting either an agent or editor who is enthusiastic and excited about my book. To achieve that end, I'm creating a package that knocks my socks off, because I know if I'm thrilled with what I write, everyone else will be, too. I'm revving up that passion now, pulsing life blood through me, feeling the anticipation of all I'm excited about, allowing myself to BE what I know I can BE, so all that I want to happen will be the next logical step. In other words, now I'm creating what I want to happen, through my imagination, so that, when I take the action, it will all fall into place. To be continued................. Doretta |
UPonline
Janelle Kleppin
I get this, and I enjoy it a lot. While not exactly ABE-related, it nevertheless provides me a weekly dose of inspiration which is usually very much in line with ABE-stuff. Thought I'd share it with y'all this morning. Check it out. Tommy Gordy is a Science of Mind minister, I believe. Anyway, I like him.
Love, Janelle ======================== Universal Principles is an Omni-denominational, multicultural, one spirited metaphysical letter. Feel free to forward UP to your friends, there's no cost to subscribe. To Subscribe, remove, send comments, meet UP's author, browse past issues, scan UP's favorite links click here ---> <A href=" ">UPOnline's Home Page</A> *** Take a look in <A href="> Intelligent Thoughts</A> "Questions and Answers on The Science of Mind." |
Re: forwarded question on creating relationship
Trixi Summers
Dear Sweet Alana!
Do you expect a wonderful relationship? Do you think that you deserve a great guy? I will tell you a story. When I was a little girl I would dream and make up stories about this wonderful guy that I was going to marry. I stayed up late at night and would think about all the wonderful things we do and how we are, on and on. Whenever I wanted to feel good I would go to my dream world and add on to my dream. Now those were days that I did not know of ABE. All I knew is that it felt good. I also knew that I wanted to get married between 22 and 24, have my first baby by 26, start my own business, have three kids and live on a farm. Now what life do you think I am living? The key here was that I never doubted myself. I met my husband of of 15 years, right on target, and do you know that I love him more today than when I first met him! I had my first baby at 26, have three wonderful - beautiful children, own my own business and live on a farm! The trick here is I have all these wonderful things because I believed in myself. I never listened to others who said - oh you can't marry him (my parents) - I told them that I loved him with all my heart and this was the one. They changed their views because I was dead set on my way! Today they love this man so very much. They honor him and speak very highly of him. AND THEY USED TO HATE HIM! He was not good enough for their daughter! HA! Then they all told me starting a business was hard and you had to have lots of money behind you to do that. BULL SHIT! It's your vibration, your dream, what you expect for yourself! Oh and a couple of more things - while we are on this subject.... 1) IT'S NEVER ABOUT THE SUBJECT! We think it is - BUT IT IS NOT! It's about our vibrations (what we put out there) and how we ALLOW it back (are we appreciating). A Cup of Coffee is just as easy to manifest as a million dollars! Do you expect to have a cup of coffee every morning? AND DO YOU? Do you expect to have a million dollars every day? AND DO YOU? And what do you think when you are low on coffee? Oh I have to go buy some more coffee or else I won't have any in the morning. Well you could just expect to have coffee and say I will have coffee tomorrow, bring me coffee and forget about it and you never know where that coffee would come from. Ya see it's all in what we expect and believe. 2) Are you focused on good things? Are you using the help that is available to you? Is your desire up there for what you want? You see, when we really expect something it ALWAYS comes to us. There are many things that I just expect. They are mine! I have claimed them as mine. Think about how you eat every day - do you have to sit down and say to the universe - ok where am I going to get food? How is my body going to transfer food to energy? How will this all work? NO - you don't even think about that stuff, usually. Well manifesting things is the same way. State your intentions clearly and go about your business. It will come. If it is general it will come in a general way. If you are very specific it will come in a specific way. LOOK AT YOUR LIFE! WHAT IS IN YOUR LIFE? This is how we manifest! Which ones came easy to you? Which ones were hard? HOW DID YOU FEEL WITH THE EASY ONES? HOW DID YOU FEEL WITH THE HARD ONES? Do you expect a mate? A wonderful relationship? Do you see others in a wonderful relationship and say - Yes that's for me! 3) ASK for help. It is always given! You can ask for ANYTHING - even help with asking for HELP! I love you all! Trixi Trixi Summers wrote: From: Trixi Summers <Landex@...>-- Landscape Experts, Ltd. Call us at: (301) 607-4220 E-Mail us at: Landex@... Fax us at: (301) 607-4340 Surf us at: |
Re: A Crystal Clear Example- YES!!!
