My day of the deposition started out with a 2-mile walk with my close friend Kelly, who heard about the lawsuit for the first time. I refused to give it much energy for all this time, so I figured NOT talking about it would pretty much make it not exist for me (denial IS a safe place, isn't it?!)! Prior to the walk, though, I got out the Disappearance copy which I gave to Kelly this morning, and opened it up directly to the first chapter of Part II "Waking Up" section, actually chapter 6, page 205, "The Holy Spirit's Alternative." It occurred to me immediately that perhaps this incident was all about waking me up to many things, my surroundings, the car in front of me (ahem!), the cars behind and beside me, and to just ME. The chapter started with a Course quote: "The ego made the world as it perceives it, but the Holy Spirit, the reinterpreter of what the ego made, sees the world as a teaching device for bringing you home." ((((((((((((((resonation))))))))))))) right there on my porch swing!
The chapter went on to remind me ever so beautifully of the Atonement, the idea that we are NOT separated, and that forgiveness is all that matters. "The ego says you've suffered a terrible loss...(while)... the Holy Spirit says there is no loss in reality." I knew I somehow needed to learn from this woman who has filed suit. I went into prayer and stayed that way all day.
I had complete and total peace with my attorney as he explained that we were here simply to get all on the same page. I listened as my attorney questioned the lady filing the suit. Her name is Tonya. I prayed for her the entire time, and as she spoke of her hurt neck, I sent healing energy and light to her even more. When it was time for me to be questioned, I simply let the words flow, and her attorney actually seemed stumped as to why we were really there. After only a few questions, he said, "That's all I have." Things that Tonya accused me of, I simply re-told from my perspective, and calmness enveloped me. Afterward, my attorney shared that the other attorney stopped so abruptly because he really didn't have anything to go on. However, if a judge and jury were needed for this, we'd see them on September 22nd. All I know is that if, in fact, my bumper touching her bumper could cause her neck to sprain and be under a doctor's care for three months, I am really sorry. And I told her that afterward, and that I was praying for her. She continued having a difficult time giving me eye contact.
My attorney says he has a bit more homework to do, but that he does not see that this will be going anywhere. Tonya could not state any reasons she was asking for the amounts of money she was asking. It was weird. And the raging husband stayed out of it. Usually, according to my attorney, the other spouse will co-file the suit. But that's not happening. Anyway, I am grateful, and continue to pray for everyone's highest good.
"Love holds no grievances..."
I AM...
Sheila
Namast: I honor in you the divinity that I honor within myself and I know we are one.
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