Lesson 70. My salvation comes from me.(1) All temptation is nothing more than some form of the basic temptation not tobelieve the idea for today. Salvation seems to come from anywhere except fromyou. So, too, does the source of guilt. You see neither guilt nor salvation asin your own mind and nowhere else. When you realize that all guilt is solely aninvention of your mind, you also realize that guilt and salvation must be in thesame place. In understanding this you are saved.(2) The seeming cost of accepting today's idea is this: It means that nothingoutside yourself can save you; nothing outside yourself can give you peace. Butit also means that nothing outside yourself can hurt you, or disturb your peaceor upset you in any way. Today's idea places you in charge of the universe,where you belong because of what you are. This is not a role that can bepartially accepted. And you must surely begin to see that accepting it issalvation.(3) It may not, however, be clear to you why the recognition that guilt is inyour own mind entails the realization that salvation is there as well. God wouldnot have put the remedy for the sickness where it cannot help. That is the wayyour mind has worked, but hardly His. He wants you to be healed, so He has keptthe Source of healing where the need for healing lies.(4) You have tried to do just the opposite, making every attempt, howeverdistorted and fantastic it might be, to separate healing from the sickness forwhich it was intended, and thus keep the sickness. Your purpose was to ensurethat healing did not occur. God's purpose was to ensure that it did.(5) Today we practice realizing that God's Will and ours are really the same inthis. God wants us to be healed, and we do not really want to be sick, becauseit makes us unhappy. Therefore, in accepting the idea for today, we are reallyin agreement with God. He does not want us to be sick. Neither do we. He wantsus to be healed. So do we.(6) We are ready for two longer practice periods today, each of which shouldlast some ten to fifteen minutes. We will, however, still let you decide when toundertake them. We will follow this practice for a number of lessons, and itwould again be well to decide in advance when would be a good time to lay asidefor each of them, and then adhering to your own decisions as closely aspossible.(7) Begin these practice periods by repeating the idea for today, adding astatement signifying your recognition that salvation comes from nothing outsideof you. You might put it this way:My salvation comes from me. It cannot come from anywhere else.<Then devote a few minutes, with your eyes closed, to reviewing some of theexternal places where you have looked for salvation in the past;--in otherpeople, in possessions, in various situations and events, and in self-conceptsthat you sought to make real. Recognize that it is not there, and tell yourself:My salvation cannot come from any of these things. My salvation comes from me and only from me.<(8) Now we will try again to reach the light in you, which is where yoursalvation is. You cannot find it in the clouds that surround the light, and itis in them you have been looking for it. It is not there. It is past the cloudsand in the light beyond. Remember that you will have to go through the cloudsbefore you can reach the light. But remember also that you have never foundanything in the cloud patterns you imagined that endured, or that you wanted.(9) Since all illusions of salvation have failed you, surely you do not want toremain in the clouds, looking vainly for idols there, when you could so easilywalk on into the light of real salvation. Try to pass the clouds by whatevermeans appeals to you. If it helps you, think of me holding your hand and leadingyou. And I assure you this will be no idle fantasy.(10) For the short and frequent practice periods today, remind yourself thatyour salvation comes from you, and nothing but your own thoughts can hamper yourprogress. You are free from all external interference. You are in charge of yoursalvation. You are in charge of the salvation of the world. Say, then:My salvation comes from me. Nothing outside of me can hold me back.Within me is the world's salvation and my own.<~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The commentary on this lesson (below) is from Kenneth Wapnick's eight volumeseries of books, called: "Journey Through the Workbook of A Course in Miracles,"which can be purchased at the following site:??~ M. Street~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Lesson 70. My salvation comes from me.*This is an important lesson, from which we quote a great deal. The reason forits importance lies in its explicit statement that the problem of guilt is inour minds. In other words, the cause of our distress is within, as is itsundoing. They are not, and <cannot> be found in anything external.*(1:1)"All temptation is nothing more than some form of the basic temptation notto believe the idea for today."