Dear Juls
You wrote
"I mean part of me believes that
food and excercise make the difference and part of me doesn't and it seems
like the two cancel each other out and I stay right where I am. "
This sounds so very much familiar. Like the one part of me that believes
that painful work and income are related and part of me doesn't. :)
What I am doing now is getting these two parts into communication.
I'm getting two dolls sitting on two chairs looking at each other. One is
the 'face harsh reality' part of me and the other is the 'dreamer'.
When I did this for the first time many years ago on another issue it was
called "Gestalt".
You could get a cuddly Teddy on the chair for the fat Juls and a Barbie on
the other chair for the slim Juls.
To start with I'll take the position of the Dreamer (sit on the chair and
take Dreamer on the lap and be Dreamer) and now I'm asking the other "Who
are you and what do you want?"
Now I'm switching to the other. Sitting on that chair and becoming "Harsh
Reality" and I answer "I am the beggar who hated to live on charity. I am
the inability to DO things and be useful. I want to be loved and accepted,
even though I cannot earn a living. And I am also the poor dumb and blind
soul who was unjustly put in jail because nobody understood the sign
language. I want justice!" and as 'Beggar' I now ask the 'Dreamer', "Who are
you and what do you want?"
I switch back to the other and reply, "I am Hrastis who searched for and
found immortality and I am the redheaded Russian who left his comfortable
life to follow his beloved into the wilds of Canada for the bliss of being
together. I want to be able to let go of all worldly things again and just
be."
As facilitator of this communication process I now get the parties to
understand what each could do for the other. I let Hrastis ask the Beggar
what she can do for him and I let the Beggar ask Hrastis what he can do for
her. And I go on with Exercise this until I have a viable solution to my
dilemma. Btw the four figures are what I remember from other lives and I
haven't managed to feel comfortable with any of them yet. :) Doing this
exercise is for me also a way of rewriting my 'past'. <grin> Who knows how
this may affect my future. :)
Thanks for reminding me of this process again.
Be well
Ulrike
