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Here's my dad's obituary on the funeral home page. It has services information at the end. It will be printed in several local small town newspapers since he served a wide area as a veterinarian visiting farms. It is the same obituary I sent you all previously in the little flyer with pictures, with a few minor edits and the funeral info. https://www.ledfordfamilyfh.com/obituaries/larry-nienhiser Thank you for all the holding you have been doing. I was very much priestessing my dad's transition. My mom and sister struggled to be near him and nurse him because it was so painful for them. I spent long hours beside him talking to him, sponging water into his mouth, holding his hand, giving him morphine, and just sitting next to him quietly. I think this helped them do the same when they could. I realize I will now have my dad's role in the family, in a way. I have been taking over financials, organized the funeral, etc. My mother doesn't want to think about the financial and legal parts and feels she couldn't manage it. My sister would do it if she had to but is grateful that I am. love jill Sent with Proton Mail secure email.

Mom, Susan, and I are with Dad. He has had rapid decline in past two days. He is ready to go. Please hold us all as we sit with him. I hope he can be released from suffering soon. Sent from Proton Mail for iOS

Hi all, When I arrived a week ago Saturday, Dad had several busy, good days in a row. Tiring, but he was alert and talking. Sat we went to his hometown and farm, Sun to church, Mon friends visited, Tue minister visited, Wed he took calls. He and I talked business stuff throughout. However then Thu and Fri he was just sleeping most of the day, barely talking or eating or awake. I went home Fri evening and Susan came Sat-Sun. I just returned last evening and Susan and I overlapped briefly. She said Sat and Sun were much the same, a lot of sleeping. He wanted to go to church again yesterday, though, so Mom and Susan got him dressed and took him. Susan sat next to him and said he cried on and off throughout, needed several tissues. She thinks he probably figured it was the last time. When he is awake, his mind is good, if slow to react. However, he's quickly tiring now so the moments of being awake and alert enough to be present with us are not long. Hospice nurse was just here. We have to increase pain medication and get other things like a gel for his mouth because fentanyl dries out your mouth. So when he's been sleeping his mouth is dry and when he wakes it takes a while of drinking to hydrate enough to talk. When we were moving him on the bed it hurt him and he said he just wanted to die. He had said that some weeks ago while we were still awaiting the diagnosis, but I hadn't heard him say it since. The hospice nurse told me based on what she is seeing and her experience, that she thinks he might have 2-3 weeks left. So he may not see the end of July. I got teary off and on since then. At one point he sat up after she'd left and looked so alert. Didn't last, but he looked like I remember him from not that long ago. I tried to just savor that fleeting moment. "He's alive right now." Earlier last week when he was better, I had been hoping we could continue in that vein for a little while--I was rooting for him to make it to my parents' 60th anniversary, which will be Oct 13. The hospice nurse thinks that is definitely not going to happen, even if he does last a bit longer than 2-3 weeks. (I didn't want him to linger in pain or anything to get to that date; just, if he could have stayed at early last week's level for a bit, I had hoped for that possibility.) I'm waiting for long term care to call me back because I need someone to be here through the night. I've been sleeping at my aunt's, and I could sleep here, but he gets up a couple times in the night. My mom gets up with him and it exhausts her. It would exhaust me, although I'm not unwilling--but then I should just take Family Medical Leave because I'd be worthless to try to work during the day. But they've been paying big bucks for long term care that if I recall correctly includes up to 2 years of in-home care so I'm about to call some places that would provide someone to sit through the nights and help with some daily living activities so that LTC will reimburse. Will help for the wellbeing of the rest of us. Hospice will come 24/7 but only once they think death is likely to occur in the next 24-48 hours, and we're not quite there yet. Of course, I'm currently filled with sadness and regret. Shouldn't have moved far away, should have come home to visit more, should have called more, etc. etc. Should have visited more even in the time since the end of our travels when we moved to Kansas City. Trying to just let go of that. But it does hurt to realize soon he won't be "always there" like he always has been for me. love jill Sent with Proton Mail secure email.