Juls,
Certainly the air conditioning in your car works -- you have selected for it not to at this time to really see the contrast. You can get it going again by changing your thougt, if you so choose. However, you are creating some great writing and thoughts by experiencing the contrast ~ so whatever you choose is perfect ! Patty |
Re: Resistance Released
Juls,
Of course all those gifts of appreciation mad way for you to send oodles of appreciation to the givers -- making them appreciate the energy they received from your appreciation of their gifts - those creating the little ripple that makes all the Universe respond with a little happiness, smile and joy. Thanks for sharing -- I now am sending out a ripple of a little more love than before for the love,appreciation and sharing that touched you! Lots of love, Patty |
Re: forwarded question on creating relationship
Trixi Summers
Good Morning Alana and ALL!
I too met you at the Silver Spring Abraham Workshop. We even sat at the table together for lunch on Saturday. I was the crazy one laughing all the time at the end. :) I do have fun! So your question.......... I have (as you and we all have) Manifested EVERYTHING in my life. Everything I see and experience I DID or I allowed. So I can look back on my life and say ok how did I "feel" when that or this came about? You see - every thought you have right now is your tomorrow. Connee wrote something really good on that lately! I sit every morning and evening and write out what I want or need for tomorrow. Some of this comes from contrast (which is a good thing) and then I know exactly what I want so I write it - then I put it away and have fun in my NOW. Live in your NOW. What do you appreciate right now? When you appreciate you literally open the doors to all that you have told spirit you want. When you accept thanks from someone else you open those doors. You see, it is much more simple than we make it. Yes, I close the doors sometimes but contrast is just here telling us where we are - just like flying high and loving every minute of life. So have fun, write, in Vision, appreciate and look back on your life and say ok I get it - that's how I got this or that! You will find that it is always a match. Just Trust that you are doing this correctly and Trust in Spirit. Well you have a wonderful fun filled day! I AM THAT I AM, Trixi! Connee Chandler wrote: From: Connee Chandler <connee@...>-- Landscape Experts, Ltd. Call us at: (301) 607-4220 E-Mail us at: Landex@... Fax us at: (301) 607-4340 Surf us at: |
Re: forwarded question on creating relationship
Trixi Summers
Good Morning Alana and ALL!
I too met you at the Silver Spring Abraham Workshop. We even sat at the table together for lunch on Saturday. I was the crazy one laughing all the time at the end. :) I do have fun! So your question.......... I have (as you and we all have) Manifested EVERYTHING in my life. Everything I see and experience I DID or I allowed. So I can look back on my life and say ok how did I "feel" when that or this came about? You see - every thought you have right now is your tomorrow. Connee wrote something really good on that lately! I sit every morning and evening and write out what I want or need for tomorrow. Some of this comes from contrast (which is a good thing) and then I know exactly what I want so I write it - then I put it away and have fun in my NOW. Live in your NOW. What do you appreciate right now? When you appreciate you literally open the doors to all that you have told spirit you want. When you accept thanks from someone else you open those doors. You see, it is much more simple than we make it. Yes, I close the doors sometimes but contrast is just here telling us where we are - just like flying high and loving every minute of life. So have fun, write, invasion, appreciate and look back on your life and say ok I get it - that's how I got this or that! You will find that it is always a match. Just Trust that you are doing this correctly and Trust in Spirit. Well you have a wonderful fun filled day! I AM THAT I AM, Trixi! Connee Chandler wrote: From: Connee Chandler <connee@...>-- Landscape Experts, Ltd. Call us at: (301) 607-4220 E-Mail us at: Landex@... Fax us at: (301) 607-4340 Surf us at: |
Re: PPE and Love, please
Juls...thank you...