*This is the purpose of all special relationships which proclaim: My salvationcomes from you -- whoever or whatever that special person, substance, oractivity appears to be. What makes me happy comes not from my mind's choice, butfrom what is external to it. The truth, of course, is that <salvation> can comeonly from the mind, since <slavation> (to indulge some word play) comes onlyfrom the mind.*(1:2-3) "Salvation seems to come from anywhere except from you. So, too, doesthe source of guilt."*What is appealing about the workbook is that most of the time you do not havethe complicated discussions found in the text. The statements are so clear itwill astound you how your eyes pass right over them. If you have done theworkbook in the past and are reading it again, you will be surprised at how muchyou did not remember or even notice the first time around. The above is anexample of such simplicity.*(1:4-6) "You see neither guilt nor salvation as in your own mind and nowhereelse. When you realize that all guilt is solely an invention of your mind, youalso realize that guilt and salvation must be in the same place. Inunderstanding this you are saved."*The purpose of the ego's thought system is to keep the problem away from theanswer. The ego makes guilt up as the defense against salvation -- theacceptance of the Atonement that is in our right minds. It tells us to take theproblem of guilt and project it onto someone else. Our problem now has becomesomeone else's guilt, not our own. Thus we spend the rest of our lives -- asindividuals and as a society -- trying to solve the mind's problem of guilt thatis perceived to be outside us. We attempt to alleviate pain by externalbehavior, yet all the time the real problem -- our choice to be a special andguilty individual -- is safely buried by the ego's defensive strategy. This isthe <double shield of oblivion> --guilt and body -- we have already discussed.*(2:1) "The seeming cost of accepting today's idea is this: It means that nothingoutside yourself can save you; nothing outside yourself can give you peace."*This includes A Course in Miracles, its author, and God. There is no one andnothing outside that can save us. From the perspective of the Course, this meansthe end of gurus, in the popularized expression of this Eastern practice. Onlyour mind's power to choose -- and this cannot be said often enough -- can bringus salvation and peace.*(2:2) "But it also means that nothing outside yourself can hurt you, or disturbyour peace or upset you in any way."*If one is true the other must be true, too, because <there is nothing outsideour minds.> No one outside can help us because there is nothing outside. This isanother way of understanding "the simplicity of salvation" (T-31.1).*(2:3-5) "Today's idea places you in charge of the universe, where you belongbecause of what you are. This is not a role that can be partially accepted. Andyou must surely begin to see that accepting it is salvation."*This is not referring to the universe of Heaven, but to the universe of ourminds and the world. We are in charge because we are the ones who chose it. The<you> in charge of this universe, again, is the <decision maker>. It has chosento be in the dream, but can just as easily choose to be outside it.To say that this role cannot be partially accepted means that we cannotlegitimately claim: "Yes, I can help myself here, but someone else has to helpme there"; or "I can ask for help with this particular problem, but not forothers." Forgiveness works all the time, or else it does not work at all.Remember that this is an <all> or <nothing> course.*(3:1-2) "It may not, however, be clear to you why the recognition that guilt isin your own mind entails the realization that salvation is there as well.God would not have put the remedy for the sickness where it cannot help."*As a brief summary of what was discussed in my Preface to these volumes, let mereturn to the theme of the language of A Course in Miracles. If taken literally,3:2 would mean that God does things. Obviously making it real, He has seen theerror of sin and sickness, and gives us the answer. Jesus' words do say this, asthey sometimes do in the text as well. To repeat a most important point,however, these are the words of metaphor. God does not have a plan in responseto the separation, nor does He create the Holy Spirit and place Him in ourminds. Moreover, our Creator does not set up an elaborate plan of the Atonementwhereby his Sons will awaken from the dream. Jesus just finished telling usthere is nothing outside that can save us! If so, He must be a dualistic BeingWho is external to the one He is saving.Jesus uses this dualistic language of A Course in Miracles because it is onewith which we can identify; a comforting way of speaking since it is familiar tous. Recall the passage we discussed before from "The Link to Truth"(T-25.1.5-7): Being thoroughly identified with a separated (i.e., dualistic)self, the state of perfect Oneness is unknown to us and so would the "language"that spoke of it. Thus Jesus utilizes the "ego framework" (C-in.3:1) in which toexpress his teachings -- the <reflection> of non-duality is what ultimately willlead us to non-duality.We return now to the sentence I just read, and continue.