Hey Sisters- Now that I have my SW cert finally accomplished, I’m moving towards a more mainstream coaching certification. It’s through the International Coaching Federation (ICF). Getting that cert will ultimately lead to a credential that can open doors to higher-paying coaching gigs (like corporate-flavored contracts). (And, mostly I’m doing it for my mental health. I do better when I have a big picture goal. It really helps my sense of purpose.) Anyway- it is a performance-based certification, and part of that is to submit two recorded coaching sessions. I’m reaching out in case if you or anyone you know might be interested in some coaching. And I’m talking “regular” ol’ coaching… NOT nearly as deep as Shadow Work? flavored coaching. The topics to bring could be a huge variety of things like: making plans, goal-setting, getting clarity on a situation at work or in a relationship, improving something in life/becoming more effective, gaining a skill, very task or project specific stuff (moving, organizing, configuring a garden, etc.), dealing w a conflict or overwhelm or busyness, exploring something like a new venture or a new career or a new training, etc…. It could also just be a place to sort through challenges or to think out loud and get some reflection without opinion. The recording can only be 20-40 mins, so it would be a relatively low time commitment for the “coachee”. Could be only one session or could be multiple sessions… depending on what the person is wanting to accomplish. I’ve hired a mentor coach to support me through this process. She’ll be giving me feedback on the recorded sessions as to if I’m meeting the “marks” to pass the certification. She suggested that I do as many recordings as possible because one or two of them might be golden, and it’s better to have them recorded that miss ‘em. By the way, we can confidentialize them by doing a different name (Jill could be Wendy, for example). Finally, I’m offering this at no cost or on a donation-basis. I benefit from the practice and having the recordings. Thank you for considering yourself or anyone you might know for this. Love, Gretchen Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her

Hi sisters, I sent Dane an email with a long recounting of all the many things I'd been doing all week. Then I wrote the following about the end of my sister's visit yesterday...Dane said it made him laugh out loud so I thought I'd share it with you... Meanwhile, at one point, Dad called everyone around his bedside. Important for all of us to be there. I wondered what was up, perhaps wanted to bless us each, or thank us, or talk to us about remaining faithful Christians or whatever. Did not expect him to say, "I need to tell you where all the guns are." I had no idea how many guns are in the house. I mean, not like the "patriots" but still, pellet gun, bb gun, couple of shot guns/rifles (both dad's first gun and grandpa's first gun), double barreled shot gun, couple of handguns. (Just for some context, as kids I remember I think two long guns in a corner that we were told were "dad's guns" and not to touch them, and we just didn't. I don't think they were ever moved or used. We basically had no curiosity about them at all...later I remember Dad saying he'd been given a gun one Christmas as a boy but he only ever told us about flushing rabbits to sell, that he did maybe once with his uncles. He never hunted in my lifetime that I know of. The rabbits they'd flush out of the field and shoot, gut, and put on a refrigerated train car in gunny sacks with their name and address attached. They went by train to St. Louis where someone they assumed sold the meat and pelts. They would send back payment of 50 cents/rabbit by mail. This would have been in the late 40s/early 50s I assume.)

Hey ladies. I am finding some extra time at night and looking for resources to explore. I'd love your recommendations for good books on: Goddess culture Archtypes Celtic mythology Pagan wheel of seasons Women's empowerment Other books that have really inspired you Also.. I have Netflix & youtube Any good documentaries, movies, etc Thanks for the reccomendation!