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I did not take your questions wrong at all.. It was exactly what I needed... Love to you, my friend Nori In a message dated 7/30/99 10:56:55 PM Eastern Daylight Time,
laughingpaws@... writes: << Hi Nori, Please don't take these questions the wrong way but this is what I always get from most loving friends when I'm where you are: What do you WANT to happen? ~~~~I want Angel to get better, eat Codie's food, do her imitation of the cow jumped over the moon when I over sleep (This is her jumping over my snoozing body and landing on the bed ~ THUD~~in all of her full figured glory and saying "meow m-ow." Then she jumps to the other side and does the same over and freaking over until I get up to feed her...lol) What do you LIKE about this situation? ~~~~~~I like how she looks in my eyes when I ask her what she needs. I love how she trusts me to look in her mouth and do a nursing examination on her. I love how I get to hold her for more than one second when we drive in the car and sit in the vets office. I like sitting holding her imagining her singing and dancing to the meow mix song and FEELING our vibration lift. I like being reminded of how all my fears and feelings make me relate to the patients and families I work with better. What would it FEEL like to have what you want happen? ~~~~~I would feel butterflies in my solar plexus and the joyful gratitude would make me soar! I would feel "tuned in, tapped in and turned on." I would feel Love and Joy and delight in each moment... I'm looking forward to reading pages and pages of your answers. LOVE YA- Juls >> |
WHO AM I? ANUNDA! Another finger pointing at the moon...
Paul Roberts
Thanks to Vilik for pointing me to this guy Christopher. He's got a site
called www.anunda.com, and also a list anunda@.... One of the things I get a really big kick out of is how this tremendous awareness is creeping up on the planet...here it is, anunda-style...quite abe-ilicious, imo...just like connee's science of mind! Huggles round n round the tub, NetPaul ======================================================= Who is anunda This is a question that has often been asked of me. Only this morning I was asked "How do I find Anunda?" ... to which my reply was "Anunda has found you" When I first started out on my Spiritual Quest, I reacted to what people were telling me I should believe, I reacted to words they were using, and to the way I was told who and what I should believe . Please bear with me as I go into some of the background . you may not yet understand what I am getting at, but it will become clearer ... this I promise you. We often ask "How do I find God", "How do I find Jesus" ... the answer is really quite simple ... we don't. The ancient Chinese Tao puts it quite simply . "From One came Two ... From Two came Three ... From Three came ten thousand other things ." The Bible contains the phrase ... "In the beginning was the word ." Early on in my own personal journey I read the line ... "What you are looking for you already are" . So I asked the question "Why ." And then I understood that my eye can see, but cannot see itself except by looking at itself in a mirror ... and what it sees in the mirror is not the eye that is looking, but a reflection, a reversal, the flip, the opposite of that eye. So if I am God, Jesus, anunda . then everything that I see is the mirror image of the I that is looking. It is not the I am, but it is the mirror image of that. Now, going back to the words from the Tao, One has created Two (or duality) in the need to see itself. By not accepting I am, I have created a subject (I, the looker) and Object (what I am looking at) ... now, both of these contain the original I but the seeker forgot that and made all sorts of judgemental decisions about not only the subject but also the object? Confused? Ok, so was I . which part of I (you) is confused? ... where does the confusion come from ...? Where do the reactions come from .? So I remembered the principle of the Mirror. I decided to flip the question .. and the answer. If what I am looking for I already am, what is it that separates me