Hi Gwen and everyone else that's PEM'd me,
Sorry, I've given you all the info I have. One of my main intentions has
been that HE finds and comes to ME so I really don't have any desire to
search him out at the moment. I bought a Love candle today, since I can't
truly sit around and do NOTHING, but other than that I have no clue. He
could be married with 6 kids for all I know and he is just representative of
the man that will come along, I don't know and if that's the case I don't
want to know, I'm having too much fun playing and dreaming about
it. I have his parents address and phone number and I'm sure I could find
an e-mail address for him somewhere, but where's the FUN in THAT?
For a long time now I've tried to push things thru, Make them happen and
sometimes that's been REALLY good, but with this, I want to see how the
universe arranges it all, I don't want to read the last page of the book
before the first is written. I like to think that he had a similar dream to
mine and is now going thru the steps to find ME, wouldn't that be SO MUCH
more Fun than Me finding Him?
I mean there are a MILLION different ways that we could meet again, I could
go there, he could come here, he could already BE here for all I know. He
could call me and say, " I know this sounds weird but I've been dreaming
about you and, well I wanted to see how you were." OR he could want to use
the property for the farm for a photo shoot or The Farm when it's opened for
a photo shoot or we could run in to one another at a restaurant somewhere or
ANYTHING and I want to see how it all plays out. MUCH more fun than a
search on the WWW for him. Or a couple dozen roses could end up on my
doorstep with a REALLY great note or I don't know, but I'm having a Blast
thinking about it and imagining it.
Tonight when we were at dinner in a local Italian Restaurant I looked up and
just stared at a waiter going by he looked Very familiar to me but I
couldn't place him and then it hit me, and I dropped my fork- a very cool
and non chalant response- he looks like I remember Pete. We've been to that
restaurant almost weekly for years and I've NEVER had that kind of reaction
to ANYONE before, well to someone who looked like Lofts I did and at the
time I thought Lofts was dead so I thought I was seeing a ghost, he was
riding the same kind of motorcycle as well- but not with Pete. So, I guess
I'm getting closer to this unfoldment all the time. Funny thing is I only
saw him once the whole time we were there and we eat slowly. Just a little
faith boost from the U I guess. And I LOVE those. :D
But I do PROMISE that as SOON as I know anything more, you guys will be
amongst the first to know, as soon as I stop bouncing long enough to be able
to type it out.
LOVE YA- Juls