Had a good day Saturday with my family. My sister and I went to Lexington and picked up my parents. We took them to Blackburn, the tiny town where they grew up. We visited my grandparents farm, which is now my dad’s farm, and talked with the renter and my cousins. Then my dad wanted to drive around town slowly, looking at it for what he assumed would be the last time. He told us some stories as memories came up. Today he wanted to go to church so we did that. I noticed when we were putting the compression stockings on him that he had some droplets on his skin and little tiny blood spots on the stockings. That was new. The edema in his legs is worsening, causing tiny capillaries to begin to burst. That is not an expected progression of this diagnosis of terminal pancreatic cancer. The hospice nurse that I had come look at that told us that. It could’ve been worse today because of the big day that we had yesterday with him up for a long time not taking his regular naps. So it may calm down in the next day or two. Although it will certainly continue to progress eventually. My boss said that his dad had about eight weeks of edema in his legs at the end. I decided to takeoff this coming week at work so that I can take advantage of my dad‘s mental clarity. He is getting a fentanyl patch every 72 hours. That’s new he just had the second one put on yesterday. It’s working very well to manage his pain. He saying his pain is only had a one or two whereas before he was saying five. And he was putting off starting the morphine because he figures that it will lead to loss of mental clarity. With the fentanyl is pairing to manage it for now very well while leaving him mentally clear, if a bit slow. He is a bit agitated he keeps thinking of all these things he wants us to know and take care of. Today I went through all the financial accounts and got clear on what bills are paid automatically which we have to write checks for etc. Where are the different accounts are at Banks. As I take notes and ask him questions and get clear on those things it seems to take a load off his mind. He’s very worried about how my mom will fare without him. So I’m doing what I can to reassure him. I told my sister the latest about the edema, and that she might want to look for some opportunities in the coming days to see him while he still has mental clarity. It may be that his body could start shutting down, or that we have to give more pain relief, and that he could get confused or become unconscious etc. I think that will happen I just don’t know how soon. So she and her family and Dane are coming tomorrow to spend time with him. I’ll go over in the morning maybe cross a few more things off his to do list. In the hopes that we could maybe just enjoy the time together and relax when they get here. He has all these little things he wants me to know about the house, getting the gutters cleaned turning off the faucet in the winter outside, changing filters in the furnace etc. Wants to keep taking care of everything. At the farm Saturday and church today he took every opportunity to tell each person how he appreciated them and love them and to say goodbye. So it’s very emotionally bitter sweet. He’s always been a reserved man, so it’s interesting to see this side of him. And how easily he is crying. It was not something I ever saw growing up. For the most part I am not crying in his presence the way my sister very easily does. She hates that, she feels she should try to be strong. She’s worried that it upsets him and mom as well. I told her he knows that it’s because she loves him. And that I felt like perhaps people see me as coldhearted since I don’t cry. I’ve been telling her that I have been crying or choking up now and again in private. And when I told Dane about dad asking us to drive slowly through Blackburn so he could see it one last time, I started crying. Doing it again now telling you all. My dad is running us pretty ragged. Mom has been dealing with it daily for a while, and I got good and worn out today. He said he thought he might want to watc

Hello SSR Women! Hoping you are enjoying life and feeling GOOD. Our intention with this email is to be brief and thorough. The gist is to help for planning for September. Also note: Summer ritual update: postponed to fall… to Samhain time. OR- if anyone feels called/compelled to offer a virtual ritual via zoom between now and July 10th, please take the reins and go for it! (Tri-fohs will assist, if need-be.) The September weekend is right around the corner… 90ish days! And 8 of us said solid “yes” to meeting in person!! Read on for more info… Location: 542 Norton Road, Otis, MA Here is the Airbnb link to it: https://www.airbnb.com/rooms/19677989?c=.pi80.pkYm9va2luZy92MV9taWdyYXRpb24vcmVzZXJ2YXRpb25fYWNjZXB0YW5jZV9jb25maXJtYXRpb25fZ3Vlc3Q%3D&euid=918cd996-06bc-6d66-5a9d-7326cb067752&source_impression_id=p3_1656361510_PgpFF%2FnJJotDjSIe#house-rules BOS Logan is 2.25ish hours; BDL (Bradley in Hartford, CT is about 54 mins) The way we figured it, this location meets the needs of the women that named what they will do to take care of themselves during the weekend. Cost: plan for $190 per woman PROGRAMMING: we’re still considering this. If there is something you’re wanting or feeling you’d like to have happen during the weekend, please reach out to the TRI-Fohs by July 29th. In the meantime, scroll down and read more below if you’d like to hear about what we’re thinking/talking about. Numbers (only if you’re interested): 6 women are YES for in New England or OUTSIDE of NE 2 women are YES for in NE and a NO for outside NE That equals 8 for NE; 6 for OUTSIDE NE 4 women are NO for either location but will check-in/out per the SSR agreements (attending opening/closing circle or send a check-in email) 1 woman answered that she’s super committed to facilitating two rituals that weekend and can’t attend anything including no check-in… but I don’t know who answered that way 2 women didn’t reply to the survey monkey More info about what we’re thinking regarding the “program” of the weekend: First, here’s what we know: It’s our 10-year anniversary of being SSR! Amazing! Friday night will be opening circle Saturday… more below Sunday As Petra shared with us in April, she will be flying. We’ll have her flying ceremony in the morning. Business talk and the next co/tri-fohs will have an opportunity to come standing. (Start feeling into and deciding if you are up for the next year!) SATURDAY: Assuming all 8 of the yeses are still yes when the weekend rolls around, that will be the most women together since March 2020, so we’re considering loose / relatively unstructured time to simply connect and be together again… with some ritual included in there… maybe a dance party… art… that stuff. We’re also reviewing previous pitches (bitches!) to see what there is there. (HUGE thank you to Kelly for sending us that info… and it looks like you’ve organized it/typed it up, too, eh? You sneaky Priestess, Kelly! Thank you!!! ?) We are committed to having opening and closing circles, business time, and Petra’s flying ceremony as virtual activities; and we are committed to having opportunity for parallel activity on Saturday with one meal where there will be an open zoom room to connect (if the four-ish women that are not in-person are interested in that). That’s what we have so far… if there are questions, please let us know. In the meantime, send us any wants or feels that come up for you with regard to the weekend (no later than July 29). With love, The TRI-fohs Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her