*(3:2-3) "God would not have put the remedy for the sickness where it cannothelp. That is the way your mind has worked, but hardly His."*In other words, our minds have separated the problem from the solution.Fortunately, "God thinks otherwise" (T-23.1.2:7). The memory of His Love enablesus to bring the problem (projected from the mind) back to the solution (in themind).*(3:4) "He wants you to be healed, so He has kept the Source of healing where theneed for healing lies."*To repeat, God does not want you to be healed. If He did, He would recognizethat you are sick. If so, He would be making the error real. To state it again,this is comforting set of symbols that we all find reassuring. It is importantto understand this is why A Course in Miracles is written dualistically. Thenon-dualistic truth is that God, by virtue of His very nature, is theever-present Source of healing: His memory in our separated -- and thus sick --minds.*(4:1) "You have tried to do just the opposite, making every attempt, howeverdistorted and fantastic it might be, to separate healing from the sickness forwhich it was intended, and thus keep the sickness."*We have already discussed that the ego's real fear is not of the Love of God,about which it knows nothing, but of the mind's power to make the right choice-- the decision maker's ability to say: "I chose the ego falsely, but there is aprinciple of truth in my mind still available for me to choose." That ability tocorrect the mistaken decision is the ego's fear, which supplies the motivationto carry out its strategy of making the Son of God mindless, thereby protectingitself against the "attack" of the Son's power to change his mind.The solution, therefore, is in our minds, because that is the source of theproblem, which does not lie in the ego thought system itself, but in ourdecision to identify with it. Consequently, the solution does not rest inchanging the ego thought system (the first shield of oblivion). The solutionlies in changing our minds about the ego thought system. To cite again thewonderful line:"Therefore, seek not to change the world, but choose to change your mindabout the world." (T-21.In.1:7)Changing our minds is therefore what A Course in Miracles is about, as we seeover and over again in these lessons. This goal should be quite evident by now,as should the place of the workbook in its curriculum.Let me re-read the first sentence of the paragraph: "You have tried to do justthe opposite, making every attempt, however distorted and fantastic it might be,to separate healing from the sickness for which it was intended, and thus keepthe sickness." That is what we want: to keep the sickness of specialness. Theintricate thought system of the ego and the complex world which arose from ithave one purpose only: to keep the sickness of believing we are special,autonomous, and separate from God.*(4:2-3) "Your purpose was to ensure that healing did not occur. God's purposewas to ensure that it did."*Remember, the <you> whose purpose Jesus is talking about is the decision makerthat likes the idea of being on its own. This puts the Son in direct oppositionto God, Whose Will is that He and His Son are one and never separate, as thenext paragraph reflects:*(5) "Today we practice realizing that God's Will and ours are really the same inthis. God wants us to be healed, and we do not really want to be sick, becauseit makes us unhappy. Therefore, in accepting the idea for today, we are reallyin agreement with God. He does not want us to be sick. Neither do we. He wantsus to be healed. So do we."*Jesus has to convince us that holding onto grievances makes us unhappy. It maymake everyone else unhappy, too. However, the only motivation that will work isending our misery and pain. We are not going to study and practice A Course inMiracles because Jesus says we should, but because we finally recognized thateverything we tried on our own has failed. We accept at last that only joiningwith Jesus will make us happy. Our decision to be with him thus reflects theunion of our will with God's, reflecting the decision to heal the separation.*(6) "We are ready for two longer practice periods today, each of which shouldlast some ten to fifteen minutes. We will, however, still let you decide when toundertake them. We will follow this practice for a number of lessons, and itwould again be well to decide in advance when would be a good time to lay asidefor each of them, and then adhering to your own decisions as closely aspossible."*Once again we see Jesus asking <us> to impose some structure on our practicing.It is not much, to be sure, but it is a beginning. His purpose here, as always,is to encourage us to pursue our training of wanting to think along with him, sothat we can forget our egos and remember God.*(7) "Begin these practice periods by repeating the idea for today, adding astatement signifying your recognition that salvation comes from nothing outsideof you. You might put it this way:My salvation comes from me. It cannot come from anywhere else.