from the experience of being that? ... Who, what, where and why are the questions that arise out of duality, of seeing subject as separate from object? But the answers of religion and spirituality brought reactions ... where did those reactions come from? If I returned to `God' there should be no reactions .... why was `God' wrong? ... and the word `Love' ... well, that brought up more reactions than I would care to mention at this point. I had to remember `One' ... for myself I had to define or find a word that aroused within me no feelings, no reactions, a word that my body felt comfortable with, a word that encompassed everything. It meant defining a new word that contained the essence of what I `knew', but for which there was no re-action. So I looked at `The Nothing', `Innocence', `the void', and all of those other words the described wholeness. Can there be innocence that does not have an opposite in `Guilt' .? can there be a nothing that contains `Everything' .? Can there be a void that contains only pure potential before separation, before I place a judgement on what I see reflected back to me in the mirror? . Can there be a word or a symbol which implies all of these, a nexus, a common meeting point that does not have some implied meaning, a point like the dot within the circle . Can there be something simple I can conceptualise as the essence of everything . From the Sanskrit, Ananda defines the Bliss of the Yoga or union with the Divine. It has been used before as an image, a symbol, but has been the object of conflict . it has been deified (or held up as a god). Sanskrit is the root language behind many of the languages of the world. The concept of this oneness was what I was looking for ... the essence of oneness . So anunda was born ... an essence, the One before separation of the Tao, the void that it pure potential, the innocence that is beyond guilt, the nothing that contains everything . The meeting point of all spiritual pathways east and west, of all colours, creeds and races of man. There are no capital letters in `anunda' it is not an object, being or in fact anything outside of you ... it is the you that you cannot see ... the essence from which `God' and all the lesser gods descended . Why . ? is the question asked by the knower inside each of us who acknowledges the existence of that anunda/essence/innocence on some level and cannot remember what it is that separated us from that. The ego is all duality and plurality that has descended from that One ... as the multiple products of thought ... yet it still contains the essence of unification ... We forgot when we looked in the mirror ... we forgot that the reflection we see is the flip or reversal of what is looking ... we forgot that what we were reading is metaphor for aspects of that which is in essence undescribable. This journey, the journey of 'Hearing the Children", the "Journey of anunda" is the journey of remembering ... of reconnecting the fragments ... of the ego/mind/body recovering all of the judgements and the children of those judgements of the separation that saw one become two and two become ten thousand other things. It is not written from any textbook, but encompasses all . for there is more wisdom in a tree before it is cut down, processed, turned into paper and covered with the written word . Copyright Information 1999 Christopher Wynter |
Re: Manifestation & an example
om
well,
i manifested a lover. in March, after having chosen to be a hermit since Oct, 97, i asked the universe: I AM ASKING FOR PHYSICAL EVIDENCE OF JOYFUL LOVE WITH ANOTHER HUMAN BEING on the 28th March, i found this person via the classifieds on the internet. it was also around Feb. this year that i found this list and the writings of Abraham. can i say anything more? in much appreciation of this list, Thank you Abraham, Thank you Esther, Thank you David and Connnee, Thank you all, in love and light, ireena p.s. i now ask and want physical evidence of the abundance of money to repay all my debts, to facilitate me in creating the kind of life style that i want. So Be It! :) |
Who Am I, Biting the Bushes, Poem
Paul Roberts
WHO AM I?