Hi everyone, Yesterday was a crummy day for the Nienhiser family. My sister and I drove to Lexington (hometown, where my parents live, about an hour from our homes in Kansas City) to go with my parents to hear the results of the biopsy my dad had last week. It was positive for pancreatic cancer. They said stage three, advanced, but not spread beyond the pancreas. However, the mass is wrapped around the portal vein, making surgery not viable if he could even survive major surgery. And they don't think he's strong enough to tolerate chemo and radiation. Options were palliative radiation (fewer doses) in hopes of pain relief (I guess it could shrink it a little?) or hospice care. The doctor gave him a prescription for morphine. Three weeks ago when they told him the pet scan results were indicative of pancreatic cancer, they said they would recommend chemo and radiation; now they don't think he'd survive it. Pancreatic cancer is never a good diagnosis. However, I've been frustrated at the very slow pace of getting him seen, tested, results, seen, tested, results over several months now--long gaps between appointments, losing precious time. I would have liked him to try the cancer therapy of Dr. Nicholas Gonzalez, who had very good results with even pancreatic cancer. Wouldn't hurt, might buy him some time. However, my dad isn't open to it. We got home from the hospital and Susan and I stayed with my parents for the rest of the afternoon. My dad heard a death sentence (and I'm not saying he was wrong), and immediately was in "I'm dying" mode; "I'll be dead before the end of the year." I'm concerned he's going to talk himself into dying sooner than that. While I don't want him to suffer, I would wish for him to try for presence in the moments he has left. He believes that as soon as he starts the morphine, he will not be able to function mentally anymore. And maybe he is right (although my aunt, a retired nurse, said to me privately that we might be surprised...at first and at least for a while, it might relieve the pain and improve his mood and give him some good time, until we have to start increasing the dose past the point he can function). He got fixated on calling people to tell them he was dying, immediately. Leaving messages on answering machines if people didn't answer. He and my mom were worked up and my sister and I were struggling to establish a little calmness and talk him down from the ledge. He thinks if people want to talk to him they need to do it right away, before he starts the morphine. He could be right, but the rest of us were thinking, you don't have to call everyone TODAY, an hour after you heard this news. I finally talked him out of more calls when I pointed out that he'd just told someone he had COVID instead of pancreatic cancer. He agreed to get some sleep. My sister and I were talking in the car on the way home realizing we are wondering what it is that will kill him. If the pancreatic cancer keeps growing, will the pancreas stop functioning? Will pressure on other organs impair their function fatally? Or will the tumor just keep causing more pain from the pressure inside, and we'll have to keep upping the morphine until he overdoses? I hate seeing him in physical pain but also just seeing him debilitated physically and mentally. He has always been so capable, and so reliable. A constant, stable presence in my life. I knew that we were likely going to hear that he definitely had cancer yesterday. However, I thought he might be getting treatment, which will unlikely to cure him, might have bought him some time--hopefully good time. Of course there still might be some good days ahead. Seeing him yesterday, though, and how much worse he was just since I was last there, I worry that the dad I knew is already gone and I won't see him again. That he will be weak and afraid and in pain and angry and demanding for the remaining time we have and all we can do is try to ease him along to the end. He is frustrated and ordering us about as we get him dressed, in the car, into bed, getting him fed, etc. I am

