Hi Alana,
I'm wondering what it is you are wanting? Would you feel at ease to tell
us?
My advice is...get on this list! <grin> I'm serious.
My thought is that there might be something that has to happen first.
Beliefs changed? And being on a list is like a very loooooong
workshop....with so many aspects that are helpful.
I don't think you are the exception. I don't think there are exceptions.
But I think Juls advice to forget for awhile and play at something else is
a good idea.
So how about coming to play with us on this list? We also have a
SoulMate list, should that be the question. (And oh that can be a question...)
Much love and hoping to see you!
~^^V^^~