¡°If only I hadn't listened¡¡± Tatia couldn't say whether it would have changed the way things turned out and yet the words seemed somehow necessary. Truth be told she had thought about those days often through the centuries spent trapped on the Other Side. She drew a calming breath as reliving that period of her was a little painful despite having come to terms with certain aspects.
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¡°But she played on my fears¡said that if I didn't ¡®set you free¡¯ you would given time grow to resent me¡because according to your mother the reality of raising another man's child was something you hadn't thought through.¡± It was a subject she had never dared discuss with either brother with things being what they were though perhaps in hindsight she should have.
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¡°It was never my wish to cause either of you pain.¡± Mustering the courage to send a look his way as he came to sit next to her, half expecting to see anger in his eyes. ? To hear him talk so openly about what came after her untimely demise was no easy task but she imagined it to be something he needed to get off his chest.
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¡°I cannot change the way I reacted back then¡I can only apologize for any pain I may have caused.¡± If she were being honest there was a part of her that longed to offer some form of explanation that might make it all better but feared any such attempt might make matters worse.
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¡°Elena told me the story¡about when your mother turned you into¡¡± She let her voice trail off as there seemed little need in finishing the thought as he was all too familiar with anything she might have said on the matter. It was her turn to look down now. ¡°I would like to believe that if I were given the time to understand what it was I had seen things would have gotten better after that day.¡±
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She was quiet after that for several seconds perhaps it was due to the shock of what she'd heard. If not her choice then surely the passage of a thousand years should have caused those feelings to die. It only took a moment for the widow to regain her voice. ¡°I loved you from the start.¡±
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Her admission was a sincere one though if asked she couldn't deny somewhere beneath the fear she still cared for his brother. But was no longer able to envision a future with Elijah as that final memory still haunted her.?
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(ooc: second attempt to post.)