Hello sisters, I'm a day late with this, but I thought this solstice celebrating song was just beautiful: https://youtu.be/A2r-uspx6LM From the comments: This song is praising oak trees - one of the symbols of masculinity in Latvian folklore. During the summer solstice (Jā?i) men (especially those named Jānis) will wear crowns made from oak leaves. The lyrics are about how mighty, powerful and old the oak tree is. You'll hear the same word (sounds like "lee-gwa") as a chorus at the end of every line...two comments: 1. "līgo" is basically a connective. Most summer solstice songs have "līgo" in the end of every line of the lyrics. The meaning of the word is a bit blurry - some say it means "to sway", but not really and it's almost impossible to explain. 2. Līgo means to sway in harmony, where everyone is on the same wave, just like when the wind is swaying trees, they all sway in unison, not chaotically. Beautifully filmed also, setting, traditional dress, flower and oak leaf crowns, instruments. If you know Karin Green, look for her doppelganger! Sent with Proton Mail secure email.

Hi Sisters- Thanks to those that filled out the survey monkey. For those that haven’t yet, I promise it’s super quick… less than 3.3 mins. Thanks! Love, the Tri-Fohs Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her From: gretchenkainz@... <gretchenkainz@...> Sent: Wednesday, June 15, 2022 1:10 PM To: '[email protected]' <[email protected]> Subject: oops... one more thing... RE: [Sacredsistersrising] Sept weekend RSVP- need reply NLT Jun 22 Hi again, I didn’t realize I forgot to include a question of “who are you” so that we know who replied. ? Sorry… didn’t realize until I’ve gotten a few responses, and I don’t know who answered. So- if you’ve already answered, please let me know. If you didn’t respond to it yet, no worries, please include your name somewhere in the survey. THANK YOU! Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her From: [email protected] <[email protected]> On Behalf Of Gretchen via groups.io Sent: Wednesday, June 15, 2022 11:26 AM To: [email protected] Subject: [Sacredsistersrising] Sept weekend RSVP- need reply NLT Jun 22 https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/SDZWTQT Hey Sacred Sisters, We are almost 90 days away from our September gathering (Sep 23-25). Per the Dec 2021 Agreements (specific section about Weekend Attendance copied below), we are asking for your RSVP via the SurveyMonkey link above no later than Weds, Jun 22nd. Although there are many things that are kind of “normal” again, we know there are many things that are not. Therefore, we’re being EVEN MORE intentional with the planning of the September weekend… and numbers for in-person attendance really matter! AND while we know that nothing is super predictable, we ask that when considering your RSVP, please have the mindset as if the state of the world in September will be like it is now (including COVID stuff and anything else that may be important to you). (Sure- it might be better or it might be worse. We have no way of knowing… so we’ve got to go with what is.) As an additional note, we have a question about attending if it’s held in New England and one about if it’s not in New England. There’s no agenda with those questions other than to inform our planning. Our numbers brought it our awareness to ask. Seven of us live outside of NE (this includes Petra for now, even though she has plans to fly). Seven of us live in NE. With love, The TRI-FOHs Weekend Attendance Women RSVP 90 days prior to the weekend Women pre-contact with the Co-facilitators about late arrival and / or early departure If a woman cancels attendance within 90 days of the weekend, she is responsible for: Finding a meal replacement Finding Leadership role substitute Paying her full financial portion of the weekend If a woman chose to be absent from a weekend but decides to attend after all, she will: Communicate with the Co-facilitators Pay the weekend fee Take on a leadership role Take on shared meal Women not attending the weekend either: Send a heart-share check-in by email prior to the weekend; and/or Remotely attend opening and / or closing circle Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her

