Hi, Mary-Anne,
The best way I know to stop the negative thoughts is to choose more positive
thoughts. Doesn't have to be about massage school, that is in motion.
Think about reasons why you love your life, how beautiful the sky is, how
fluffy your cat. How so many things you ever wanted in your life came to
pass. How the wellbeing is overwhelming - why the sun came up this morning,
and will come up tomorrow.
Find a way to get happy and stay happy today!
And then, when you are feeling much better, fantasize about massage school.
Imagine learning muscle groups, and practiting on all the new friends you
have made, and laughing when tracing a particular muscle groups tickles!
Won't it be fun to be around all these amazing, delightful, giving people!
And imagine your practice, and the joyous room you will work in. What kind
of music will you play, what kind of sheets, heater, art work, crystals,
lights, massage table will you buy? What will your practice mates be like,
or will you prefer to practice alone? Get specific. There is great fun to
be had in imagining your future life. And when you are done selecting mint
green and pink in your mind as your room colors, redo it all again with
lavendar and turquoise, and see how it feels. Which one feels better? What
about primary colors, yellow and red, with some joyous children's art on
your walls? What if your practice were working with children? How does
that feel? Do you want a sheepskin underpad, or just soft sheets for your
clients to lie on? Focus on details that delight you.
Life is good.
Love and hugs,
Connee