The singular great ontological question, no? Ramana Maharshi, considered by some to be the greatest Indian metaphysical teacher of this century, used this as his teaching method...simply getting quiet and asking the question WHO AM I until the answer starts cumming. The Zen koan is just the same: WHAT IS YOUR ORIGINAL FACE BEFORE YOU ARE BORN. Jesus answered that one by saying "Before Abraham was...I AM". No pun intended (giggles). ======================== Lois Payne writes: I think maybe this is gonna beNo worries, girlfriend, really and truly...cause even if we're not hangin on for dear life, dear LIFE is hangin on for dear us. Ahhhhhhhhh....what a RELIEF that is. And not only that (grin), but guess who's lurkin in those bushes, anyway? I'll give ya a hint...it delurked for Moses and called itself I AM. And doesn't that loop so nicely right back to the top of this post tho! ========================= And finally, here's a "Who Am I" poem I wrote. I can't remember if I posted it here before...so I'll post it again. It's allowed, as far as I know. Love, I AM NetPaul (or have we stopped doing that one yet?) ======================================================================== What Would Happen to ME "What is your original face before you were born" (Zen koan) What would happen to ME If I simply let go of it all If, simply as simply could be, Stopped banging my head on the wall, And let it all drop fancy free A fat rolling head on the floor. What would happen to me? And what would all those people roar? Mammas and papas, uncles and aunties, Grammas and grandpas and teachers and preachers, All the right honorable authorities Insisting they're right, and not me How much disapproval would I feel, How much disapproval could I take. Feeling them collectively all shake Their sage grey heads all muttering Beneath their hairy breath Thinking I am bad for even thinking of such death. And even if I pushed them all away, And then became a rebel with a cause, Or maybe none Would I ever pause, And ask myself against whom I rebel? And what about rebellion makes me strong? And where it is that I must not belong? Does being on the outside make me right? Does being on the inside make me wrong? Or is it just the other way around? What is in the fabric of it all That makes me think I need a precious piece Of hallowed ground, a place where I can drive A stake into the ground, Of this hard beating heart that I have bound Up with the head of something I must make Identity. What would happen to me? What would happen if I gave a yell, Long and loud enough to pull quite down The fabric of my own reality, My very nearly perfect half a hell, Or half a heaven as the case may be? What if I would pull THAT curtain down? Who'd be left to run the big machine, Billow smoke and holler "I am OZ, OZ the Great and Terrible, Heed Thou ME!" And do be sure to write the whole thing down!" What would happen if there WAS no me Sitting in the middle of it all All the hoot and holler, all the smoke, Sitting in the middle of the joke? What would happen to me? What would happen if I finally climbed The very highest mountain I could find, And viewed the widest vista I could see, And walked up to the very final ledge, And contemplated life upon the edge Of this particularity, This reality This peculiar hedge And jumped because I heard a single voice Sing soft and low of wild divinity And looking at a gathering of crows Decided I could fly, insanely free, Into the boundless ocean blue of mind. What would happen to me? Would I forget the way back home? The way to kiss the kids goodnight? Forget the difference between red and green Coming to a traffic light? What would happen to me? And what would happen, What would happen, What would happen if I then forgot That everything is hard and I am slow So slow to learn and quicker to forget? Would I forget the places I must go Would I forgot the people I must see. Forget that IT is high and I am low? What would I regret? And what would happen to me? And what would such forgetting Get me in the end? Could I, would I, make myself pretend Pretend I know, pretend I do not know The answer to the question "Who are you?" Pretend it's not a mirror, nor a show Shimmering above, beneath and through The endless rolling waves of bluest sea? What would happen to me? And what would happen then to me at last If I read a book and let it speak Its peace to me, then simply put it down. And let its starseed simmer in my brain Not watched, nor thought about, again Until the hidden seed took root and glared In rocket rainbow arcs across that blue and heaving ocean glass Spurting leaves and branches as it grew Itself all through the infinite blue pane. To exactly whom At that point could I possibly complain My heart out to? And to which channel would I then attune, And who else's message would I seek, Whose answers would I gather and whose prayers would I croon, If all those rainbow arcs began to speak All at once, of everything they knew Or anything at all they wanted to? Would I turn that pane into a wall? Or let it fall and shatter, finally Into a multi-colored spray of shards Of nothing much at all? So what WOULD happen to me If I closed my eyes and jumped Off that final ledge, That final hump That rudely juts into infinity, That hump I call my very own Identity? Would I fall and smash into the ground, Scream into air that silently slides round This face about to shatter on a rock, This flesh about to tear upon a tree? What would happen to ME? |
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