Hi again, I didn’t realize I forgot to include a question of “who are you” so that we know who replied. ? Sorry… didn’t realize until I’ve gotten a few responses, and I don’t know who answered. So- if you’ve already answered, please let me know. If you didn’t respond to it yet, no worries, please include your name somewhere in the survey. THANK YOU! Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her From: [email protected] <[email protected]> On Behalf Of Gretchen via groups.io Sent: Wednesday, June 15, 2022 11:26 AM To: [email protected] Subject: [Sacredsistersrising] Sept weekend RSVP- need reply NLT Jun 22 https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/SDZWTQT Hey Sacred Sisters, We are almost 90 days away from our September gathering (Sep 23-25). Per the Dec 2021 Agreements (specific section about Weekend Attendance copied below), we are asking for your RSVP via the SurveyMonkey link above no later than Weds, Jun 22nd. Although there are many things that are kind of “normal” again, we know there are many things that are not. Therefore, we’re being EVEN MORE intentional with the planning of the September weekend… and numbers for in-person attendance really matter! AND while we know that nothing is super predictable, we ask that when considering your RSVP, please have the mindset as if the state of the world in September will be like it is now (including COVID stuff and anything else that may be important to you). (Sure- it might be better or it might be worse. We have no way of knowing… so we’ve got to go with what is.) As an additional note, we have a question about attending if it’s held in New England and one about if it’s not in New England. There’s no agenda with those questions other than to inform our planning. Our numbers brought it our awareness to ask. Seven of us live outside of NE (this includes Petra for now, even though she has plans to fly). Seven of us live in NE. With love, The TRI-FOHs Weekend Attendance Women RSVP 90 days prior to the weekend Women pre-contact with the Co-facilitators about late arrival and / or early departure If a woman cancels attendance within 90 days of the weekend, she is responsible for: Finding a meal replacement Finding Leadership role substitute Paying her full financial portion of the weekend If a woman chose to be absent from a weekend but decides to attend after all, she will: Communicate with the Co-facilitators Pay the weekend fee Take on a leadership role Take on shared meal Women not attending the weekend either: Send a heart-share check-in by email prior to the weekend; and/or Remotely attend opening and / or closing circle Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her

https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/SDZWTQT Hey Sacred Sisters, We are almost 90 days away from our September gathering (Sep 23-25). Per the Dec 2021 Agreements (specific section about Weekend Attendance copied below), we are asking for your RSVP via the SurveyMonkey link above no later than Weds, Jun 22nd. Although there are many things that are kind of “normal” again, we know there are many things that are not. Therefore, we’re being EVEN MORE intentional with the planning of the September weekend… and numbers for in-person attendance really matter! AND while we know that nothing is super predictable, we ask that when considering your RSVP, please have the mindset as if the state of the world in September will be like it is now (including COVID stuff and anything else that may be important to you). (Sure- it might be better or it might be worse. We have no way of knowing… so we’ve got to go with what is.) As an additional note, we have a question about attending if it’s held in New England and one about if it’s not in New England. There’s no agenda with those questions other than to inform our planning. Our numbers brought it our awareness to ask. Seven of us live outside of NE (this includes Petra for now, even though she has plans to fly). Seven of us live in NE. With love, The TRI-FOHs Weekend Attendance Women RSVP 90 days prior to the weekend Women pre-contact with the Co-facilitators about late arrival and / or early departure If a woman cancels attendance within 90 days of the weekend, she is responsible for: Finding a meal replacement Finding Leadership role substitute Paying her full financial portion of the weekend If a woman chose to be absent from a weekend but decides to attend after all, she will: Communicate with the Co-facilitators Pay the weekend fee Take on a leadership role Take on shared meal Women not attending the weekend either: Send a heart-share check-in by email prior to the weekend; and/or Remotely attend opening and / or closing circle Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her

