“Nope never.”? He didn’t always like what she was saying but it was never malicious…sometimes he might have taken it that way but that was him not really accepting much crititism of him as not being attacking.? He wasn’t perfect he knew but he didn’t believe everything he did was wrong even if he felt like it was!

He didn’t think he was trying to manipulate her or getting her drama, focused nor pull her into a pity party…not his own.?? He had enough pity for himself.? He didn’t need any help.

He listen to her but he knew what he heard.? His father stated that he wanted him to step up and he didn’t!? He changed the scenario to help him shine…he still failed.? He was smart, he knew but what his father said wasn’t rocket science.? He was interviewing everyone…and even he failed!? He didn’t understand what his family didn’t understand…if he wasn’t successful than he failed!? The group didn’t succeed to go on to the next level…he had been the leader for awhile…he didn’t lead so their success was hindered because of him.? He could accept it why couldn’t they.? He accepted his role in what happened yesterday…he gave up!? It was his fault he accepted that he had been demoted.? He didn’t even try to focus them in a concerted effort he just wanted the day to be over so he could go and lick his wounds and that wasn’t fair to the team.? He was not the leader because he didn’t put the team first.? He didn’t deserve it!? That was the long and short of it.

“Then don’t play that game then Harrison.? I am not here for the game playing.? I am here asking you as my matronly mentor…how do I best handle this situation better if it ever comes up again.? I know I blew this one.? I am not looking for ways to feel bad about myself.? I want to learn from this and help others do that same.”? He looked at her he pushed his shoulders back some trying to at least not look so defeated.

“She told me I was selfish and to leave her alone!? So did I lose command of the English language all of a sudden?? I no longer want to be your sister!? Is that supposed to mean something different other than what she said?? If she is in my corner then damnit I couldn’t tell today.? Excuse me…I didn’t mean that.”? He listened to her…grow up…man up and stop being the victim?!?’

“Yes Ma’am!”? He looked at her wondering if she was through with him.? He knew leaving wasn’t an option, but staying would be the most self-less thing to do!? He would do what he could to help the others.? He didn’t kick them out of the facility so much as told them they weren’t part of the program…they couldn’t really live out there on their own.? He could train them and just ask for help.? They couldn’t be in the program, but that didn’t mean they couldn’t train and learn to be helpful as a group.? He had failed yesterday, but it didn’t mean that he had to let that failure define him.

?Harrison

At his words she frowned. Did he really just do what she heard him do?

She turned to face him “you want the truth, Brandon? Fine, all right here is the truth. We know Chord. And we both know he is thorough. If you spoke to him and I know you did, then we both know He told at you length what your missteps were and how you need to improve when you spoke to him. So If you here asking me how to improve. It’s because you are being typical Brandon. Which is really sad because at 23 don’t you?think it’s about time that you grow up and stop it.”

“I have known you more than half your life. So I know how you move and how you operate. And I know what you doing now. Like Raine you have never been able to take constructive criticism when you are told something you don’t like. Whereas Raine lashes out and blame others, ?You pout and whine and say “oh woe is me”.

“you flutter from Chord to Me to Raine to Ireland with this whole I’m horrible. I can’t do anything right. everybody thinks I can’t do anything right. why am I even bothering. I should just leave I should just run away. why am I so messed up, what did I do wrong and what do I need to improve schtick, But we all know You aren’t seeking improvement. You are in the middle of one of your personals pity party and you are looking for someone to make you feel better by?blowing warm smoke up your arse.

You have done it your whole life, Brandon. And you are doing it now. And we both know it.?Ireland has always been that one person who is always willing to strokes your ego. I’ve watched her fight Raine over you. I’ve watched her fight Chord over you. Hell I watched her fight me over you. I’ve watched her fight girls over you. I’ve watched her fight boys over you. I watched her fight you over you. She’s always been in your corner.

“And then today something happened...with her. And you are too selfish and spoiled to even give her back what she always given you. Unrelenting unwavering loyalty

“What did you say...she must not have my back today...Really Brandon. Did you stop to ask yourself why? All of a sudden the one person in the world that has always fought for you did not and not only did she not she told you she didn’t want to have anything to do with you. Did you stop and ask yourself what did I do to hurt her so bad that would make her leave me??

“No you didn’t because today your rock needed you to be her rock and you didn’t care enough about her to find out how to do that for her. And that’s just unacceptable. And unbelievably disappointing. but then again you don’t need Ireland to be your rock anymore you have Cat now right so your sister is expendable.“She shook her head.?

“To answer your original question, improvement comes from within, Brandon. if you really wanted to improve, You would not be here more with me. You would be in your room reflecting on your actions today and yesterday, on what Chord said analyzing your missteps, coming up with your personal plan for improvement. But your not doing that. You are here. Blaming your father, your team and Ireland. Maybe you and Raine are more alike than you too think.”

“this conversation is over, Brandon. Chord already told you how to improve, reflect on your conversation with him and if truly want to do better, you will , but right now I’m too disappointed in you about how you handled your sister to continue. Now turn around and walk away. Do not speak to me because I do not want to hear anything else you have to say.”