<Then devote a few minutes, with your eyes closed, to reviewing some of theexternal places where you have looked for salvation in the past;--in otherpeople, in possessions, in various situations and events, and in self-conceptsthat you sought to make real. Recognize that it is not there, and tell yourself:My salvation cannot come from any of these things. My salvation comes from me and only from me.<"*This is the purpose of our special relationships: the belief we can be helpedand made happy by something other than God. The purpose of this exercise is toreview how important this concept has been in our lives, and how painful. Thisis what will impel us, finally, to make the choice that will bring us true helpand happiness.*(8:1-5) "Now we will try again to reach the light in you, which is where yoursalvation is. You cannot find it in the clouds that surround the light, and itis in them you have been looking for it. It is not there. It is past the cloudsand in the light beyond. Remember that you will have to go through the cloudsbefore you can reach the light."*The aforementioned chart will serve us here as well, illustrating the processof moving beyond the clouds to the light; beyond the illusions of our specialrelationships to the truth of forgiveness. These lines make a very importantstatement: We cannot go from where we think we are directly to Heaven; we mustfirst go through the clouds of illusions. That is why Jesus teaches that freedomlies in looking at the special hate relationship (T-16.IV.1:1). We must look atour disturbed, sick, insane, and hateful thoughts before we can move past themto the love that is underneath. Salvation cannot be found in the clouds of theworld, but only in the light of the Atonement the ego has kept hidden, but whichhas never ceased to shine in our minds.*(8:6) "But remember also that you have never found anything in the cloudpatterns you imagined that endured, or that you wanted."*We do not really believe this; there is a part of us that still believes thereis hope for something here. We believe our specialness will yet work; we justhave to do it better. This kind of thinking is why we feel A Course in Miraclesdoes not help us. And so we have to be reminded -- continually reminded -- hownothing in the world has ever, or will ever, satisfy our longing for love andpeace.*(9) "Since all illusions of salvation have failed you, surely you do not want toremain in the clouds, looking vainly for idols there, when you could so easilywalk on into the light of real salvation. Try to pass the clouds by whatevermeans appeals to you. If it helps you, think of me holding your hand and leadingyou. And I assure you this will be no idle fantasy."*This is one of the very few places in the workbook where Jesus speaks ofhimself. Needless to say, it is a powerful statement. He is saying: "You woulddo much better going through the clouds with me." In fact, as Jesus makes itclear in other places: "You <cannot> go through the clouds without me." That iswhy, for example, he says that he needs you as much as you need him(T-8.V.6:10), a reference we have already seen. As long as you believe you arean individual body, you need another individual body to help you; a hand to holdas guide through the morass of specialness. When you attempt to go through theego's clouds of guilt by yourself you are doomed to failure, for such attempt isa shadowy fragment of the original error of trying to exist and create byourselves -- <without God>.In the end there is no you, no Jesus. no clouds -- only God. But that is at theend. As long as you identify yourself as a student of the Course, Jesus' help isextraordinarily meaningful. This is echoed in the plea to us in theclarification of terms, which states that although it is Jesus' message that isultimately important, he can still be of help to us:"Jesus is for you the bearer of Christ's single message of the Love of God.You need no other. It is possible to read his words and benefit from themwithout accepting him into your life. Yet he would help you yet a little more ifyou will share your pains and joys with him, and leave them both to find thepeace of God." (C-5.6:4-7).Thus Jesus says: "Do not make this journey without me.*(10) "For the short and frequent practice periods today, remind yourself thatyour salvation comes from you, and nothing but your own thoughts can hamper yourprogress. You are free from all external interference. You are in charge of yoursalvation. You are in charge of the salvation of the world. Say, then:My salvation comes from me. Nothing outside of me can hold me back.Within me is the world's salvation and my own.<"*The lesson closes with the important reminder that we are no longer justifiedin shifting responsibility for our spiritual impediments from our selves toexternal influences. Jesus wants us to remember as often as possible throughoutthe day that salvation comes only from us. This is the bad news to our egos, butthe best news for the part of our minds that wants to return home. Nothing inthe world can prevent this return, and since this is what we truly want, wecannot help but succeed.*
Love and Blessings,
Lyn Johnson 719-369-1822
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