Part of my last message came to me on the list with a huge hunk missing out of the middle. Sorry for the duplicate, if yours didn't arrive like that, but I really wanted the whole story to print.
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Good morning again, friends. I wanted to share a couple more little manifestations with y'all -- forgive me if I sound like I'm crowing, I'm just so delighted to see that it's working, I'm bouncing off the walls today, and y'all are really the only people I can share this with -- the rest of the world thinks I'm crazy when I start spouting about creating and manifesting. <G>
OK -- first off, I'm learning to cook Tex-Mex, and am enjoying it very much. I found a PBS style TV show that teaches traditional Mexican cooking, and they showed how to use a tortilla press and a thing that looks like a mortar and pestle made of volcanic rock -- I can't think of what it's called right now, something like "mo-ka-ho-tay". Anyway, I remember the day I saw the show, some 2 or 3 weeks ago, and I remember WANTING those tools in my kitchen, but not from a place of lack, from a "wouldn't THAT be fun to play with" feeling -- and it's DIFFERENT than how I usually want things, which is why this is so neat to me right now. So yesterday, we visited this huge flea market and found it to have an overwhelmingly Mexican flavor. So we are walking along, and I see a tortilla press -- and ask how much, he says $10, and I think, "no, I wouldn't pay more than $5 for that" and we go on. Later on I see a second vendor with a tortilla press, and they want $6, but it doesn't "feel right" so I pass. Later we end up in a section we've never been to before, and there's my stone implement -- and I "recognized" it, sitting there among several others (I know that sounds weird, but I really did KNOW it as if it was already mine and I was just reclaiming it) AND a tortilla press for $6. So I got them both -- and they knocked $1 off the price of the tortilla press (WITHOUT MY ASKING!!!) so I got it for $5 after all! I was SO JAZZED, not just because I got my new toys, but also because I remembered when and where I sent out the desire for them, and I can identify WHAT I felt that was different this time! <G> What a LEARNING experience this was for me!
OK -- so right after that yesterday we were talking about going fishing, and we didn't know anything about Texas fishing licenses or where to go fishing here, and I spent not much more than 17 seconds thinking about how it would feel to have a license and take the kids fishing, and decided it would be fun. So this morning in my e-mail I have a letter from somebody I don't know who saw my posting on a BBS that I posted to months ago about my former hometown, and he has a website devoted to -- you guessed it -- hunting-fishing-camping in TEXAS!!! I visited his site, and got ALL the info I needed and discovered that the new licenses go on sale August 11 -- talk about perfect timing!!! I got GOOSEBUMPS from it!
So this morning, as I am becoming more AWARE of what it FEELS like to want from the perspective that works, I'm absolutely GIDDY with delight!!! I feel like a kid who just discovered the slide and how much fun it is -- I can't wait to climb that ladder and go "WHEEEEE" again and again and again! Somehow, I think the rest of my life is going to be a LOT MORE FUN than the first 42 years have been!
I also, as I think about this, realize how difficult it is to put into words and communicate to another the subtle nuances of feeling that differentiate wanting from a perspective of lack and wanting from a perspective that works. Bless each and every one of you who have taken the time to try, because without you I don't think I'd have gotten this far this fast -- please know as you read these words that I am thinking of you with loving appreciation for your examples and your stories. THANK YOU!!!!
In BLISS, Janelle