Thanks for everyone's messages. My sister took my dad for his endoscope where a tube went down his esophagus to take a biopsy of the pancreas through the stomach wall. There was also a camera. They found a blocked bile duct and opened it and put a stent in it. And did a colonoscopy. All while he was merely (if heavily) sedated, not under general anesthesia. The opening of the bile duct relieved some of his pain, so that's good. He was able to get good sleep that day and night afterward. He's been so sleep deprived for so long. When I spoke to him the day after he was frustrated that he couldn't figure out how to send me and my sister a group text, he'd been working on it a long time when I called. He feels he is losing his capacities. I asked him to give himself a little more time to rest and recover from what was a big undertaking the day before, before he got too freaked out about his mental capacities. Hopefully he'll feel sharper again soon. We will get the biopsy results next Wednesday. In other news, Dane's grandma just turned 102. And Dane and I are having an overnight at a spa tomorrow for our fifth anniversary (a little early, since the spa had limited availability because of weddings). We'll have massages, spa time (whirlpools and stuff), nice dinner out, ghost tour, and a little sightseeing of the spa town (Excelsior Springs, Missouri). Love Jill Sent with Proton Mail secure email. ------- Original Message ------- On Tuesday, May 31st, 2022 at 8:56 PM, jnienhiser <jnienhiser@...> wrote: Hi sisters, In the last six months my dad started having some health issues. He has had digestive woes with enough pain in his gut that it hurts to lay down, so he has been getting very little sleep. He has lost a fair bit of weight quickly, too. (Six months or so ago at his annual physical, he was proclaimed to be in great shape for his age, so this change has been rapid.) A CAT scan showed what they thought was a cyst on his pancreas. These are usually but not always benign. Because of the weight loss though, they did blood work and a PET scan to rule out cancer. Unfortunately, those tests were consistent with cancer (PET scan only lighting up in the pancreas at this time). He's going to have a biopsy of the pancreas to be sure, but they are tentatively confident he has pancreatic cancer. They do not currently think it has metastasized. If the biopsy is positive, he will do radiation daily Mon-Fri for 4-5 weeks, and have a chemo pump that gives a slow drip of chemotherapy 24/7. Apparently this new low and slow chemo pump is supposed to minimize the usual chemo side effects compared to getting a lot in an IV once a week (or whatever the usual schedule is). I think the radiation/chemo is meant to arrest the cancer cells so they stop multiplying and hopefully prevent spread. If things look good, they might later surgically remove the cyst/tumor on the pancreas, which currently (CAT and PET) seems restricted to one area of the pancreas. The biopsy is next Monday; I assume he would start treatment ASAP after that if it's positive. We're certainly not happy at this news; for a week or so there we were working with the idea of a probably benign cyst that they could maybe drain or cut out. We'd hoped that would be it and that its removal would resolve many or all of his symptoms. He is 83, and already weakened from the loss of muscle mass, poor digestion, and poor sleep of the last several months. So we worry about him tolerating the treatment. My sister Susan and I are going to take turns staying in Lexington to drive him to the daily appointment at Centerpoint in Independence. (Mom still drives in Lexington and nearby small towns, but is no longer comfortable getting on the highways and navigating the bigger cities.) Here's hoping it goes well and leads to some relief and more time with us. Susan and I don't want him to suffer, and we don't want him to be debilitated--he has always been so independent. It is a big part of his identity, much more so than for example for my mother. Just wanted you all to know what is going on. I'll k

Hello Sisters! Have a look at the below... ?????? Finally! Love, Gretchen Sent from my phone to your face via magic! High-five! gretchenkainz.com -------- Original message -------- From: Vicki Subject: [SWFacils] Welcome Hello Everyone, It is with great pride and joy that I announce the certification of John Casey and Gretchen Kainz! They ran a beautiful weekend May 20-22 in Boulder. Both of them did an awesome job of setting the container and the safety for the group. They had 8 participants, with 4 men and 4 women. Each of the participants got a beautiful process. John and Gretchen were so loving and caring with each participant. They even had one process where all the other participants were in parts, yikes. They rocked it! The most impressive thing to me is that they have never facilitated together. John and Gretchen were seamless in their facilitation. They did all their preparation and practice for the weekend over Zoom. This was a sure sign of facilitators that are ready to be certified. Please welcome Gretchen and John to our community Vicki Woodard shadowork@...

