--- In Disappearance_of_the_Universe@..., "mstreet"
<mastreet@t...> wrote:
Carrie wrote:
Let's see, adding to that Martha (who seems a lot different than
she was on other boards we've been on together, maybe she is at
least
being honest about how she feels about me and not pretending?)<<
Hi Carrie:
It is true, that a lot of things have just resurfaced, that I had
tried to ignore when first we met. Like, you accusing others of
having secret boards, only to find out that it was <you> who had had
a secret board. Then your complaining about being ignored by others,
and feeling invalidated by them. Yet you doing the exact same thing,
but that is suppose to be okay.
It hasn't been a total loss. I got one more lesson in "shutting
up" (thanks Martha)<<
I did not tell you to shut up Carrie. I just feel that you make
statements that you feel others should apply, but not yourself.
Like "if a brother asks you do something foolish, do it, because it
doesn't matter." When obviously you do not apply this in your own
life. Personally I think it would be foolish to do this, without
first being absolutely certain, that one is receiving guidance from
the Holy Spirit to do this. And then it would be something that is
not harmful to any one.
I know that my responses to you today, were insensitive and for
that I am sorry. You do not deserve to be treated with disrespect,
and I was disrespectful of you. But I have never told you to shut up.
~ Martha
And I never had a "secret board".
Unless you believe what Katie (who believes ACIM is a cult) says.
That's what she called my egroup SongOfPrayer. Which wasn't
secret and for awhile was listed at the top of my open discussion
board.
It's still listed on the top of Nancy's discussion board, even
though it's been closed for over a year (because of Katie).
But if she (and you) keep stating it as a fact, it will become one
and one more reason to see me as a liar and troublemaker.
Whatever you want me to be.
You didn't directly tell me to shut up, but you pretty much
implied this. And it's what others want.
I am working on it.
I appreciate the honest feedback. Remembering it and not
thinking "today is a new day and it's over and done" (when it really
isn't) is still a problem for me.
~ Carrie