Hi sisters, In the last six months my dad started having some health issues. He has had digestive woes with enough pain in his gut that it hurts to lay down, so he has been getting very little sleep. He has lost a fair bit of weight quickly, too. (Six months or so ago at his annual physical, he was proclaimed to be in great shape for his age, so this change has been rapid.) A CAT scan showed what they thought was a cyst on his pancreas. These are usually but not always benign. Because of the weight loss though, they did blood work and a PET scan to rule out cancer. Unfortunately, those tests were consistent with cancer (PET scan only lighting up in the pancreas at this time). He's going to have a biopsy of the pancreas to be sure, but they are tentatively confident he has pancreatic cancer. They do not currently think it has metastasized. If the biopsy is positive, he will do radiation daily Mon-Fri for 4-5 weeks, and have a chemo pump that gives a slow drip of chemotherapy 24/7. Apparently this new low and slow chemo pump is supposed to minimize the usual chemo side effects compared to getting a lot in an IV once a week (or whatever the usual schedule is). I think the radiation/chemo is meant to arrest the cancer cells so they stop multiplying and hopefully prevent spread. If things look good, they might later surgically remove the cyst/tumor on the pancreas, which currently (CAT and PET) seems restricted to one area of the pancreas. The biopsy is next Monday; I assume he would start treatment ASAP after that if it's positive. We're certainly not happy at this news; for a week or so there we were working with the idea of a probably benign cyst that they could maybe drain or cut out. We'd hoped that would be it and that its removal would resolve many or all of his symptoms. He is 83, and already weakened from the loss of muscle mass, poor digestion, and poor sleep of the last several months. So we worry about him tolerating the treatment. My sister Susan and I are going to take turns staying in Lexington to drive him to the daily appointment at Centerpoint in Independence. (Mom still drives in Lexington and nearby small towns, but is no longer comfortable getting on the highways and navigating the bigger cities.) Here's hoping it goes well and leads to some relief and more time with us. Susan and I don't want him to suffer, and we don't want him to be debilitated--he has always been so independent. It is a big part of his identity, much more so than for example for my mother. Just wanted you all to know what is going on. I'll keep you updated. Love, Jill Sent with Proton Mail secure email.

Hello Women from the Tri-fos!! Well time continues to move quickly, or maybe it's just me? ? This is just a little reminder of coming events...with more details to follow soon! There will be a June ritual coming in... well... June. I guess that one was self explanatory ? Also at the end of June (approximately the 24th) will be the time to RSVP about your participation in the September weekend. So start thinking about if you plan to attend in person or remotely. This will be important as we begin to look for a location. Reminder the weekend is September 23 to 25!! Also, we will be reaching out to make plans to honor our sister Petra ? So just a short and sweet one to tap you on the shoulder to say... we're beginning to turn our sights to our next events. Love to you all and hope you all are well, Paige, Noreen and Gretchen

Hello, Sacred Sisters! It’s US, the Tri-fohs with a quick check-in to thank you for the lovely weekend… some bits crunchy, some bits flowy, some bits with a shit-ton of tears…. It was all important! As we mentioned, here is the information about Chrissy’s non-profit and Heather’s playlist and contact info. Non-profit to which we (SSR) are donating about $150: https://fullcirclealliance.net/ And, just an FYI, Chrissy’s amazing working ranch… wouldn’t it be fun to meet-up there?? https://www.badgercreekranch.com/ The playlist Heather created specifically for our group: https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3m_5EgPEDn3zSSjeD4aE-hZCXSK1GoNL&feature=share Songs: Let It Go by Essie Jain Allegra by Wolfgang Ohmer I’ve Seen You in All Your Light by Be Still The Earth Gentle Flow by Wolfgang Ohmer I Am Light by India.Arie I’ve also attached Heather’s flyer/contact info in case you have any interest in working with her. Hoping you all are settling back in to life with ease and sweetness. Love, G, P, and N Yay! Life Rewards Action! High-five! gretchenkainz.com 850-774-2236 she/her

Dearest Sisters, my apologies for missing opening circle and for not being able to participate in this weekend. I have had a lot going on and my health seems to be demanding my attention right now. I awoke this morning to vertigo after feeling quite woozy all day yesterday. I will do my best to show up for closing circle on Sunday at 3p I believe. Much love to you all, Marsia-- Marsia S. Harris/Mother Turtle Artist and Creator of Healing the Stories We Tell Ourselves with Mother Turtle https://www.MotherTurtle.com